Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

So pretty much today sucked. Badly.

Yesterday at work there was this huge ordeal dealing with our boss, but I wasn't there yesterday because I was getting home from vacation. But there was a huge thing yesterday and now Josh, my significant other (boyfriend? we care enough about each other for sure but we don't use the titles) works with me, and he got really pissed off because he got blamed for something that WAS our bosses fault. And then plus recently he had been offered a weekend job with higher pay. And he had been thinking about it for a little while if he wanted to take the new job, and yesterday just kinda set him off. So guess what, he quit the Aerodrome. I am absolutley devestated. That's pretty much it. With my parents...I can't see him outside of work. And now he doesn't work there anymore and I just don't know...I am so goddamn upset.

But he made it quite clear to me that he wasn't leaving because of me, or running away from me, and he told me that he's going to visit and he'll wait for me as long as he has to (til my parents are okay with the whole dating thing.)

This kinda seems trvial, but to me...it's a huge deal. I've never trusted/cared about a guy as much as Josh and it just hurts to know that I can't look forward to the weekends to see him anymore. He was about 95% of the reason that I really enjoy my job...now I'm going to have to work around that.

I was hoping that maybe I could convince him to stay...but it didn't work. I mean, it makes sense. The Aerodrome, we work long hours, and get payed $7.15 an hour, this new job offer, he's going to start out getting $12 an hour. So I mean, more power to him and everything but I can't deny that I hate it.

I just want to be able to...go away with him and just be with him all the time. It's so strange for me to feel like this...I'm not used to it but it's so real to me. He told me he loved me today, for the first time. *cries* He is just so...perfect to me...in every way..everything I could ask for...ugh. It's going to suck not seeing him as much as I wanted to. Well, if I saw him as much as I wanted I would never leave his side but...ugh...anyway

What the hell kinda post is this, anyway? Oh well, I s'pose I had to get it out, aye?

 

Arlene, I totally understand how you are feeling. I pretty much feel the same about my boyfriend. Including parents.

I'm sure you guys'll find a way to hang out more and for you to feel better <333

! <333

 

Thanks, Ori. I'm just...kind of not sure how to feel. I'm just so upset about it. I've never cared about a guy as much as him and it just hurts so much to know that I won't be seeing him on a regular basis. But i have no doubt in how he feels about me or how i feel about him. I think we have something real here for sure...although I'm only 15 but I can tell that this is something real. He even said that he's willing to wait for me til I can drive (so I can see him when i want to), and I said "Yeah, in a year" and he said "But my feelings for you aren't going to change and I will wait for you for a year." Dah

 

My sis lost her baby Went for the 12 week scan and there was no heart beat and it seemed like it had stopped developing a week ago or so because of its size and it had started to go all fuzzy and decompose I just wish I could be there with her whilst they remove the baby because thisis the second time she has lost a child

To be honest I wasn't over the moon when I found out that she was pregnant again because she has already given me a beautiful neice and a gorgeous nephew, but I always got lumped with them and my special 'Aunty Jo time' turned into a kind of 'second mom' time. I'm just in limbo at the moment with my emotions and don't know what to do. My dad has gone to help out so I'm home alone until tomorrow night

 

That's horrible.. to you, your sister and your family.

 

@Arlene:

Trust me, I really understand you. If he really loves you, he'll really wait for you, and so you will too. Don't worry about it, if it's for real, the things are going to turn out just fine! Just be a little bit patient.

@Jo:

...Dear I'm so sorry. I really am. I've been through this before, right when my aunt lost two babies -.- But, I'll pray for things to get better for you. If there's anything I could do or if you want someone to talk to, you know I'm here... The only thing I can tell you is that your sister needs all the love and support from you and your family.

*hugs tighly* Jo, love you!

 

Arlene-dear : Ugh, I know it's hard, I've been through a situation like this before. But Josh sounds like a really genuine guy, and if he says he'll wait for you, then I'm sure things will work out. And until you can drive, I'm sure there's SOME other way for you too see him, no? I know it's tough, but hang in there, love can be a bitch sometimes, but it's all worth it.

Jo - Oh my God that's horrible. Have a hug, love .

 

Ori- Thanks, ugh, it means a lot that you care.

Daniel--Yeah, I know you've been through situations like this, lol. I'm gunna try and hang in there..I mean, i KNOW i'm gunna be okay but at the current time im just upset about it. Ugh. But thanks for always being here for me, Daniel. <3

 

-I don't know why I care. I'll have no pity when it all goes down.

-I wish my best friend at work wouldn't leave and move back to Philly. I hope everything works out for her there. It won't be the same without her. Her last day is August 31st.

-I can't wait until I turn 21 next June. I wish I turned it this year. I could be doing so many things.

-The last three fortunes out of the fortune cookies I've opened this year have all been true in a positive way. Funny how that is.

-I hope my dad knows what he is doing...

---Hugs to everyone---

 

Nothing sadder than a fallen homeboy.

More later.

 

I got you're back, and dude, don't let it get you down, just keep on the prowl. You'll get someone.

 

That's horrible, I'm really sorry to hear that. Best wishes to you, your sister, and your family. <3

 

Man, alot of sadness suddenly. I'm sorry to hear that all.

 

I was talking to him and I was in a great mood, then I saw on his MySpace his mood was set to loved, and then I started thinking about his new girlfriend.

It's really fucking pathetic, that I can't get over him. That I still cry over him, and think about him all the time. I can't fucking stand this, or myself sometimes.

I hate being so happy when I'm talking to him or with him, then when I leave be totally depressed thinkin about how I lost him and he's got someone else now.

 

I know that feeling.

 

Hell, I still have that feeling. Nothing can help you over your first, swear to god.

 

Fuck.

 

Yep, pretty much.