Got Something You Want To Let Out?

I'm such a corruptor. There was a girl I liked, yeah, I took her out and showed her the time of her life. haha, I even got to kiss her.
I love my coworkers. hehe, at least some of them, like Matt and Alissa. but we're fed up, so we want to work all together somewhere else.

wow, I had fun this wknd.

 

I used to have a key ring that said "I may not be entirely perfect, but parts of me are freaken excellent". That really helped me come to terms with all my little flaws and quirks. Just keep that line in mind and remember that expecting perfection is expecting more than a human can give. Give yourself a break.

 

i love you

i hate you

i can't live without you

:|

 

zephyries: I got puched today..
zephyries: I was at chorus and this girl, Myesha, started saying all these things that offended me..
zephyries: Like "Anya, how much do you weigh?"
zephyries: Or "Are you pregnant?" out loud
zephyries: I told you everybody teases me about it..
zephyries: well yeah
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: so she punched you in your gut?
zephyries: no
zephyries: old on lol
zephyries: and then she kept rubbing my belly and touching me, pulling my hair and I reached over the piano while were singing to grab a song book and accused me of touching her boob which got the whole class laughing about me..
zephyries: then they all started whispering about them thinking I was pregnant
zephyries: and then I had my pencil in my back pocket and stuff
zephyries: so Myesha said "Anya, be careful that pencil will pop a hole in your ass and your baby will pop out"
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: -.-
zephyries: and then she kept pulling my hair and making everyone laughing at me
zephyries: and then I just got pissed.. I turned around and said "Stop fucking touching me! I FUCKING MEAN IT!" and then I shoved her aside and started crying and when I bent down to get my back pack she whirled me around and punched me in the arm
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: did it leave a mark?
zephyries: I kinda gave her a sad look and said "why the fuck are you doing this to me?!" and then I ran out of the classroom with her chasing me and then she punched me in the back and told me to not fucking touch her
zephyries: and then I ran away
zephyries: no no marks..
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: this might be wrong but...
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: id make some
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and ill tell you why in a moment
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: one sec
zephyries: ?
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: well okay dont make them but...
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: my mom said..
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: even tho there's no marks today
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: there could be ones tommorrow.
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and she said..since it happened on school grounds
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: that you MUST go to the principal about this.
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: think of everything they said to you..even if its not appropriate to be mentioned to in front of an adult
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and go in first thing tommorrow and talk to the principal about it
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: cause she basically...
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: attacked you physically.
zephyries: oh I allready did that
zephyries: the whole school is in an uproar about it
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: see
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: im emotional about this cause...
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: same thing happened to me (minus the pregnant thingy)
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and it happened on a school bus
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: but since its on school grounds
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and there was no teacher to stop it
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: this could blow up into a big scandal against the school for not protecting their students
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: so..naturally the school is gonna help you as much as possible
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and they better
zephyries: they will
zephyries: but we still have to write our statements
zephyries: and she better not lie
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: well
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: do you have any witnesses
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: aka people who didnt support this?
zephyries: Umm I dunno
zephyries: my friend Tabasa, the japanese exchange student
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: she was there?
zephyries: and I think the only other nice girl in the class
zephyries: Erin
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: get BOTH of them
zephyries: yeah the whole class was lol
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: make sure they give statements too
zephyries: well Tabasa can't speak much english but
zephyries: no I can't ask them of that
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and photograph any marks that come up.
zephyries: the teachers are going to
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: well
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: dont get statements
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: but at least say that
zephyries: no the girl didn't punch hard enough
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: tabasa and erin can back up your statements
zephyries: yeah
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: not even in the back?
zephyries: she really didn't punch hard, it really just scared me alot
zephyries: no no bruises it
zephyries: it doesn't hurt
zephyries: I was just severely shocked
zephyries: and shaking
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: well
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: then you go after her on the grounds of emotional abuse.
zephyries: no she can still be suspended wether there's bruises or nor
zephyries: *not
zephyries: the teacher saw her hit me
ZShadoWOfADoubTZ: and the teacher didnt stop her?!
zephyries: Yeah she did
zephyries: she pulled her back and yelled at her
zephyries: but before she could do anything with me I ran out of the classroom..

