Got Something You Want To Let Out?

I think today was the day in my life I have shed my tears the most.
All the emotions in our family we're boiling for ages and today, it finally splashed.

To start with, A few days ago my sister went to London with her boyfriend. (After weeks of begging my mother finally let her)
The problem is, when she left, My mother told her. DONT go to Zeeland after you come back from London okay? (Zeeland is where her boyfriend lives) She said yes, and they left.
So yester my mom recieved an Message on her cellphone, wich my sister sended her, saying she was coming home tomorrow, and that she did Not go to zeeland.
My sister lies a lot. and my mother doesnt trust her, So she called 'Marks house, (her bf) And Guess what? Anya picks up.


So yesterday my mother has been crying and crying and telling me that It's like her own daughter has betrayed her.
Well it doesn't sound that bad i know.
But the problem is, we live here together with my stepfather, and he is just waiting for the day that my mother gets hurt by one of her daughters. So she has to hide all her emtions from him (God they hardly even talk) because she doesnt'want to believe the fact that it IS true.

The nother problem is, My mother and I and my sister, We were planning to move out (My stepfather doesn't know) and we've looked for a house (low income) and it was just a piece of shit.

So 2day during lunch (my stepfather wasn't home)
It started.
My mother started crying and saying that You don't know how it feels, I've got no one to talk to here and blabla bla bla ( We lived in America and moved to Holland because of My sister) Everyone keeps blaming my mom for all the shit.
AFter my mother was done getting furious, my sister started.
It went on and on and we all cried, and I feel reall ysorry for my sister and my mother.
My mother is sending her to my father's now. In shanghai..

I really do not want her to go!!! My mother neither, but she says she can't take care of her anymore.

I know the story is really vague and It's too complicated an too long to tell, But I feel like i am a Middle Pole. STanding btween 2 people who can't get along. So when I'm talking wiht my sister, I have to say good things about mom. And the other way around.
In order to get them to talk to each other again.
She's gone now. I don't know where my mom went but she didn't come back for 8 hours since she left.

I can't talk to anyone about this because nobody really understands, so I'm sorry for this story, but I just needed to write it down and slam the typing board

HFWAIOEHWIOEFHWOF.

 

i'm confused and don't know what to do about my girlfriend...

 

same thing about my boyfriend..o__O

 

bleh... ok i broke up with her now... not that i wanted to, but things wernt the way they were before, i broke up with her for her sake, not mine. i did it because i felt she didnt want to be around me and didnt really want to talk to me, and that she really wanted some-one else because she talked about another guy a lot, kissed him and admitted to fancying him, and when i got annoyed at her for kissing him she failed to see what she had done wrong (she did apologise, but when i asked her what for she said 'i don't know' and then just before she left said 'sorry for whatever i did wrong' which means she knows she did, but cant see that it was wrong). also yesterday i tried to talk to her about it, try and put things strait, but she wouldnt listen to me. so... maybe it was for the best.

 

bleh... ok i broke up with her now... not that i wanted to, but things wernt the way they were before, i broke up with her for her sake, not mine. i did it because i felt she didnt want to be around me and didnt really want to talk to me, and that she really wanted some-one else because she talked about another guy a lot, kissed him and admitted to fancying him, and when i got annoyed at her for kissing him she failed to see what she had done wrong (she did apologise, but when i asked her what for she said 'i don't know' and then just before she left said 'sorry for whatever i did wrong' which means she knows she did, but cant see that it was wrong). also yesterday i tried to talk to her about it, try and put things strait, but she wouldnt listen to me. so... maybe it was for the best. [/b][/quote]
wow... u were right to do so. If someone cant understand that cheating is wrong, (cuz it was cheating) then they dont deserve to be loved. Just my opinion though

 

Giddy.


























Crush.

 

The exact same thing happened to me....


But I haven't broken up with her since I care for her too much , we've been going out for just under half a year but I think things are going slowly downhill now but I just can't let her go....

 

The exact same thing happened to me....


But I haven't broken up with her since I care for her too much , we've been going out for just under half a year but I think things are going slowly downhill now but I just can't let her go.... [/b][/quote]
That's true too. It's tough to let go. But you can't play sucker either. Oh well, I hope you make the desision thatz right to you.

 

Wow... this is my first post since Katelyn's funeral. This is probably the hardest part of life yet... I miss her a bunch.

EDIT: Wow, this is just the worst time of my life. It turns out my grandma has cancer. And my uncle just died. This is insane. I don't know what the fuck to do.

 

oh im sorry, sweetie. things will get better. death is hard to deal with because you keep coming to the realizations of the death. but im so sure things are going to get better. :hugz:

 

Same thing as before, it's in here.

 

huh?

 

My 'Got something to let out' is the same as the last one I posted in here.

EDIT: But I do have a confession to make.

I think Trent Reznor in the We're In This Together Video is hot.

 

oh i c. yeah ur in a tough situation. im in the same thing right now...kinda. its sux. it really does.


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hehe its fine to think ppl of the same sex are hot

 

:hugz:

 

i need to get away from it all....ive had enough abuse, and enough s**t from everyone

 

these pills are screwing me up. the only feeling i feel right now is anger and hatred for everything. also she tried to make me go out with her best mate last night, as in actualy tried to force me. wouldnt let me say no etc. so in the end i just left.... i am really really angry with her right now.

 

Aw babe :hugz:
Life will get better eventually.
For every bad thing that happens, there's a good thing. That's what I believe in.
I know there's not much to look forward too, but believe me, better times will come.
I hope you will feel better soon.

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Of dissapointing people.

 

I know exactly what you mean.

 

I know exactly what you mean. [/b][/quote]
Ahh you cant be afraid of dissapointing people. I mean you cant impress everyone.