Got Something You Want To Let Out?

It's official. I've completely lost my mind. With all the past memories of mine and the shit that has been going on lately, I have to say...I LOST MY FUCKING MIND!

 

hey join the club

 

I think my mom nearly caught me.....well.....

 

god i hate this, its totally ripping me apart...my two best friends are just killing each other and they say i need to take sides...but i cant...both of them mean alot to me...and....it hurts me just to think about it....one of them will hate me if i choose the other's side....but i dont want to lose either one of them....why cant they just forgive each other and get over with it....

 

My boyfriend scares me. I love him very much but he's sucidal, cuts, does drugs. He promises he'll stop all those things because they worry me but he allways ends up going back to them. I feel like I don't help, and I tell him that but he continues telling me he's so in love with me and he wants us to get married. He's extremely sensitive and clingy and I'm clingy as well but definently not as much as him.

I've been sick for the past week because I had a sinus infection and my tonsils have swollen up and I couldn't talk, so I missed school all this week and haven't seen him or talked to him much because I've been so sick. So he's gone into a crying fit because he misses me and and he's going on about all this stuff saying he thinks i've fallen out of love with him. I won't be able to see him this weekend or next weekend because I have so much homework now since I've missed so much school, so that makes it worse. I can never get off the phone with him mostly now because I'm afraid he'll do something (kill himself/overdose/cut/etc.) I feel powerles.

I told him we might need to break up because I couldn't handle it anymore. He scares me, but I love him so much I really do. He has his happy moments where all he does is smile and I know he has the potential to live a happy life. He acts this way because of certain things that have happened to him in his past, which I really can't say on here. The moment I told him we needed to break up I cried and said I needed to go because I needed to think and have some time to myself. I feel suffocated, like either way I'll do something wrong. He drove up here five minutes ago crying at my front door and begging for us to be together.

His house is 30 mins. away from me and it took him 5 mins. to get here, he drove 110 miles an hour and there's skid marks on my driveway. I sent him back home but I'm still scared now, because it's been a half an hour now and I'm scared wether he got in a car crash or something. I don't know what to do.. he really makes me happy, but also sad at the same time because he worries me.

 

Don't let his self-mutiliation change things for you. You shouldn't be on the phone with him for like an hour extra just because you're afraid of what he will do. It sounds like he needs to do a little maturing and learn that he can be on his own. Also, if he says he will stop something for you but doesn't, that's pretty much bullshit. I think you should talk to him abou that.

 

I could have gotten with a really hot girl tonight but I decided to stay in...I havn't got a fucking clue why...

 

Did you stay in to watch that girl from over the road that you once told me about?

 

Did you stay in to watch that girl from over the road that you once told me about? [/b][/quote]
I never watch her, she just always seems to be there!

 

LMAO! i just laughed for no reason

 

My friend has ordered me to go find a new boyfriend...

...I already have one but I don't want to appear as if I'm on the rebound. It's only been about 2 days

 

Great, she e-mails me while drunk and proclaims that she still loves me.

 

You should stay together, but like, tell him you need time to get better and catch up on everything and all, I'm pretty sure he'll understand. I'm almost certain he Loves you, seeing he got to your house, 30 mineuts away, and arrived in 5 mineuts. Just ask for some time, but stay together!


:hugz: I hope the best of luck from what i said.. :hugz:




P.S Get Well soon .

 

that is horrible. I hate that! ....but damn it, I think he did that to me too. His, now ex, gf made him call me for some strange reason then he didn't even want to talk and wouldn't let her talk to me. It was quite weird.

 

Breaking up might make things worse, or better. Really depends on his mental state.

And he sounds very immature.

 

Damine Rice-cheers darlin'

cheers darlin'
here's to you and your lover boy
cheers darlin'
i got years to wait around for you
cheers darlin'
i’ve got your wedding bells in my ear
cheers darlin'
you give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away
and i die when you mention his name
and i lie i should have kissed you
when we were running in the rain
what am i darlin'?
a whisper in your ear?
a piece of your cake?
what am i darlin?
the boy you can fear?
or your biggest mistake?
cheers darlin'
here's to you and your lover man
cheers darlin'
i’ll just hang around and eat from a can
cheers darlin'
i got a ribbon of green on my guitar
cheers darlin'
i got a beauty queen
to sit not very far from me
i die when he comes around to take you home
i'm too shy I should have kissed you
when we were alone
what am I darlin'?
a whisper in your ear?
a piece of your cake?
what am I darlin?
the boy you can fear?
or your biggest mistake?
what am i?
here’s to you and your lover
what am i darlin’?
i got years to wait around for you…





This is how I feel a lot.

 

Breaking up might make things worse, or better. Really depends on his mental state.

And he sounds very immature. [/b][/quote]
Yeah that's what i'm worried about. He is a nice guy, but he needs much growing up to do.


I'm sure he can do that in time but it's really hard waiting around for that sort of thing. I guess i'll just have to see how it works out..

 

I just LOVE when your significant other hangs out with their ex. :angry:

 

God forbid, I've fallen for my fuck buddy.