Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

What do you mean by 'forced'? The choice is in your hands Arhaz.

 

she kept messaging me and messaging me and messaging me when i was forced to tell her to leave me alone. and then she messaged me and messaged me and messaged me. and i got sooo pissed at her sarcastic comments that i never cared about her and i never loved her and its so easy for me to forget her...that i just told her that things aren't gonna be like what they were before, but i'm willing to try. she wouldn't have ever stopped messaging me till she ruined my entire life, i know that. now that we are back in a relationship, she is gonna play hard to get...that means lesser messages and more peace for me.

 

Ah I see. So, you're actually only with her now so she doesn't bother you anymore? lol.

 

yeh... and i have a new born baby girl cousin!!

 

Sweet.

 

God, just please please please give me some reasons to be happy...please. i can't take this shit.

 

You have more than you think, living is reason enough to be happy. Things will get better. Chin up.

 

i could just cry...it's so depressing.

 

What's upset you?

 

just...somethings..it's all too much...God..please.
the last thing i want to do is hate my father.

 

What happened?

 

don't bother darling. things are just too fucked up. thanks.

 

I know what you are going through, babe.
I've had terrible problems in my childhood with my dad, and I still do, even though I don't live with him anymore. Trust me, I could hate him for all the stuff he has done to me, mom and my sister.

But I'm here for you, and if you want to talk about it, I'm here <3

 

thanks hun. you guys are too nice.

 

What are you supposed to do, when you feel completely unwanted by all your friends, and you're paranoid anyway that they don't like you...

...and the one person (your best friend) who actually seems to care for you, is being messed around by a boyfriend who you worry has all but stopped loving her, and that she's going to get so hurt when (if) they split up...

and that whilst you try and make sure you're there for her, and help her try and sort things out with him, you know that if you keep being this emotionally close to her, you're going to fall for her...

but you can't not talk to them, or be so close to them, because they're the only one who cares.

argh! help!

 

In a situation like this you have to realize which you would want more: her friendship, or the slight possibility that you guys could get together. It sounds to me like you really just depend on her as a friend to you, as someone to lean on, and i think that you need to lean on her as your friend, but you just have to realize that that's all she is and all she will be, and convince yourself that so you don't fall for her. Get what I'm saying? I know that it can be hard ot be such close friends to someone, and know them so well and everything and not fall for them, but if all you can have from her is friendship, I think that you just need to try and settle with that. Good luck.

 

Yeah, that's what I keep telling myself, because it's much better for both of us in the long run.

It's just hard when everyone you know is all loved up, to not jump at the chance...

 

I know what you mean. But maybe, things could work out for you guys as a couple, but for right now thats not an option, so just, chin up, and enjoy the closeness in your friendship.

 

Yeah I guess so.

TBH it's probably better to just stay single, than get fucked over by another girl who only wants you for your body, or similarily shite reasons that the others i've been involved in have given...

 

Not all girls are like that, but I must admit that I know a LOT who are exactly like that. I'm sorry that you've had to only experience bitchy girls. But you've still got plenty of time to date if you aren't ready to yet, plus, girls tend to get less stupid once they're older.