Horrible day.

 

Dad just called me a 'fag hag' to my face about 5 times in 2 minutes.

Awesome. Real cute. That's just what I needed to hear coming home after coming from school. Don't I get totured enough THERE.

I don't need this shit.

 

Like Derek said, bring it up with a principal. She'll get suspended immediately. If your school rules are like our's up here, there is zero tolerance of any fighting or violence similar here. No matter what happened, whether it was a big fight, or a situation like your's where she punched you to cause you pain, she'll get suspended.

You did the right thing to not retaliate at least. You won't get suspended or anything, as you did nothing wrong.

G'luck with that.

 

you should definatly tell someone My school is like Tomi's aswell, zero tolerance (even for trainers, i'v been sent home to changed my trainers to my shoes atleast 4 times last week, anyway) good u diddn't retaliate back cause then you would be in as much bother as her, so deffinatly tell someone and get her ass suspended.

 

i hate it when two people both think they are right

 

Oh I allready brought it up with them, because when I ran out of the classroom I ran to the office and demanded to go home. They said no though, because I was too hysterical. This wasn't the first time I've ever been teased like this, but this girl does it the most, she does it allmost everyday. It was just a little bit more rowdier today because there was a substitute and everyone was in on the joke they were pulling on me.. Anyways, when I got to the office they made me tell them about it so tomorrow I'm going to give them a statement tomorrow, and so is the girl who hit me. I'm pretty sure she'll get suspended, but I'm really scared about going to school tomorrow still.

Like, I'm afraid someone will try to beat me up for not fighting back today, and for provoking the girl to hit me like that. I'm constantly nervous right now because I know some people will do that to me at school for just that. I've never actually been picked on as much at any school like I have this one, because like I said, other people make fun of my wieght also and not just her although I don't even know or think I'm necessarily overwieght I just have a slight belly around the middle, which I probably inherited from my biological parents when they had me. It still hurts me though.

I'm just gonna have to go to school tomorrow and grit my teeth and bare it.

 

well, I know a way to solve the problem! Kill her!!!

 

so your dad called you a smoker? wtf

 

Wow, Teresa has been messing around with Justin a LOT behind my back.
It's not like I was in love with him or anything but I specifically asked her not to. She told me that she wouldn't and here she goes and fucks him over and over behind my back.

damn it, she is supposed to be my best friend...she could at least tell me!

:sad:

 

Just be strong, Anya. If you've made it through the past days of your life, you'll make it through this one as well. Just be strong and confident, don't take anything that anyone says personally. Their only aim is to hurt you, you can't let them win. If you let them win, all is lost. Don't give up hope, Anya. Whatever anyways says to you, just shrug it off, act like it doesn't bother you at all. They're trying to make it bother you, so don't let it. It's hard, I know. I've had to go through this, and other things, but hey. I'm still here all in one piece.

There's nothing wrong with having a slight belly. You shouldn't care what people think of the outside of you, as it's the inside that counts.

Just whatever you do. Do not let yourself fall apart, or become aggressive. As long as you don't retaliate, you're in the clear. You have nothing administrative to worry about, except for telling your story about how they were bullying you.

Will - http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=fag hag

 

Thanks Tomi, that means alot. I'll try. For now though, this is my statement that I have to turn in. I need to know if it's good or not so yeah.. This is the best I can do.

I was sitting in chorus class, and Myesha and Manny started making comments about my weight. Myesha was asking how much I weighed but I just ignored her. Since she said that I felt self conscious and started sucking my stomach in. I think she noticed and saw this as funny, so she walked over and whispered in my ear asking if I was pregnant. I was really mad at this, because she asks that a lot sometimes and it hurts my feelings, and I get that same question from a few other people too. They were never as persistent about it than her though, which bothered me more, but I tried hard to not listen. I ignored her again and just said “No.”

