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Aww, don't take shit talk from anyone, you need to stand for yourself! Don't let somone's talk let you down in your spirits!


:hugz: I'm sure that guy was just being a asshole and proabbly jealous.

 

i have my school certficate in 4 weeks.

 

That's just wrong...let 'em know they're dumb, and that I think that too

:hugz:

(And if he messes with you, he messes with me. Therefore he gets his ass kicked)

 

Sleeping pills=yummy. I'd suggest the vanilla flavored tylenol PM. Or a couple of shots of really yummy Nyquil. Yay! I'm not the only pill popper. So whats wrong?

 

What's the big secret? I don't believe in letting society telling you what's right and what's wrong. You should let your feelings out. It's 2005, you'd be surprised at how many people are open minded these days. There are still those people that think that they can play God and judge others, but they have no place in doing so. They're wrong. So if you want to PM me and let somebody know what's going on you can. I think I might have an idea of what you're talking about. [/b][/quote]
Thanks for the offer of help...but its soo hard to talk about. Hard to live with, hard to live without...hard to fucking exlpain! (but here goes nothing)

Im so fucking sick of going to school each day and having to disguise the 'real' me with a fake fucking facade! It shits me to no end...sure be myself, but I cant, the society that engulfs me is so bloody stereotypical that if anyone puts on foot wrong, against all its morals, then they will become an outcast...its all soooo fucked!

Im like everyones problem solver aswell. They all come to me with their catastrophies expecting me to have the will and power to solve it for them, sure its a complement, but meanwhile all my fucking problems are lingering in the background, suffering from silence!

I want so badly to be able to hold this one person. Everyday I see them, everyday I have to act their friend, everyday I suffocate in my own feelings for them. Its worse when they see im down and they come up to me and look me in the eyes and ask whats wrong...how the fuck can I answer truthfully! I hate having to lie...its the pitts...if only they could know!

Im going some place where Ill be alone and not have to worry about the world...alone to suffer in the sheer silence that completes my exstinction! But before I go this is for that one person that is out of my reach...

Hold on when it feels like I only want you
And I'll bleed
Only for you

....it's hard to be strong when I crave you like I do...

- Crave, The Butterfly Effect

 

So much fucking drama this week. Gah.

I seriously punched a few walls today.

Why can't authority figures just stop being complete asses? :angry:

 

That's just wrong...let 'em know they're dumb, and that I think that too

:hugz:

(And if he messes with you, he messes with me. Therefore he gets his ass kicked) [/b][/quote]
* :hugz: * well this morning he came to my house and you know what he did he slaped me and called me a whore and a slut,he said so many bad thing to me,I can't tell nobody about it because if I do I'm gonna get hurt and nowone will believe me not even my mother.he said he's gonna beat up the boy that ascked me out last night.....I've been crying ever since he left my house,I'm afraid to go out.he's gonna go and say bad thing about me and people will believe him cause in town if someone says something bad about a person they believe it either it's real or not....I'm so scared,I wanted to die and I wanted to take some pills cause I'm feeling very depresed right now....what am I gonna do,I have nowone,no friends,nothing,everyone thing I'm weird because of all my piercings and not even my mother understands me.I'm not a bad person,I just wanna be myself....I think I'm gonna go and live in Italy with my father far away from here cause I have nothing here,I know I'm gonna miss a lot of people even though theyr not gonna miss me especialy Larisa that I love and care about so much.....I know that now all of you are gonna think the same about me,nowone care's about....all I wanted was just to have friends*crying*

 

* :hugz: * well this morning he came to my house and you know what he did he slaped me and called me a whore and a slut,he said so many bad thing to me,I can't tell nobody about it because if I do I'm gonna get hurt and nowone will believe me not even my mother.he said he's gonna beat up the boy that ascked me out last night.....I've been crying ever since he left my house,I'm afraid to go out.he's gonna go and say bad thing about me and people will believe him cause in town if someone says something bad about a person they believe it either it's real or not....I'm so scared,I wanted to die and I wanted to take some pills cause I'm feeling very depresed right now....what am I gonna do,I have nowone,no friends,nothing,everyone thing I'm weird because of all my piercings and not even my mother understands me.I'm not a bad person,I just wanna be myself....I think I'm gonna go and live in Italy with my father far away from here cause I have nothing here,I know I'm gonna miss a lot of people even though theyr not gonna miss me especialy Larisa that I love and care about so much.....I know that now all of you are gonna think the same about me,nowone care's about....all I wanted was just to have friends*crying* [/b][/quote]
Well, that dude pretty much just BS'ed you (yea you know, i didnt really need to tell you) but that doesnt mean you cant stand for what you want or belive, if he beats up the boy you love, you better be ready for more, but im sure...any jerk wouldn't mind, untill he has no more friends. And im pretty sure you have more then just a few friends! c'mon, life isnt life without challenges now is it?


:hugz: dont worry, you'll be ok...I hope.

 

emyly, he slapped you and called you a whore and a slut? Does he even know the real meanings of those words? Obviously not because you are none of those words. I seriously have problems with guys treating girls like that. It isn't right. You should not let him hit you around AT ALL. PLEASE stand up for yourself. Do not take that kind of treatment from him. I know it's hard and I know you are afraid, but you cannot let someone do that to you. You have to fight back, sweetie.

If I was there, I'd do it myself...but I'm not. -_-

 

maverik68 and Andrea : :hugz: thanks a lot....I guess I'll be alright I'm gonna stand up for myself and be strong

 

I went to a horrible rave tonight! I left after only 2hrs. It was quite litterally 110 degrees and was 98% humidity. All kinds of people were throwing up in the bathrooms becuase of heat exhaustion. I couldn't even breathe. and there was a fight. And this really nice guy, like the only nice person i met, had his knee go out. he was soooo misserable! he wanted to call the hospital.
and I finally got to see my best friend, Teresa, who i havn't seen in almost 2 months! and she and I both left early because it was sooo..just grr. then to top it all off my [...] didn't work. so grr.
I felt like crap, and then I came home and I still don't feel good.

it was a waste of $10. Grr.

