Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

you know what's really hard. dying to be strong so you can support your loved ones, and then them blaming you for being insensitive.

 

It does sound really hard. =/

 

I don't know what to make of this feeling. I'm floating and connected more to Earth at the same time. I can feel so much more than I ever could. My heart is all aflutter, beating fast and slow at the exact same time. I feel almost holy.

I've never experienced a sensation like this before. Who needs vices when you have true, pure love <33

 

It pisses me off. And I'm hurt.

 

@Rachel - Good to see that your happy.

 

oh it's ok now, but thanks babe

 

it is very.

 

Hm. I have the same 'superstition' problem. It's so annoying, it practically takes over 53.6% of my life.

 

It's technically the 15th of August here right now which means that I've been a member here for a whole year now (bloody hell, time flies by).
Just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone here. Made a lot of new friends who I never would've met if LPA wasn't around. I've had fun!
So yeah, that's about all I wanted to say/let out.

Thanks, all!

 

Congrats hun, and lets see another year!

Hm, guess this means MY one year anniversary is coming up pretty soon too.

 

welcome <3

 

I need to vent.. kinda of.. here it goes.

I fucking hate her. At least I think I should. On Monday afternoon I left my purse sitting next to my bed. I'm like 75% sure I did cause I remember cleaning my room and I was going to put it in a draw cause where it was was really full, but I had to go help mum pack some shit. Either that or I lost it beforehand, but I really swear it was in my room.

My girlfriend came over and I left my room for a whole 2 minutes the whole time she was there. I didn't even notice it was gone, until today (wednesday) when I needed it again. She must have took it. She has to of. Not 1 person other then her has been in this house besides her since it has gone missing. We've searched the whole entire house and can't find it anywhere. SHE TOOK IT. That why she was so suss on Monday and has been avoiding me since.

WHY THE FUCK WOULD SHE DO THAT. She is one of my best friends, and shes just done that. She got her money and phone stolen the other day so she would want all my money in it. It had like 3 really important cards, my bankcard, plus my drivers license and 18+ card in it. She could completely get away with anything... stealing my identity even or some shit like that. Or give my ID to her lame underage friends so they can go out with her. I'm really just extremely pissed off and scared. Now I have to pay for a bunch of shit again so that will be another $80 to get replacement cards and I had $60 in it. I don't have a job, I can hardly afford all this shit at the moment especially with my $350 medical bills I have got lately. I am FUCKED. and I fucking hate her. Why would she do that to such a good friend. I would have never thought she would do it. I just wish I could find it all but it's not anywhere. I can't accuse her incase she didn't take it, but who else could have fucking taken it?!?!

Sorry, had to get something out. I'm going insane.

 

At the bottom you say that you can't accuse her, but you can probably do it in a calm manner. Ya know? Just be like, "Hey, so and so, I seem to have lost my purse and I was wondering if you've seen it anywhere?" Or something along those lines. 'Cause it sounds to me that you REALLY need that purse back for all your cards and everything, so you gotta try everything to get it back/locate it, even if you do have to come right out and ask her. Good luck.

 

I found out my freind Cameron was stabbed to death while I was in Ireland which really fucked me over. He wasn't a close friend and I hadn't seen him in 4 months or so but he was still an awesome person and he didn't deserve what happened at all. It's escalating shit like this that makes me wanna move out of the city. Hell, there's a large house just outside of San Fransisco that my family and I could move to tomorrow but I don't wanna leave behind everything I have here.

On top of this I think I'm falling for a girl whom I consider one of my best friends but lives in Ireland. Fantastic.

 

ouch man. bummer. sorry to hear about Cameron.RIP.
you gotta just clear your head and focus. think about what you REALLY want, and then where you will get it.

 

I'm starting to hate everyone, idk why i feel this way.

 

I don't have anything to post in here.
I've never not had something to bitch about.

*is happy*

 

@Lauren:

I'm glad for you ^^

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I'm just.. errr.. depressed.

 

Well then I hope you feel better.

@Hellflame: Oh, that's horrible. RIP Cameron

 

Thank you, Lauren.

<3

and yeah, Hellflame, I'm really srry... My prayers to your friend, after all, and his family.