Myesha kept on walking over, pulling my hair, and rubbing my belly. I yelled at her a little more forcefully and told her she was being rude and not to touch me. All of the other girls in the class started laughing at all the things she was doing to me, asking more and more if I was pregnant and even louder this time so everyone could hear. Then everyone else in the class started to pitch in, whispering to each other, wondering whether I was pregnant or not. I overheard them and said I wasn’t pregnant. They started laughing and Myesha asked, “Why do you keep getting bigger then?” I just replied “I shouldn’t be, I’m on a diet.” Then she started laughing again. She also kept saying things about the fact that I had a pencil in my back pocket, and told me to be careful when I sat down or else it’ll pop a hole in my ass and it’ll make my baby fall out.

After a few more times of her pulling my hair, singing chorus songs in my ear loudly to annoy me, I finally snapped and started crying. I whirled around and told her to shut up and to leave me alone. Then I shoved her aside, and grabbed my backpack to run away. She whirled me around and punched me in the arm and told me not to touch her. I started crying and yelled saying, “Why are you doing this to me?” and ran out of classroom to go to the office. She was following me, so she stopped me in the middle of the hall, then punched me in the back and told me ‘not to touch her’. I looked at her and then ran away to call my mom and go home.

 

No problem. I hate it when anyone's treated like shit, so I try and help 'em out as much as possible. I was in kinda the same position too in my younger years; no one was there to help me out. But I really don't want to go back to that story, as it's not important...


Your statement sounds good, although, I wasn't there at the time, so I can't tell you what to improve on, apart from telling you to add as much detail as you can. The more information, the more you have to nail her down with. Hell, I'm surprised the school didn't immediately take action. As I've been in a fight in my junior high before. They suspended me as soon as they found out [which somehow was immediately. <_<]. Also, you went straight to the office, so the administration was (or should have been, because the secretaries should have told them.) aware of the situation. The fact that they didn't take immediate action worries me.

As soon as anyone starts harassing you, immediately go to the administration. Don't let the problem escalate. Don't wait till you've had enough. That'll just cause more pain and stress for you - not good. As soon as everyone figures out that you don't want to take this shit anymore, and that you're not afraid to go to the admin, they'll hopefully get the hint that you're not one to mess around with.

 

Gah, so now I've gotten involved with my ex again, and a friend of mine is pushing me to go out with her again. I really have no idea what to do about it. I'm always having mixed emotions about her. One minute I love her, then the next, I hate her. It's like Three Days Grace's "I Hate Everything About You". Ugh. Sounds a bit juvenile, but I hate that I can't just make up my mind now. I don't want to be going out with her again and then deciding I hate her guts. Oh, God help me.

 

I am so fucking fed up with this. I have been ill for over a year now (With M.E)and it's getting stupid. Had a simple game of upwords last night (for those of you that don't know what it is, it's like scrabble, but you can put the letters on top of eachother) because my Dad moved back in (Not a good idea in my opinion, but apparently it doesn't matter what i think) and it's all 'Family bonding' shit time. anyway. point is. after that simple game of upwords i feel fucking dead. anything that requires any mental ability at all just drains all my energy. Which is just amazing. since i have GCSEs in what.. 3 months. if that. Life changing Exams, which you are supposed to be put in for 11 subjects. I am in for 5 (The minimum maths, science and english) and at the begining of last year i was predicted staight A's in everything. now i'm pushing just to get a C.. Oh. and on top of that, everyone thinks in just skipping school because i can't be assed. or that having M.E would be a godsent, because all it means is that you get a lot of time off school and you get to sleep a lot. fucking.. i wish people would understand.

 

When I read this I couldn't concentrate to my lesson. I'll post later about this.

 

anya-that was sexual harassment. she can get expelled for it. let alone the physical abuse. witnesses or not, she will get in trouble for it, especially if there are past episodes of her doing this to you.

testorz-it's pointless to argue with these people, doesn't matter anyway. they know nothing about it and they'll do anything to come up with an excuse to make you look bad. forget about them. and you'll be able to take the tests, getting all frustrated over them is not helping you. just stay positive.

matt-it's better to stay away from her until you can figure out your feelings. no point hurting yourself (or her cuz obviously you still care) but it's better to just be platonic until you can figure things out.