Discussion in 'Serious Chat' started by Mechanical Christ, Aug 25, 2004.
Okay. Leonie and me figured it out. Our parents stole our lives away. And it all started at the age of 4 and it will never be the same again. Never ever.
lol, i would be able to make $1,000/night..........
[sigh] It seems like whenever I have something going good for me, it fucks up.....
on a happier note - I love my mom. She's sick now, and I hope to visit her. She's the best person in the world and she's so good to me. If not for her I think I wouldn't have bothered living until today.
this is so fucked....i discovered that my gf doesnt trust me coz of some dumb mistake i made.....grrrr.....and her bitch of a friend is a accusing me of hurting her when i never meant to hurt her in the first place.....this just so fucked....when you try to solve something you just screw it up...its just so fucked.....
Well even after mistakes, it's hard to trust people. Even if everyone knows it was a mistake, you still committed it therefore you are responsible in others' eyes.
lol, i would be able to make $1,000/night.......... [/b][/quote]
wow...if you worked a week...you'd make more money than I've made altogether.
Wow, went through the same damn thing when I punched her friend in the nose and wished that she didnt have so many god damned problems.
wow...if you worked a week...you'd make more money than I've made altogether. [/b][/quote]
I know....that's why its tempting...........he even offered to pay for me to go down to the Bay area, where he is.... :wth:
lol, i actaully met a pimp. a real one. this is so weird.
I don't feel like i'm making anything at my job. i could only work one night a wk and make more than i do in a month at my job, and have fun doing it! ahhh! i don't know if ishould even call him.
sorry to hear about your mom. :hugz:
it's only when something bad happens that we realise what we've really got.
hope everything is well for both of you
I had so much funn today
Is that really a confession?
Damn it, if only that fucking plane didn't crash.
it's really pissing me off now!
i always seem to be doing her favors and then she leaves me hanging on! damm, it's soooo annoying!
Okay, i'm in a pretty shitty mood so i thought i'd vent here for the first time ever.
I have to be up at 5:00am for work tomorrow, which isn't out of the ordinary as i've done it many time before. Although, this time they decide to put me on delivery which i've done once, and i hated it. I don't even know how to do it, they haven't even taught me. Then when it probably goes wrong, they'll moan at me Oh geez, yeah um, sorry and all BUT YOU COULD HAVE FUCKING TOLD ME HOW TO DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. Anyway, fuck work, i give too much time and attention to a shitty part time job.
Starting September i'm going back to college to get my points up so i can go to university and study Multimedia / Graphic Design. It's what i want to do, but i'm constantly thinking if i'm making the right decision, I think I am, so I guess that's what counts. Plus, it's what I want to do. I'm looking forward to it i think. Honestly deep down, this is just something to do along side playing the drums, as that is what I want to do out of anything else.
Yes, this is the emo post about girls. You won't see this very often so don't get used to it. First off, i'm 19 in 4 days and i haven't had a girlfriend for a long time. Not good. Now, I tell myself i don't mind and it'll happen when it happens and i'll eventually meet someone, but truthfully, I want a girlfriend. Finding one is hard, i go out, and never really meet anyone, all the people I know from school are no good, i'm friends with them. That's a problem for me, I always become friends before actually going out with anyone, not a good thing. I thought I was a nice guy, I still think i am but for fucks sake, it's not like i'm not trying.
Girls who have feelings for you, but you don't share the same feelings. Now not to be biased as i'm sure this works the opposite way around too. It's annoying, even if you do make yourself clear that you don't share the feelings, they still tell you how they love you etc. Oh, in that case, fuck me now. No, dear, i still don't love you.
Sorry to dumb it down, but that's how it feels.
my confession is that I dont like to eat. Not at all. And then I binge eat when I feel bad. What a crap way to be. Ah well, I'm 17 I'm sure its Just A Phase. xxx
God, this has been bothering me for the whole fucking day.
I might as well explain everything...
As a lot of you may already know, there was a plane crash in Greece. They plane had departed from Cyprus, and less than 3 hours later it crashed into a hillside Northeast of Athens. There were no survivors. It was a pain to find out that someone I knew had been on that plane. That really ruined my day. I can't fucking believe this and I'm really losing my mind at the moment.
My parents don't trust me anymore and we barely get along. Ever since I made a stupid weblog entry about being depressed they've never trusted me. They still think I have fucking problems and I'm actually much better than I was before. They won't even let me have a computer in my room. They have to know who I'm talking to, what I'm doing. And my dad always rants about how I'm always on the computer. Well fuck him. It's the only way I can really talk to friends nowadays considering the fact that if you're caught talking during class at school, you're suspended. Not to mention I hate talking on the phone.
My parents still think I'm obsessed with Linkin Park when I don't even listen to them anymore. They ask me every now and then when I have headphones in my ears, "Are you listening to your little friends Linkin Park?" I mean, I was in love with them months ago and I've lost most of my interest. It's so fucking annoying. I listen to every other possible thing and they say, "I doubt it."
Some of my friends don't understand the fucking meaning of depression. I mean, I'm not really depressed, but I'm so serious about everything. I have the worst temper and my family knows it. I try to hide it from my friends but they've seen me depressed and they've seen me in a serious mood. A lot of my friends tease the cutters at our school and I find the fucking situation sick. They don't fucking understand. Next thing you know, you'll see them with a fucking gun to their head saying, "Life sucks."
My brother is not the same person anymore. Ever since he got a girlfriend, he's changed. He's just not the same. Now that she left for college he's changed even more. I can't stand it. I want my fucking brother back. He also puts down everything I get too. Like, I just got this fucking sweet Pearl drumsets and he thinks it's smaller than others. But it's cool, drumsets don't necessarily have to be big to be good. It's the fucking sound, John. IT'S THE FUCKING SOUND.
Somehow I feel the lyrics I wrote for my band were good even though the other members thought they sucked. All they write is their stupid screamo lyrics and think it's something good. Well they're fucked up. They need some fucking perspective.
Why is it that I fall in love with every girl that pays any fucking attention to me?
I'm never forgetting that phone call.
ummm sorry, Your songs are just sooo irresistible.
You sound sooo hot, omg omg
I just lost my best friend. If anyone cares, they can let me know, cause I'm pretty sure nobody does. End of story.
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