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I belive you can get someone better sooner then eventully with your personality and looks. [/b][/quote]
Her yes.


Me no.

Ugly, weird kids don't get people...that would be me <_<

 

I am so fuking hot !
basically my whole bus caught the wrong bus and we were made to walk home. i walked home talking to Shannon....I use to like him SOOOO MUUCCCHHH...but he shaved his mohawk off...but he's still nice to me and Kimmy <<< my bitch...WOOT!
For my history trials i got 32/50..the highest in my class and in science I got 37/57... highest mark again...
Kahlil might get me and I Pod nano if i do really good in the actual thing !! WOOT!
and i got invited to Laura's bday party...she didnt invite Mel...why?
And in the middle of drama, the minute we stopped talking my "thoughtless by evanescence" recorded ringtone went off. and mel was like "its sarah's i can tell by the ringtone".. so when i answered it , they hung up. so i turned it off and i got a 357 msg saying at lunch time after drama, that i had one missed call by that number....i think it was my mum trying to call me.
i wanna go to the Big Day Out cos Bianca and Mel P are going and I wanna go with Ra.

 

So, I confronted my boyfriend about this whole pushing-me-aside-for-videogames thing last night.

Of course, he turned everything around so that it was my fault. Because I'd been ignoring him for days because of it, he made that seem like a big deal, rather than it being HIS fault for ignoring ME in the first place. So he was coming out with all this shit like "It's your fault, you ignored me. You ruined everything." and I was like "You're the one making a big deal out of it. You ignored me in the first place. You said you'd stop it, so things are not 'ruined'."

But nope, that wasn't good enough for him. He decided to do something which really annoys me, and try and convince me that I'm pretty and thin. I wouldn't listen to him, nor believe it myself, and he got pissed off with that. He can't get a hold of the fact that I can't change how I've felt about myself for the past 10 years at the drop of a hat. I should probably lie to him, just to shut him up.

And after that "disagreement", he gets back onto the whole you-ruined-everything act again, and turns on the waterworks. BECAUSE OF COURSE, I STARTED IGNORING YOU FOR NO REASON AT ALL. IT WASN'T LIKE YOU WERE IGNORING ME FOR FUCKING VIDEO GAMES. I just wanted to scream at him to get out of my house and come back when he'd seen sense and stopped blaming me. I'm too nice for that though. My (male) friend says he's doing it for attention, to try and get my sympathy, and that I shouldn't have given it him. I know my mum would say the same thing too. He's reminding me of my fucking dad, he always twists things so that it's not his fault.

I could have totally thrown each one of his accusations at me back to him, but I clammed up. Like I said, I'm too damned nice. He told me that he always takes me out and stuff. Yeah, but as my friend pointed out, he doesn't pay for me, which any proper gentleman would do. He says he cares for me...which he does, but most of the time he doesn't notice that I'm upset, and accuses me of being in a mood. He says he "does everything" for me, which is not true, he does nothing. Every time I've told him about arguments, people bullying me, family problems, stuff like that, he's changed the subject. What's even more irritating is that if my friend had been there, he would have done completely the opposite to what my boyfriend does.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't particularly want to leave him, because I do like him. I'm really not sure if I love him though. I know couples can work through their problems, my mum's always taught me that... but I'm really not sure if he's right for me. i'm very confused

 

one things i learned from having these kinds of probs is to firstly, both of you have to make up for that screaming incident...and well...if he really does care, it doesnt always mean he can do something about it, because look at it this way, if someone bullied you and you tell him that, what is he gonna do? kick that guys ass? who knows? that guy might kick his ass in return or he could expelled from school or something....but thats just from personal experience, look at it this way, he is trying to be there but sometimes there are things that even the person you like/love the most cant do for you...he is human too...

 

I'm trying to make up for it, all he seems to want to do is cry about it.

It isn't just "kicking the guys ass", because I'm against violence, and if he'd wanted to, I would have held him back anyway. When I tell him these things, he doesn't even flinch, just either goes on about himself or changes subject, every single time. I don't expect him to hurt anybody for me, just a little bit of...don't know the word, not quite sympathy, but showing that he at least cares... I can expect that from him, can't I?

I'm really, really confused about the whole thing

 

Aww! Low slef-esteem is a very bad thing! :hugz:

 

Aww! Low slef-esteem is a very bad thing! :hugz: [/b][/quote]
:hugz:

Thanks


I'm a bit better now. Now I just hafta find somewhere to sleep...



*passes out*

 

:hugz:

Thanks


I'm a bit better now. Now I just hafta find somewhere to sleep...



*passes out* [/b][/quote]
*yawn* I'm with you!



















hygbfvhrb gggb gb

Damn! Head hit the keyboard. :wth:

 

OMFG what was I thinking?she doesen't deserve me.....she is doing all this thing all of a suddent....OMFG she is so pathetic....like every night she goes out with this guy and drinks,but when I wanted to go out with her she always had something to do *and she always said I was her best friend*.....well I realised that she is a fake person....all she want's to do is impress people....she always drinks a lot just cause she thinks it make's her look interesting.I don't need her....I'm better then her....

 

:hugz:


You don't deserve that. Believe me, you don't. And yes...you're better than that.

 

How wrong is it to get someone else to want to start a relationship with you when you already have another one going?

 

Hmm, want a solid answer to that question?


Just ask my ex-girlfriend <_<

 

i dont know.


havent done it before.

 

My new job is owning my life. It's hard to get used to that. -_-

 

Owning life rocks. I own life from time to time.

Something else owning your life sucks. And right now I'm in the same case, 30 school hours + 28 work hours a week . Well, Andrea, think of it as a way to save money for when you'll have the time to spend it .

 

I have no time either...I'm taking a break before studying for a chem thingy tomorrow.

 

"And I would do anything for love, I'd run right into hell and back
I would do anything for love, I'll never lie to you and that's a fact
But I'll never forget the way you feel right now, oh no, no way
And I would do anything for love, but I won't do that, I won't do that
Anything for love, oh I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love, but I won't do that, oh I won't do that"
...BULLSHIT!

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight"
Stop fucking with my mind, you stupid fuck. I fucking hate you!

Yesterday was officially the worst day of my life. I've never cried this much in one day...i hate you.

 

:hugz:

What happened?

 

:hugz: Thanks.

Well, this guy was flirting with me SO much, he was the sweetest person I ever met in my life, he was texting me all day telling me he missed me, we were on the phone until 2am talking about anything, he dedicated a song for me, missed parties just to see me, he wrote poems for me, gave me a metallica keychain, always calling me baby and stuff. I fell for him so hard. When my grandfather died (2 days ago) my best friend wouldn't answer her phone and was always "busy" but I know she was just ignoring me, I didn't want to talk to anyone. He was all like I want to make you feel better, I love you etc.
Now all of a sudden he's like I think we should just be friends. I acted like it was ok but I hate him, why the fuck did he make me feel like this for him then just break it off.

I should seriously stop listening to all these stupid love songs he made me download...they're making me so sad.

"When you listen to that song you're going to think of me, no other guy right?"
Unfortunately, yes.

 

i've had better stints in my life


i hope you feel better soon :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: