Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Hopefully lol.

If not, the other option is just to be a bitch back

 

Haha I guess, but then you'll get a bad reputation.

 

Meh, why not.

Being the good guy gets you nowhere.

 

*widens eyes in innocence* Not always!

 

Well maybe, but I'm too much of a cynic to have much faith in being nice.

All it does is seem to get me hurt lol.

 

Hmm so to you letting your walls down in a relationship makes you vulnerable and easy to hurt. Makes sense. Just takes some time to really trust someone.

 

I did make that mistake once.

 

I'm sorry to hear that. S'happened to me too. It sucks, but you just gotta learn to trust people.

 

Yeah.

The trick is makign sure you really have picked someone trust worthy...

 

Which means that you have to get to know them on a friendly basis before trusting them with your "heart" so to speak. Aye?

 

Aye.

Which leads backround to why i'm on thin ice with this friend of mine.

Lol.

 

Yes, yes, I see your dilemma... As I said, I s'pose just ya know, take what you can, which is friendship. I know how it feels, the whole friendship thing not feeling like enough but..yeah..hmm

 

Yeah lol.

But thanks, it's really helped to talk about it...

I'm just going remember it's not option (as I have done till now) and play it by ear lol.

 

That sounds like the best option. And I'm always here to talk to, PM me or whatever anytime you want.

 

*Headdesk*

what did I do...? Ugh, I hate myself right now.

 

Noooo! PM me dear, let me know what's wrong. I'll be here if you want to talk


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Ugh, now I'm feeling like shit because Natalie's depressed. Shit. Fuck. Shit.

 

You know what will make you feel better?
Get drunk, cause your a drunk Aussie!




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Doctors tomorrow to get a million more tests done.
I wish they just could get it right and I knew nothing bad was wrong with me.

 

tests don't matter. nothing is wrong with you ever unless you think something is.

 

No, trust me. If you knew what was going on you would know something is wrong, but it's not something I really want to throw out there for everyone to know.
I already had tests done, and they thought they knew what it was, and treated it, but nothing changed, so it's either a really bad case of what they think it is or something completely different, which isn't good either way.

 

Amy, whatever it is, I hope you'll be okay.