Got Something You Want To Let Out?

Some friends are worried about me. They say there's something wrong with me. Some people say I have borderline (personality disorder)

 

It's ok. Look at me. Paranoid, on the verge of schizophrenic, a little narcissistic, I have so many personality disorders everyone stayed away from me. in school I could only trust one person, my best friend.

One out of 40 people in my class, out of 280 people in my grade.






I'm fucked up, but happy.

 

I like Kylie a lil' bit :chemist:

 

i dont wear wooden shoes

 

this guy wants to lose his virginity to me, but i dont want to g/o w/ him :wth:

 

i guess i was 15 when i got my first kiss and 16 when i got my first bf (and lost my virginity) hehehe but dont feel bad, sooooooo many ppl r the same way. im almost 18 and all kinds of guys r chasing me, so things will pick up. dont worry. :hugz: [/b][/quote]
Well, to tell the truth, I didn't start dating until this year, when I was (and still am) 17...it's not that I didn't want to, it's that I was told 'no' 8 or 9 times when I asked before... My first kiss...well, let's just say that was wasted...she was cheating on me, in fact she had two other boyfriends at the time...so that was an utter waste. I don't even consider it my first kiss... :angry: So if you all think you have it bad...believe me, it can be worse...when you're 17 and haven't had even your first kiss, it's hard to walk around and see all your friends kissing their girlfriends, going out, having fun, and think "I wish I could do that too"...

 

Its a proud day for me because I lost my virginity last night

 

:magic: cool

 

It's ok. Look at me. Paranoid, on the verge of schizophrenic, a little narcissistic, I have so many personality disorders everyone stayed away from me. in school I could only trust one person, my best friend.

One out of 40 people in my class, out of 280 people in my grade.






I'm fucked up, but happy. [/b][/quote]
Yeah I feel the same.

 

I have something I want to get out... this might as well be the place to do that... So. Ok. I have a crush on a good friend of mine, I have for a year now but I've never said anything to anyone cuz I'm afraid he'll be completely disturbed and it will ruin our friendship... I know I should tell him but I can't make myself do it... so I lived like that for a while, just hiding my feelings... But now he's moved to the other side of the country and I never got to tell him how I feel... I regret it so much... I'm depressed about it, I miss him so much... I completely lost my chance... I don't know how I could have been so stupid and now I'm just miserable. I really love him and now he's gone forever.

 

If I were you, I would call him to tell the whole story. Your feelings you have for him. Maybe you can visit him?

 

If I were you, I would call him to tell the whole story. Your feelings you have for him. Maybe you can visit him? [/b][/quote]
I definately agree, visit him or tell him now on msn, phone or something!

Trust me I think it's way better taking the risk.

I bet...I think you have this weird burning sensation in your heart now and it will go once he says no OR if he says he likes you too it will stay but it won't annoy you anymore. If he says he used to like you don't feel all horrible and regretful, trust me when you're still in school there's always someone else


I have a really good friend who I liked, but I was afraid if it would ruin our friendship if he said no or if we broke up.

I finally asked he said he liked me only as a friend.

Funny, he took at as such a big compliment and we were even better friends now, best friends.

I don't like him anymore...probably didn't know the difference between strong friendship and love.

So soppy and mushy

 

Goddamnit! He's so fucking stupid! I cant believe that he still lives if you look at this IQ!


DIE!

 

Again, if you give me good candy I will kill him :chemist:

 

Weird coincidence. When I saw that, I was listening to Murderdolls - Die My Bride.

Goes like that:

DIE!

DIE!

DIE!

DIE MY BRIDE!

So I see your post, and the exact moment I saw the word "DIE!" the singer screamed "DIE!" too.

 

Dude, really? Are you joking, or do you really not like Linkin Park?! (Cause I thought that was impossible) [/b][/quote]
lol yeah i surprised bout this stuff :chemist:


well the thing that confuse me all the time & make me sad is that i don't hav a BF for bout 4 years :'(

 

I'm so pathetic
I had to go to the dentist this morning and I throwed up outside of fear.
Shit I'm so afraid of dentists

 

:magic: cool [/b][/quote]
Thank you

 

I definately agree, visit him or tell him now on msn, phone or something!

Trust me I think it's way better taking the risk.

I bet...I think you have this weird burning sensation in your heart now and it will go once he says no OR if he says he likes you too it will stay but it won't annoy you anymore. If he says he used to like you don't feel all horrible and regretful, trust me when you're still in school there's always someone else


I have a really good friend who I liked, but I was afraid if it would ruin our friendship if he said no or if we broke up.

I finally asked he said he liked me only as a friend.

Funny, he took at as such a big compliment and we were even better friends now, best friends.

I don't like him anymore...probably didn't know the difference between strong friendship and love.

So soppy and mushy [/b][/quote]
True true... It would definitely lift something off my shoulders knowing I told him, even if I do get horribly rejected. But say I do tell, and say he does like me... he lives on the other side of the country so I can't exactly be with him now can I? I can visit him, yea... and a couple my friends and I did talk about going... But... Iunno. I guess all I can do at this point is tell him... take some of the regret away... I hope he's complimented, like your friend was and we could be closer... that would be sweet! anywayz... talk to ya later.

 

I must admit I have a tiny level of racism. I have nothing against any races or cultures, but I have enough that when a black person is around me, I feel different than when a white person is around me. Also the fact that I have to keep assuring myself that I'm not racist when I am around black people, itself, is racist, IMO.

I can't keep up with life...
Fucking homework, piano lessons, parents nagging, plus this feeling that I need to impress everybody which I will never succeed at. Maybe it's just the night that makes me depressed because sometimes I feel hopeless at night.

Hell I'm fine right now, but I just feel blah. I'm suppose to be in bed at fucking 10:30 and it's 10:47.

I don't know if I really feel what I just wrote. Maybe I do, maybe I don't.

Meh, fuck Julius Caesar. I'll sparknote (yes it is a verb) the whole book.

Hmm...trying to think of some more confessions and pointless thoughts... Oh yeah, I really related to music I listened to today to my homework. 30 Seconds to Mars was playing and the lyrics of Welcome To The Universe somehow made me feel better, I dunno why.

I'm starting to get more into punk music. Even though I usually never buy albums, or it just takes me a while to find/get into more music, I'm getting into A.F.I, Sum 41, and NoFX.