Got Something You Want To Let Out?

First off, seriously people, lay off of Casey.
If you want to try and help him, then help him, don't fucking insult him and say he's a loser druggie. He doesn't do the same thing and say you're a loser for not doing drugs, so don't do it to him. It's kind of called being a jackass. If he doesn't want your help, then don't try and help him.

Secondly, thanks to everyone who told me to tell her, I've sort of hinted at it, and I think it's really going right now to the point where its sort of realized that we're dating. I talked to her and we both kind of feel like we're dating, so I think that's a good sign. If it goes downhill, I'll take your advice.

Thirdly, if the LPA Awards is a failure, blame me. I'm really being lazy with it. I'll try and step it up, sorry. I've just been very busy with non-computery things.

 

I AM AN ATTENTION WHORE, OKAY?​

 

Someone tell me what to do.

I was with my girlfriend for 9 months. She was fun to be with at first, but when I got to know her more she was overobsessive, she wanted tons of my time, and she annoyed the hell out of me when I wanted to do other things. She has always been amazingly nice to me, doesn't care what anyone else thinks, and loves me unconditionally, but I met another girl who I believe is like 10x more amazing, in my opinion. She has everything in common with me, I love talking to her, and I really really like her.

The problem is, she's alot younger than me, and I feel like she's a little out of my league. We both tell each other that we love each other, and we both know we want to go out, but no one has asked yet. My ex, on the other hand, is trying anything she can to win me back. She's making promises, trying to do stuff for me, buy me stuff, and do anything she can to get me back because she loves me sooo much. The other girl is three years younger than me, but she's amazing. I have known people dating others even further apart, and I don't think it's wrong unless I'm doing it for to take advantage of her, which I'm not, but it's a really confusing area.

 

I'm stupid. I don't want to know my boyfriend's past but I'm so stupidly curious that I ask for it. After it I feel madness and jealousy in me. Stupid, stupid me.

 

First off, I completely agree with you. It's Casey's business, he's responsible for what he does; it's his decision to do what he does, so you just have to fucking respect it.

Secoundly, I wish you luck, Branden. Just try not to rush accidentally, if you know what I mean. Just stay calm and cool.

Thirdly, I know you're probably busy with other things, you shouldn't place the awards on top priority, but yeah. They won't be a failure, trust me.

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Casey - Very well said. Of course, I'm not going to argue with you.

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Marj - What happened, happened. He's different now. You should keep your eyes ahead of you, instead of looking back, because it's not going to help you any.

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My fucked up sleeping habits are seriously fucking with me. Instead of midnight-ish being a normal time to fall asleep at, it's now about 10-12AM, fucking hell. And I'm also falling out of shape. It's bugging me a lot, because I don't think I'll be able to keep the time I once had, I'm probably going to end up falling back to 30s again. I worked so damn hard for 26s, and even that still wasn't good enough. Fuck, who knows how fast the kids at my new school are? Hell, I don't even know which school I'm going to. I can't fucking decide. Ugh.

 

Fuck it.
Honestly.
I'm sick of trying to be a good person. All it does is hurt me.
I told her how I felt - I told her and honestly believed that she is perfect for me, I fucking poured my soul and heart into a bowl and spoon fed it to her, and she basically said that I'm not an asshole, so we'll never be more than friends. I really feel naseous right now. I think that I'm the boy that girls say they want, but the human race is full of hypocritical fucking liars apparently.
I can't wait for school to start, maybe I'll finally find someone. Someone with a bit of sense.

So it didn't work out between that girl and I. We're still friends, so at least I should be thankful for that. I'll get over it.

 

That sucks. I'm sorry, man.

When I went through kind of the same thing later I found out she wasn't even that great of a person so I figure it was better we never got together.

 

Branden, at least you know you tried.

 

I just can't wait for him to come on msn, so I can tell him to fuck off and call his own mom a fucking bitch.

 

Sometimes, I seriously think losing my mind. *shakes head*

 

Sometimes, I feel that if I don't get to get that closure from him, I'll never be able to full trust anyone again.

Goddamn you.

Just answer my IMs.

It's been three fucking years.

 

I really admire you for being nice even when you know it'll bite you in the ass sometimes. Stick with it. Assholes go nowhere in life.

 

My mom is a stupid biatch.
She read through my msn conversations, which were full of me talking about doing drugs and drinking.
I, of course, denied it all and lied my ass off so I didn't get in shit.
But, the problem is, she don't trust me to do shit anymore.
I can't even go to my friend birthday tomorrow.
The fact that we're drinking there is neither here nor there.

 

msg plus! + encypted chat logs = ownage.

She's not a stupid biatch, she's just trying to be a good mother by stopping you from drinking and drugs, as she knows you're lieing. You seriously can't lie to someone when they have hard proof on you. You fucked up, time to pay up.

 

I told her it was all a joke with my friends and that she can test my piss.
I passed.
So, in turn, I got away scot free, except I have less freedom.
But, I'm all the wiser for it.
And, she doesn't stop me from drinking, she gave me a couple beers two days ago, she just stops me from drinking with friends.

 

Okay, that's slightly messed (imo), but whatever.

 

I have no idea what imo means.
But, she's quite the hipicrit.

 

All mom's are. Even mine. *mutters*


(imo = in my opinion)

 

Oh, I gotcha, and I find that Dad's always seem to be more understanding.
Well, StepDad's that is.
My Stepdad was here, and he didn't even care, he took me out for icecream after my mom confronted me.
Rocky road.
Just pisses me off, because that's a major vialation of trust. I don't read her conversations, or go through her stuff in her room, so why should she do it to me? I never gave her a reason to.
She said she was "cleaning the computer"

 

Yeah, my dad's read some of my email before, pissed the hell straight out of me as I have a few very personal conversations in there. *mutters*

But yeah, dad's are more laid back than moms most of the time.

You just have to be careful of how you protect your stuff. If you're really paranoid, download AxCrypt.

Just know your limits. [unlike someone. *cough*]