Got Something You Want To Let Out?

i'm bleeping bored.

 

Thanks. It's not all girls, just some. Weird thing is, she's turned out to be REALLY nice, like we catch up all the time now. So I guess somewhere down the track it could become more. I have to admit I did give in and buy something for someone else for Valentines Day . But you can't really consider it a Valentines gift. I just bought a little something for a friend of mine who hasn't been feeling great lately (her bf left her for someone else, etc) just to try and cheer her up. So it was purely from a friend, ergo can you really consider it a Valentines gift?

BTW, the name's Daniel. I'd change my LPA name to it if I hadn;t changed my name only a few months ago

 

So I like him. Some things have happened to make me think that maybe he likes me too. I got his number from a friend. Should I text him?

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. What's the big deal, really?

 

Go for it Mali, and if he acts weirdly, say that it was in the spirit of the day or whatever.

 

Financial situation:

I owe a friend 75$.
I have 2 tickets, which in total are about 170$.
I have rent, 144$.
I have insurance bills, 200$.
I have to renew my inspection sticker, 40$.
I received the apartment repair bill, and it's 1,319$ split four ways, so 400-something$.

I have 40$ to my name and no job.

I'M FUCKED.

 

wow, what the hell are u gonna do?!?!

 

I don't know.

I don't know at all.

 

good luck.

 

for the first time in a long, long time...i'm seriously considering digging through my mother's jewerly cabinet and finding my knife. sick of being lied to, sick of being hurt.

my mother should have thought twice and pulled the plug.

 

too little too late. the way i feel was just written on my veins with a rusty knife.

 

because i hate who i am. i always have, i've just hidden it better than anyone on this site. i want to destroy my body. i want to die. i'm not scared anymore, man. why do you think i did 3 grams of coke in a little less than 2 weeks?

this is my best revenge.

 

maybe it will if i cut deep enough. all my problems will be solved then. i'll finally get the satisfaction i want.

 

satisfaction in what? satisfaction that all those people who hurt me before...they'll all be at my funeral, regretting it all. maybe my father will come to his senses and realize that maybe he should have talked to me more.

 

A good job isn't going to make me forget about the girl who I gave literally everything I had in my soul to, and she just trashed it. A good job isn't going to make my dad regret not being there when I was growing up, and not talking to me now. A good job isn't going to make any difference. Maybe if I was looking for revenge on a football player or cheerleader, but I'm not.