So I'm going to be honest about something. When I'm on stage at my concerts I do ALOT of self harming, I can't get rid of things by talking about them or by relaxing. I just constantly dwell and dwell on them. Suddenly when I'm on stange and I'm singing I feel all the pain again and I take it out on myself until I'm covered in my own blood. In that moment I feel releif and solace... I don't understand it but I do. Yeah.
The point of the thread was whether the act of suicide (as in, completion or "successful" suicide where the suicidee dies) was selfish, not the contemplation or thought of suicide.