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Oh, Anya I hope everyone and everything pulls through fine for you and your friends. That must be terrible.

 

Thankyou, so do I.

 

Fucking hell, i fucking hate distances.

I met this girl on a site and I had good conversations with her so we had the idea of seeing each other irl. So we did, she came to my town and last monday i went to her town. And now, we both have feelings for each other but the distance between me and her is pretty big. Its almost 1½ hour with the train and another 45 minutes with the bus. I really want to keep seeing her, and she wants to keep seeing me but she says that she cant deal with the distance. She'll miss me and it'll drive her insane and I have NOOO fucking idea what to do. I really want her.


fuck.

 

If you guys really care about each other, you find ways to make it work. That distance is EASILY overcomeable. I have to deal with 800 miles between me and Jess. 14 hours by car, 4 by plane. We've been together for 2 months now and incredibly happy. So if you both are willing to make it work, then make it work, but that's exactly what it'll be, WORK. I'm not gonna lie, it's fucking hard but we still get through it. Very soon she's moving here and everything will be a lot better, but that doesn't mean we can't be together now. Distance sucks, yeah, but you have distance you can work with. You can definitely do it. And should.

 

both my mother and my father has diabetes. it scared me to death when my dad went to the hospital for it. i was in tears, but he pulled through. i hope your friend makes it all right. as for laurel, i hope she turns out fine as well. im sorry she's gone, but its probably for the best. good luck to you and your buddies.

 

Hahaha, I wanted to do that so bad, but if I did that, it would have made the chances of getting their money even smaller.

Thankyouuu Mali, you are a fantastic person as well.

 

Yeah, yours is a bit futher (?) away

I know it could work, but she says that she cant handle that and that she'll hurt me. I'll talk with her, because I really feel happy around her. Thanks

 

Once again, a hug for everyone cause I feel a bit sad for everyone here with hard times and I'm bad at comforting in real and on the net so here a hug.

 

I'm in full agreement with Marj; I have nothing useful or comforting to say. So, Tomi, Chris, Nate, Masato, you all;

 

So, now I know just about everything. Explains a lot, including my speech problems.

And this has happened before when I was younger. *sigh*

 

I could have sworn we were going to Al Attar Tower today when we left the airport in the car. I knew it was silly but I still got a shock when we arrived at our apartment. Sometimes the nostalgia hits hard and sometimes I really miss it back there, but I don't live there anymore and it's unlikely that I'm going back and then I realise that I don't really care, because I don't miss anything all the time, all I miss is having best friends to talk to and all that and it's all so very confusing. This is home.

 

Sometimes, my parents, both of them, just make me want to kill myself (which I won't). Ugh, 2 more years. Just 2 more fucking years.

Maybe I can hide in Matt's suitcase when he leaves back for Winnipeg. Actually, y'know, since they're leaving for Mexico on the 24th (or was it 23rd?) I might be able to just book myself a 1-way flight to Winnipeg. Oh, that'd be great. Of course it'd never happen, but yeah, I can keep dreaming.

 

???

 

check your email.

 

So that girl I really really liked has a new boyfriend. And for the first time in my life, I'm okay with it. I had one of those feelings in my stomach when she first told me, but after that I just dealt with it. I'm really proud of myself. And I get my driver's liscence in like 2 weeks, which means I can spend more time with people, school starts so I'll be able to meet new people that hopefully won't be jackasses or arrogant sluts like I've met this summer, and I won't be working much. Things are looking up, and while I still feel like things for me are shit, I'm beginning to realize it could be worse. I'm actually kind of happy, and I know that to a lot of you it seems I'm always happy, but really I never am. I almost think I might have some kind of clinical depression, though I kind of doubt it. Anyway, my uncle is getting through his cancer, so that's good. Life is looking up for the Branden.

 

A couple nights ago, my girlfriend and I finally kissed.
I mean, we've kissed before, but it wasn't anything like this.
She said she was afraid of kissing because she didn't know if she was any good at it or not, and didn't want me to think she was lame because she didn't know how to kiss.
The best part is that she's actually an amazing kisser, and I got her to realize that she doesn't have to be afraid.
We've also gotten a lot closer the past few weeks.
It's so weird being with someone who isn't using you.

 

*thumbs up* Realizing this is the first step towards being even more happy; being positive really does help.

 

Jess is moving here early. She can't be around her dad anymore. One more hit and I'll destroy him myself. I'm just so nervous to have her here, and I don't know why.

 

It's gonna be great, I'm sure.
I never replied to any of your posts in here. But I followed them and I think you both are strong together.


Branden good to hear hun.

 

I guess I'm just nervous cause I've never lived with someone else and it's new. Now the choice has to be made, drive it in one day, 14 hours, or make it with bare minimum money in 2 days and sleep in the car?