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why is it my flaut? damn hope she cheers up soon...

i left her to walk home because she wanted too - now suddenly its all come back to me!

hates girls for a spilt second

 

So i am so pissed. I have this friend who is a girl. Anyway, went to the movies yesterday and she met one of my friends. I've liked this girl since the start of year 8, now im in year 9. She knows i like her and we're good friends. So at the movies she met my friend and in about 20 minutes they're going out. And to top it all off they did 'stuff' in the cinema and they hardly even know each other. Any help would be much appreciated!

EDIT: And now she expects me to hang around with them grrrr!

 

meh i dont think she wants to go out with me anymore - shame really because i liked her........

 

Alright, so saturday night, I tried pot (and a cigarette) for the first time. I only did it a few times and I liked it. I would now like to go back to that friends house and get high or something.
I watched my friends do something where they inhaled and then exhaled smoke at each other through a container. That was fun.
Then we went inside and watched porn.

Seems like I've always shivered when I've been with that group of friends. First, a few years ago when I first saw porn, I shivered when I saw playboy. LOL.

Then, when I tried the pot, I shivered like hell (nervous and plus it was pretty cold out)

I also have to admit the fact that I brag sometimes. Regarding the instance with pot, I jumped at the opportunity to tell about it when somebody at lunch mentioned pot. I'm pretty immature sometimes.

Let's see. I'm pretty excited about getting my grades back. I have a 90 in Honors US History and an 89 in Accelerated Trigonometry/Functions.



Wow. I read Anya's story. I'm sorry for the trouble you're going through with the people in your class. I wouldn't be able to stand that. I might have punched that girl in the face had that happened to me.

 

God Damn It! My life is too fucking complicated!!

One guy is fucking Teresa, another has a fucking fiancee. I can't fucking win...I just can't.

This guy who's "married" I guess likes me, but I'm sure he's kinda confused...he is pretty done with his gf though.

At least Alissa think's I'm sexy.

Ugh, now i'm confused. At least Teresa appologized. (I'm sure she's fucking him again tonight though. )

*sigh*

 

Damn thing! it posted twice!

I dont' think either my computer or Firefox like the LPA very much.

 

I said i'd finish this and i will.
I have the habbit to get into almost everyone's position. I mean walking in their shoes. So I did with you. I have never heard of that syndrome before. And now that i'm a little aware, i can say that it is difficult for a teenager to be physical limited. I could not stand it. I wish this won't last longer, so you can enjoy the best years of a human's life! There's also a positive side: One more experience!

 

Thanks. Yeah. it is hard to. since everyone else gets to go out and stuff. sometimes i actualy wish i was back at school since at least that way i'd get to talk to people properly (The only 2 people i have seen outside of family in the past.. 6 months have been my mate from just down the road, and another friend from the next county. but i've only seen him like.. twice. not that there's anything wrong with just seeing them, it's just sometimes better to be with like.. groups of people) but yeah. i'll pull through. and soon hopefuly. and i guess you're right about the experience thing, even if it is a shitty one thanks

@Rosanna: I do ignore them. i've been ignoring them for ages now, it's the actual illness that bothers me. and when people (mainly parents) ask me to do a shit load of jobs that they know will make me tired, but their excuse is 'Everyone else is at school all day'. but i'm off school for a reason.. yeah. anyway. sort of missing the point here just.. thanks

 

i'm pretty sure this weekend i'm going to try to show her a good time because she's amazing and deserves it and i'm also pretty sure that the last few times i've seen her i've barely said shit to her and i'm getting the hint that it's pissing her off that i haven't been talking to her since i'm damn near sure she likes me

fuck commas

 

Nah, as far as I know, man or woman, sexual harassment applies to both sexes, even if the agressor is a male or a female.

 

That's not sexual harassment, it's just harassment as far as I can tell. Trust me, I went through a sexual harassment thing last year.

 

I wish they would fucking stop telling me that they're there for me. I heard them the first fucking time. They make me feel even more fucked in the head. I dont need these fucking constant reminders that I'm 'not normal'. Fuck normal there isnt any such thing. Fuck them!

 

OK, so I'm walking into Chemistry on Monday and I have Faint blasting in my iPod. Of coarse, Abby, a girl in my class, is hereing ''I WON'T BE IGNORED!!!'' blasting in my ears. Now, I talk quite often but usually I'm kinda shy, I hate to admit it. But anyways, my teacher sees my iPod and says ''You need to put that away or I have to take it''. The Abby says ''What was it a gun?'' Some people may say that I'm blowing things way out of proportion, but doesn't that seem like it has maybe a LITTLE bit of something to do with the fact that I am ''A quiet kid'' to her and I had ''I WON'T BE IGNORED'' blasting in my headphones? Then my friend asked her, why would you say that? And she said to her friend, well it's usually the quiet kids who are psychos like the Columnbine kids''. WTF? I would never think of shooting my fellow classmates.. I hate when people fucking stereotype stuff like that. I may be sounding emo, but it just pissed me off and I needed to get off my chest. That's what this thread is for right?

 

She appologized...that doesn't stop the fact that she is over there every waking moment. I can't fucking believe it. What fucking good does it do to appologize if you don't stop what it is you're appologizing for??

I can't stand it! Just becuase you like the sex and now you have somewhere to go so you're not at home doesn't mean that you should betray your best friend like that! An appology doens't mean anything unless you stop what it is you're appologizing for!

Now I'm failing becuase I'm not getting my paper done that is due and it seems as if all the people that really care about me are 2,000+mi away from here!

damn it!

 

I think she doesn't realise what she's doing is hurting you. I guess you could just focus all your attention on your work, but that's difficult to do with all that going on.

Of course, I didn't stop eating brownies just because my best friend was on a diet But that's a different circumstance. She thought looking at someone eating made her diet all the more difficult, and therefore more fulfilling.

 

hehe, ty for the hug. I'm not sure she is really thinking about me though...she is thinking "hey, he's good in bed and it's a place away from my mom and brother" She's not thinking "Hey, my best friend in the whole world, who I love more than anyone, is being hurt by me not being able to keep my pants on. Maybe I should appologize and actually mean it or talk to her about it"

damn it, I wish she was thinking that second one. I don't even know how to talk to her about it....it's like she doens't care enough....I thought she loved me more than that. :sad:

 

Im here...look....................im right over here!! And I really care!! I seriously think that you should tell her exactly what you just posted on here. Then she will either consider you feelings like a best bud should and you can take it from there, or she will shove it back in your face....then you shall know exactly how much you mean to her! But dont think you're alone, coz you deffinately arent! Now go and finish that paper so you dont fail!

 

hehe, ty, sweetie.

...that's all we talked about it. *sigh* At least I told her how I felt. :sad:

 

Good Girl, now the balls in her court...although the 'I dont know what to say' answer isnt what I would have wanted to hear, but maybe thats just me
You can rest easy now, you told her how you felt and all...dont worry your pretty mind over it any more. Now finish that paper!