Got Something You Want To Let Out?

thanks everyone :hugz: i guess i'll be waiting for that friend for a little while and then i'll see what to do... :wth:

 

Well.. I met this guy.. we kept talking to eachother and flirting alot so eventually he asked me to homecoming.. I was really excited and I excepted. We had a great time, but after homecoming he had to confess to me about something.. He sat me down and gave me this whole story about how he's been dating this girl named Sabrina for three straight years. They were in love.. but then her family moved to Georgia and he was like "Forget that.. How about a long-distance relationship". But then that didn't work out too well because they kept constantly fighting alot because of them being apart. He's been depressed over it for ages now, but he says until he met me he wasn't happy.. But he wants to be with me really badly because he likes the feeling of being normal again and having a girlfriend that he can actually be with. He's having a little trouble though breaking up with Sabrina because he cares about both of us alot.. But I told him several times he has to choose one or the other.

I don't hate him.. we've been together though for at least two months now though because him and his girlfriend have been on a break for now. But we both aren't really going out it's kind of confusing. Were together as a couple.. but were able to see other people.. but we don't. So were dating it's quite complicated.. He's hesitant on officially making me his girlfriend at the moment and i've been sticking with him every step of the way because I believe somehow some way I will get the chance to be with him. It hurts me alot yes.. but I guess i'm willing to wait. He said to me I didn't have to wait if I wanted and that he would completley understand.. But.. the other day I finally got what I wanted. The girl in Georgia broke up with him. But I feel so so bad.. He was crying he said to me that he begged and pleaded her not to leave him. I don't know why I allways have to feel so awful for other people but I can't help it.. so I comforted him and said I was sorry.. Of course this is what I wanted but I care about him and I want him to be happy.

Well.. this is what happened after that.

mindless178: it seems like partly my fault as well.. I kinda.. made you go on that break..
mindless178: so.. i'm sorry
fordprefect840: dont worry about it
mindless178: yeah..
fordprefect840: look from here on out i dont know whats going to happen
mindless178: what do you mean
fordprefect840: i mean i dont know how im going to react to being around you anymore
mindless178: why..?
fordprefect840: because im messed up ok
fordprefect840: and while it is my fault im partially blaming it on you which i shouldent because you didnt do anything
mindless178: oh..
fordprefect840: and my feelings about a lot of things have changed
mindless178: even me..
fordprefect840: yes
mindless178: I don't.. understand why I tried really hard to be with you.. I cared.. so so much about you. And went through everything, and even was with you when you were still partially with your girlfriend and was willing to wait. I would do anything for you probably.. i'm even trying to make you feel better over your girlfriend breaking up with you.. no matter how much it bothers me that I just wish I could be with you. But it's fine.. It's not like any of it matters then.. you've hurt me way to much for me to even care right now. You can do what you want...
fordprefect840: you know thats the second time in 2 days ive heard that
fordprefect840: you over her her over you
fordprefect840: now do you see its my fault i screwed up all i ever do is hurt people
mindless178: well i'm sorry..
fordprefect840: i am a bad person
mindless178: no your not you just confuse me I try really hard and I don't know what else you want me to do.. it's just after all this now is when you decide you don't want to be with me
fordprefect840: i didnt say that i just dont know anymore
fordprefect840: everything is so crazy
fordprefect840: to be honest the only person i really want to be with is sabrina im sorry but i told you that i told you all of this i told you to not get to serious but you didnt listen thats not my fault what is my fault is doing the things i have done to make you feel this way but i layed it all out and let you know from the get go
fordprefect840: i know i have hurt you
mindless178: I don't care..
mindless178: I really don't..
mindless178: I give up..
fordprefect840: look im sorry ill make this all up to you i swear just give me time i gotta go for now i love you ill talk to you later dont fret too much ok
mindless178: even if you were with me you'd probably be sad over sabrina the whole time anyway. You can do what you want..
fordprefect840: please dont be mean
mindless178: Okay..
fordprefect840: and yea i would be sad
fordprefect840: sorry for feeling feelings
mindless178: I never said you couldn't
fordprefect840: im going to try to make this all better im sorry i gotta go love you ok
mindless178: mhmm..
fordprefect840: ok byee for now
mindless178: bye

Now I don't know what to do I can't stand this anymore.. It's depressing me greatly. Some of you may think of me as crazy but I can't stand being angry with people and i'm just.. not a mean person. So yeah.. that's pretty much all I have. Three months and this is what it turns into..

 

Complicated. He didn't say "I love you" back....I don't like the fact that he had 2 relationships and you didn't know.

I don't know about this stuff though so I won't try...
Just don't get hurt alot, just a little since no one can help but feeling sad :hugz:

 

He did say I love you lol.. I'm mindless178. I did know about the two relationships since the beginning but it's.. yeah.. complicated.

 

geeze im sry, hun. that has godda suck. i understand what ur goign thought kinds. i am going thought the same kinda thing...kinda.

but that would annoy the hell out of me, then u feel bad cuz ur mad at them. yeah i totally get it.

but im not sure what to tell you. that guy needs to make up his mind! i would get annoyed like that too. if he doesnt make up his mind soon he will have no one. then he will probly either crawl back to you or find someone who is bad for him.

