Random Thoughts 15

yep....I feel like shit.

 

I think my dad gave my mom a bracelet this year. 'Cause he gave it to her last night...he couldn't wait apparently...that or he wanted his pity apology now.

 

Thanks I said thank you, and also said that I loved her, and I also apologized for not being a perfect son.. But I didn't post that. In any case I now have some Anime to watch lol

 

Holy fuck, Thrice's "Red Sky" in FLAC is AMAZING.

 

Fuck this shit.

 

THIS IS THE REASON WHY I FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING HOLIDAY. IT MAKES EVERYONE FEEL LIKE FUCKING SHIT, AND I'M FUCKING DONE.

 

I dunno...that writing in the snow was top shit, how can he top it?

 

Today is Singles Awareness Day, as far as I'm concerned.

 

..I'm sorry?

Actually, I don't find being emotional all that bad.

 

I just look at it as a random good ol' Thursday...

...which means shitty wrestling is on, DAMMIT!

 

It's hard to do that when everyone's getting fucking flowers and candy and shit, and my roommate is getting flowers from TWO GUYS and my own mother didn't even send me flowers like she used to because "oh jay will give you some" when he cant even fucking visit me because he can't find a fucking job and then her present for me gets lost in the mail and i cant give jay his presents and everyones wearing red and pink and LADEFUCKINGDAH.

im in black listening to stabbing westward crying on fucking valentines day. same thing, every year. listening to some industro-rock band, crying in the corner, on every valentines day because i am always let down. i'm done being let down.

and thats why im quoting stabbing westward again.

"if i must be lonely, i think i'd rather be alone.
you cannot save me, you can't even save yourself."

 

All those years down the drain
Love was not enough
W hen you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart

'Cause I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be led down the same old road
Said I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be led down the same old road

 

I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world alone
So you're searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

I know that you've been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
I am just as fucked as you
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me

My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone
I think I'd rather be alone

You can not save me
You can't even save yourself
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
Save yourself
So just save yourself

*sigh*

 

Long live my radio; it never lets me down,
Long live my radio; give me sound,
Long live my radio; please make it alright,
Long live my radio tonight!

 

Forget about the shit that we've been through
I wanna stay here forever and always
Standing here in front of all of you
I wanna stay here forever and always

 

I've been out most of today and I never realised it was Valentine's Day.

I never saw that girl either, fortunately.