Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I haven't seen her in a month and a half (give or take) and she has a boyfriend (and has had for a while) but I keep thinking about her. What we could have had. What we should have fucking had. I hate regret.

 

FUCK!

 

what's wrong kevin?

 

I can't believe my mother actually called child protective services and tried to give my sister away.

It sounds really bad that when I say it, but honestly I'm not surprised.

 

I feel like crap lately.

I hate when I feel angry about something but I never have the heart to voice my anger to the person I'm angry with. I'd rather just keep it inside than confront them, mainly because I feel things will be better that way than if I were to confront them about it and create controversy. I guess I'm some what afraid to know what will happen if I voice my feelings, because in the past if I tried to confront someone and tell them that they're hurting me it ends up just being something I was overly paranoid about and I ended up looking like an idiot.

I dunno.. that may sound confusing and stupid, but whatever. I just didn't feel like going into detail about it much. Bleh. I just feel like I have no one to understand me right now.

 

What the hell, I should be uber-happy right now. So why the fuck did I basically cry myself to sleep last night? Ugh, fucking hormones

 

Well, I do understand you, I seem to "overreact" about stuff too and when I talk about it I end up looking stupid... It really sucks, but it shows you care about stuff and you shouldn't let people just get away with something you don't agree with.

 

Aww Daniel!! You gotta PM me and let me know,

 

Thanks love . MSN?

 

BLOODY HELL. You fucking arsehole. Stop being so fucking mean. You're making me swear. I'm being unpleasant, damnit. You are the cause of my unpleasantness. Apologise, goddamnit. Don't just talk to me as though nothing's wrong. Don't threaten to switch off my internet if I don't talk back. I'm fucking offended.

 

Awww, Mali.

 

Yeah.. thanks, babe

 

*superubercomforthug*

 

None of this is fair.
None of this is right.
None of this is easy.
I'm losing it.
I'm physically sick.
I'm at a total loss.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know how to endure this.
I don't get why it is this way.

I just...


don't.

 

Thanks.

Yeah I know I shouldn't, but I just don't want to end up looking stupid and then come off as annoying. I dunno, I guess I'll just see how things go and if it still ends up bothering me, I'll try and say something.

 

Well, I don't know exactly what you're going through, but just stick to what you believe in.

 

I know what you're going through Anyadear

 

i'm so confused right now, kinda depressed.