3 months is a long time. he needs to work things out. obviously this long disstance thing istn working out. so he has to do what is better for him. i.e. g/o w/ u.

the problem is convincing him of that :wth:

 

ok this may sound weird and all but whatever i just feel like saying this cause i'm bored as hell so might aswell say this

ok about 5 months ago i started going out with this guy, and like we were all close and stuff, he feel in love with me and i fell in love with him yada yada, then like 4 days after he told me he loved me he went and left me for another girl, about a week after that he said sorry to me and we got back together, and then he had to move to Denmark, so we could only be together over the internet, then about a month later he said his mom was gonna sell his pc so he wouldnt be online for a while and he was gonna end the relationship till he could get back online, so then after another month he hadnt come online, so i started talking to his brother who lives here in london, and he was asking how i was doing after this whole break up thing, and i started telling him how i felt yada yada, and the he said "Well squirt's just a dumbass, i mean he left u once for another girl, and u still got back with him, and tehn he left u the second time for the same girl and..." and after he said that i said "wait he left me for another girl? i thought his mom sold his pc" and he said "i told u, squirts a dumbass, i mean only he would lie to you about that" and then a few days later squirt(thats the dude's name) got online, and i asked him why he lied to me yada yada, and then he said it was because he didnt liek me anymore, and then i found out the girl he left me for was my best friend, and then after that i did the most horrible thing to get revenge on him, i got with his best friend, now this was about 3 months ago, i cant remember, ok well yea anyway when i got with his best friend i actually did like him, i liked him for ages now, and then when squirt found out he got all pissed off and started telling mikey (his best friend) that he had to stay away from me or he'd kill him yada yada i forgot the rest, and then mikey never really listened to him, and then mikey eventually fell in love with me, and then like a few weeks later he started to think i still had feelings for squirt, and then he left me, and now i like squirts brother, and the whole problem is that squirts brother is too loyal to squirt and mikey, and then he eventually told squirt and mikey that i liked him, and now they both hate me, and then i did a very very very bad thing, i ended up getting with squirt's brother...and they kinda dont know it yet, and when they find out i'm sooo dead

ok yea i'm one weird girl....oO XD

 

I hate it when people walk around thinkin they are somethin special and look down on people, we have alot of it round school and shit, what makes them better than others

 

My heart's pounding.






I'm talking to him.

 

Nothing makes them better than others, they just have big egos and act like jackasses.
That's going to get them into big trouble one day...just wait, or my favorite: do something!

We don't have alot of that in my school so I wouldn't really know, sorry.

@ Omega: Your heart is pounding when you're talking to him only...you must really like him. Good Luck!

 

Nothing makes them better than others, they just have big egos and act like jackasses.
That's going to get them into big trouble one day...just wait, or my favorite: do something!

We don't have alot of that in my school so I wouldn't really know, sorry.

@ Omega: Your heart is pounding when you're talking to him only...you must really like him. Good Luck! [/b][/quote]
Now you're the Personal Jesus of the thread.

If you have seen my post somewhere above these, you know what I mean.

 

I think I like boys too much.

 

I killed Superman.

 

geeze im sry, hun. that has godda suck. i understand what ur goign thought kinds. i am going thought the same kinda thing...kinda.

but that would annoy the hell out of me, then u feel bad cuz ur mad at them. yeah i totally get it.

but im not sure what to tell you. that guy needs to make up his mind! i would get annoyed like that too. if he doesnt make up his mind soon he will have no one. then he will probly either crawl back to you or find someone who is bad for him.

3 months is a long time. he needs to work things out. obviously this long disstance thing istn working out. so he has to do what is better for him. i.e. g/o w/ u.

the problem is convincing him of that :wth: [/b][/quote]
Yeah.. well.. we got in a fight yesterday and he's ignoring me. I'm kind of ignoring him actually.. I'm the one who started the ignoring. He just.. it's been over a day now and i'm panicking because he won't speak to me. Maybe i'm just over paranoid but I dunno..

 

I brushed my shoulders off at the prom

 

Now you're the Personal Jesus of the thread.

If you have seen my post somewhere above these, you know what I mean. [/b][/quote]
No, I just have a big mouth and answer everything!

@ Chris(tmas): LOL, all the ladies must have loved you =P
Had a good time?

 

I had an amazing time. It was awesome

 

Fights like that are the worst. They're what I fear most...fighting with a friend and blowing the whole friendship over something that's usually pretty stupid. I've had it happen before, and when the friendship didn't end, it was just never really the same...there would always be this feeling of tension. Hope everything works out fine for ya...

 

Great! Their should be a party smilie somewhere...

@ Anya: Really sorry, would love to help but again I'm not the expert in this department.
Get the fight over and done with, say sorry even if it wasn't your fault, that's what I always do.
It might be a big gulp of pride for you but it's always better to say sorry even if you don't mean it.
Hope it works out :hugz:

 

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I told that lad I was rambling about how I felt and I haven't seen him since because we haven't been at school, so I don't know how he took it! But today a very good friend saw him in town with a Muslim girl and she was approximately our age. So me and my friend have come to the conclusion that it was possibly his wife to be!! I'm not in the best of moods about it, I don't want to loose him yet. :wth:

Anya: That seems like a horrible situation to be in, You will probably feel worse if you hang around waiting on him, chances are you will end up hurt again.. I hope everything goes okay for you!

 

i didn't go to school today