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@Smashpilot: Yes, it did help. ty. :hugz:

@Ether: :hugz: I'm sorry. But I think the best thing for your sanity is to be yourself. No one is worth pretending to be something.

@Minus: Yes, everyone is an ass-hole. I'm sorry you're going through a bunch of drama. I hope things get better over the weekend. :hugz:

@Emyly: THAT IS HORRIBLE! Why the fuck would he do something like that!? You should NOT take that shit. There are numbers you can call. I know the one for Nevada, but not for where you are. He needs to know that this shit is NOT acceptable. Stand up for yourself. And if he hits you, press charges. If he does this to you, imagine what he would do to his girlfriend or wife someday?!?! Once an abuser, always an abuser. And you shouldn't take it. It puts you in the victim possition. You don't want to be in that possition for the rest of your life. You have to take charge.
Grr! This sort of thing makes me so mad! He may try to sweet talk you later, but that is normal. This guy is sick. He needs to get treated. I am NOT over reacting.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. But don't let it happen to you again. Good luck. :hugz:

 

Okay, where to start...

Couple of months back, dad gets a new girlfriend. No big deal to me, he left us 6 years ago, until he starts making me play with his girlfriend's (lisa) kid, called Lily. Lily is a complete brat. She demands most of my time, so I hardly ever get to see my dad. To make it worse, she demands my dads time too, and he's all over her, playing the caring father. He's also doing things he would never, ever do with me and my brother, like taking them out on day trips, and to parties, normal kids things. And all this time, me and my brother are being pushed to the side whilst he rallies round after lisa's brats (she also has a son). Eventually, I get pissed off with not seeing him. I try to confront him, but he twists everything around, saying that I'm being ungrateful or some shit like that.

So a few weeks ago, I decided I didn't want to see him anymore. I've got a habit of tootling off to my boyfriend house whenever I know he's going to be here, I haven't seen nor spoken to him for about 2 months.

This bit is a bit out of place, because I forgot to include it earlier. When dad and lisa got together, lisa was (still is) married to a guy called rob. Before they started otu together, dad was always round at lisas, and rob didn't like that, obviously. So when, eventually, lisa kicked rob out and let my dad move in, rob kicked off big style. He has a reputation for being "very handy with his fists", he's battered lisa a few times. So yeah, he's stood outside the house, and he was shouting things like "I'm going to kill you" to my dad, whilst he was on the phone to the police, who heard everything. They arrested him, and gave him a court order saying he couldnt come near lisa and her kids, my dad, me, my brother any my mum.

Jumping around times a bit here. 2 days ago: mum comes into my room. She's just got off the phone with my dad. He'd called her up to say that rob was now going to go to court, and rob had been making accusations against my dad, saying he'd battered me and my mum (which he hasn't, he's extremely against child pornand hitting wives/kids). So he's got to stand up in court and have his character ripped to pieces by robs lawyers (direct quote from my mum). When mum tod me that, honestly, I didn't feel anything, or give half a shit.

However, after they'd finished talking about that, somehow they ended up talking about me, and apparently (I don't believe her) my dad started crying on the phone. (bear in mind that he was at work, in a room full of burly mechanics) She said that I ought to see him. I went completely mad at her (I didn't show it, I'm too nice), because she knows damn well that I don't love him, or even like him anymore, and she's just trying to pressure me into seeing him, becuse she thinks it's the right thing to do. I'm stuck with seeing him on monday now. Yep, thanks a lot mum.

Advice? Sorry if I'm not too clear. And sorry for the few spelling mistakes, I couldn't correct them because it started to overwrite my post.

 

thanks a lot and you know he has tryed to sweet talk me 15 minutes ago but I didn't fall for that.....thank again and I'm feeling much better to see all of you suporting me :hugz:

 

thanks a lot and you know he has tryed to sweet talk me 15 minutes ago but I didn't fall for that.....thank again and I'm feeling much better to see all of you suporting me :hugz: [/b][/quote]
Yup, i knew he would. Good girl for not falling for it. He is not worth your time. He has blown it with you. That is the kind of thing you can't forgive or it will happen again, and again, and again, and again.
I'm so glad you feel better though. :hugz:


@Intergalactic Christ: That really sucks. I'm sorry you're in that sort of situation. I'm sorry, but your dad sounds like an idiot. I wouldn't love him either after that. Tell him how you feel, though. Then, if he doesn't change, ...I'm not sure. I would act the same way you are.

My dad just quit his job (when we were the tightest for money we had been for years) and moved to our house in Cali. Now he completely lives off of us and isn't working at all. He has basically abandoned us. The funny thing is, I don't miss him whatsoever. I don't really even notice that he is gone. I very much dislike my dad, and he feels the same way, yet he still bitches that I don't call him.

But tell your dad exactly how you feel. If he was any father at all, he would listen and feel like an ass. Tell him that. (lol, sorry, I am very...um...agressive when it comes to that sort of thing....I tend to hurt some feelings.) Anyways, I'm not sure how much this will help you.
But good luck!

 

It's okay, say what you like about him... I know damn well he's an idiot.

Thing is, when i try to talk to him, like I said, he'll twist everything around so that I'm the one in the wrong. He's even admitted that to me, but still, he does it.

Dads can be such assholes. I don't even have a nice stepdad. Well, he tries to be nice, but just comes off as creepy.

Question for you, if you don't mind me asking: Do you think that in years to come you'll end up missing your dad? Because that's what my mum feels, and I really don't believe her