Got Something You Want To Let Out?

I must admit I have a tiny level of racism. I have nothing against any races or cultures, but I have enough that when a black person is around me, I feel different than when a white person is around me. Also the fact that I have to keep assuring myself that I'm not racist when I am around black people, itself, is racist, IMO.

I can't keep up with life...
Fucking homework, piano lessons, parents nagging, plus this feeling that I need to impress everybody which I will never succeed at. Maybe it's just the night that makes me depressed because sometimes I feel hopeless at night.

Hell I'm fine right now, but I just feel blah. I'm suppose to be in bed at fucking 10:30 and it's 10:47.

I don't know if I really feel what I just wrote. Maybe I do, maybe I don't.

Meh, fuck Julius Caesar. I'll sparknote (yes it is a verb) the whole book.

Hmm...trying to think of some more confessions and pointless thoughts... Oh yeah, I really related to music I listened to today to my homework. 30 Seconds to Mars was playing and the lyrics of Welcome To The Universe somehow made me feel better, I dunno why.

I'm starting to get more into punk music. Even though I usually never buy albums, or it just takes me a while to find/get into more music, I'm getting into A.F.I, Sum 41, and NoFX.

 

I think you aren't racist, you're trying too hard not to be racist, so you are aware of everything you say infront of them. (Acting different).

Don't feel bad, you're trying not to hurt someone's feelings which means you are considerate

Keeping up with life is hard, and homework sucks, but you shouldn't feel like you need to impress everyone.

I'm telling you not to try impress everyone when I have the same problem?
It's hard because I do it subconciously without realising it now, and I'm constantly under stress, so lets try stop it together!!

Everyone feels hopeless at night...don't they?
I never cry, even when people die, except at night I can't help it...I feel so weak.
It's normal...I think...or maybe my emotions go on holidays and come back at night

Hope it makes you feel better that most people have the same problems you do...sometimes.

HUGS :hugz:

 

Eeek I have lots of confessions!

I really Like this lad who is a really good friend of mine and I'm pretty damn sure He likes me as much as I do him, only problem is He is muslim and has to have an arranged marriage in about 5 years time. He isn't allowed to have a relationship with anyone but his future wife and his Dad has major control issues, He isn't even allowed out of the house on his own. I really want to just be with him and I'm sure he feels the same way but we can't because of this. I get really annoyed about this but I just don't think I can tell him how I feel!

Lol my confessions are lame!

 

I think you aren't racist, you're trying too hard not to be racist, so you are aware of everything you say infront of them. (Acting different).

Don't feel bad, you're trying not to hurt someone's feelings which means you are considerate

Keeping up with life is hard, and homework sucks, but you shouldn't feel like you need to impress everyone.

I'm telling you not to try impress everyone when I have the same problem?
It's hard because I do it subconciously without realising it now, and I'm constantly under stress, so lets try stop it together!!

Everyone feels hopeless at night...don't they?
I never cry, even when people die, except at night I can't help it...I feel so weak.
It's normal...I think...or maybe my emotions go on holidays and come back at night

Hope it makes you feel better that most people have the same problems you do...sometimes.

HUGS :hugz: [/b][/quote]
That does make me feel better. Thank you. Plus, I just feel better today.

TGIF!!!!

 

Well... It's better telling him than regretting not telling him. And even if you guys can't get together because of the arranged marriage at least you'll feel relieved to reveal your feelings to him. This is the advice I've been getting anywayz... I don't know what it's like being in that situation, I can't imagine having someone arrange a marriage for me... so I can't really comment there... But from my point of view you'd be happier telling him than regretting it...

I'm kinda in a similar situation... sorta... I can't be with my guy cuz he moved so far away... And that takes me to my confession...

You guys, I took your advice and told him... I was talking to him on msn and he said he might be coming here for prom, so I asked him to go with me!!! He doesn't know for sure if he'll be coming here, but if he does he said he's definitely considering going with me!! I can't stop shaking... I can't believe I did it... *hugz to all* thx!

 

Parents: "now don't stay up too late"

*looks at watch: 12:49 AM*

...meh.

I'm pissed at our bathroom system in our school.

1. There is only one set of bathrooms open in the school through the day.

2. The handicapped bathroom is open just for lunches so when my leg was broken last year, I had to go to the nurse to drop off my wheelchair and get my crutches just to use the fucking bathroom.

3. We have to go one at a time and take stupid passes. I'd rather piss on the teachers that say we have to wait, than actually go.

Sorry for being gross but I had to get that out.

Limewire Rocks!

 

My latest confession: I busted a light today at work by kicking a ball at the roof and nailing the light holder thingy...after I turned my back, one of the light tubes fell out of the holder and smashed on the floor... Damn that was wicked Didn't tell anyone either...I just swept up the glass and kept my big mouth shut

 

Well... It's better telling him than regretting not telling him. And even if you guys can't get together because of the arranged marriage at least you'll feel relieved to reveal your feelings to him. This is the advice I've been getting anywayz... I don't know what it's like being in that situation, I can't imagine having someone arrange a marriage for me... so I can't really comment there... But from my point of view you'd be happier telling him than regretting it...

I'm kinda in a similar situation... sorta... I can't be with my guy cuz he moved so far away... And that takes me to my confession...

You guys, I took your advice and told him... I was talking to him on msn and he said he might be coming here for prom, so I asked him to go with me!!! He doesn't know for sure if he'll be coming here, but if he does he said he's definitely considering going with me!! I can't stop shaking... I can't believe I did it... *hugz to all* thx! [/b][/quote]
I agree, tell him.
I'm personally against arranged marriages, unless you're acctually happy that's another story.
Once again, the consequences of religion. (No offense, my opinion.)

For once I feel like I made a difference...though someone else would've told you and you would've done the same.

I don't know why, I don't know you but...I'm happy for you, really!

 

im sooooooooooooooooooo stressed out. you dont even know. it is insane.

my stupid "friend" "wants to g/o w/ me but knows it wont work" wtf w/e. idk we get along great. i guess i just dont see it. and he says that he doesnt want either of us to get hurt and not stay friends. another thing he said has to do w/ him not g/o w/ me is that he doesnt get this "feeling of safety" around me. im not sure y he doesnt, or even what it is. i think i am a nice calm person to be around, but its not liek i can make him feel anything different. *sigh* i told him i would still be his friend if we b/u as long as he didnt cheat on me or anything. like him so much better than the other guys. *sigh*

i did meet this really cool guy last night at my fiend's b-day party. hehe i got really drunk and um i got to know the guy pretty well heheheh. but he is nice. he really wants to g/o w/ me and im kinda mad at Zer0 so i might as well g/o w/ him. im not fucked up g/o w/ him only to make Zer0 jealous or anything(he wouldnt get jealous anyway) i do like the guy. he is a sweetie. he came and surprised me today cuz i wasnt gonna b able to h/o after he got off work. the only problem is he is shorter than me. but i can deal w/ that. but waht im worried about is that he smokes ciggarettes. *sigh* he is like the youngest guy i know lol. he just turned 19 oct 18th. so he is a baby. he drives a Monte Carlo ('79 i think) hehehehe idk. i really do liek him. so i guess i'll g/o w/ him. it is just g/o w/ someone would change everything in my life right now. lol i have the perfect b/f w/ the two guys right now. one gets me presents and takes me out on dates, the other satifies all my....primal urges hehehe then i have no strings attached hehehe. the hard part would be breaking it to the guy that takes me out on dates. he likes me soooo much. it is really wierd having guys want me like this. ive never had it happen b4. i kinda like it....i do like it. Zer0 will b easy cuz that is how we got on the subject of g/o. i really like him. i really do. and he likes me, but... he "knows it won't work" i dont know how he knows, but apparently he does. grr idk.

i didnt have a vry good day today. i had a flat tire, Zer0 bassically told me that we r never gonna date (what we r now is as close as we are ever gonna get to be bf & gf. we are about as close as you can get to g/o w/o actually g/o. it is really confusing and that is y im upset. grrrr i really dont understand and he says he doesnt either. w/e. grr (sry venting)), my parents got all pissed off and HATE my best friend. they wont even give Mike(the guy who i met at Teresa's party) a chance just because he is associated w/ Teresa!!! it that fucked up or what? im gonna go insane! i like Mike and i think im gonna g/o w/ him. he is a sweetie.

grr i have a head ace from the alcohol and i havn't eaten for 34hrs. all i had yesterday was a part of a cookie and a doghnut and a whole bunch of vodka and kool-aid. i think im a little too wild for who i am really. i tend to get into trouble when im drunk. that little voice inside that says you should hold back is muted when im drunk. i do w/e i want....who ever i want....whereever i want....whenever i want. i am pretty bad. that is y i should only get drunk w/ ppl i know around me.

grr im sry this is a freaking book. i needed to vent though.
*mmmm im hungry*

 

I hate this!!! Every time rent is due, Luis doesn't have the money to pay. I don't like turning it in late because it makes all of us look like asses. I understand that Lech doesn't have any money now cause of her parents, but Luis does... he just spends it on shit and doesn't save it for what's important. JESUS CHRIST.

 

I'm not pretty, I don't know who in their right mind would think that I am, and right now all I want to do is punch my roommate.

 

Aww, Kate! Don't say that... I've seen your picture and you are beautiful! :hugz:

 

Hahaha! That made me laugh! Thanks!

 

Hey, don't ever say that about yourself...you're beautiful...and I don't know why you'd think otherwise...
:hugz:

 

Hey listen,In my opinion there is no pretty and ugly people,its the purity of their heart that counts and I think you should tell yourself that because theres always someone for someone :hugz:

 

Thanks, everyone, for the hugs. Right back at you.

And it's been over two months and I can't get over my ex...and he insists on staying friends. While I still love him as much as I ever did, I'm starting to hate him for doing that to me. Dumping me, then tormenting me by saying that he still loves me but can only be friends with me because I'm away at college. I know it's selfish of me to want him to stay with a girl who can only call him a couple times a week, and come home less than once a month, but I really thought that things could work out.

Worse, I feel dirty because my roommate's drunk friend called me "Sweet Tits" and a few more names I won't repeat, and tried to feel me up under my robe.

 

Fuckin punch him, dear. He deserves it, the little swine.

 

Oh, Kate... I hate slutty guys like that! Grr, they should all die. <_< As for your ex, that really sucks. He shouldn't be doing that to you... it sucks that this kind of stuff happens. I'm sorry to hear about this. :hugz:

 

OMG KILL HIM!!

How could you be ugly :hugz:
You seem so nice and sweet and I don't even know you, so you CAN'T be ugly.

I look in the mirror and think I'm ugly and fat while in reality I'm not at all it's all in the mind, seriously...break your mirror

 

My hips are getting bigger during the holidays for being in front of the computer all day and my dad won't stop buying potato chips. I don't see, I don't eat.



So you're luckier than me.