Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I wish education were free.

 

Quoted for truth imo.

 

Fuck UPS Ground. Slow as hell.

 

I consulted Mum before I did anything and she seemed to approve. Just everyone sees it from Dad's perspective"poor dad poor he's all alone". I wish the rest of the family saw it from my perspective to what I've had to deal with concerning my father; his alcoholism was killing me and I found myself getting more and more sad by the day living there.
Was it a smart move? I don't know. That's what Mum and I are trying to sort out when I go to Sydney tomorrow.
Have I apologised for moving out? Yes.
Does any of the family see things from my perspective? No.

Edit. Talking to Dad finally. Feel like a real adult now that we've talked. Can't believe I had to be the one to ring him instead of him ringing me directly instead of him ringing Mum and my sister up constantly asking what I've been up to.

 

Sarah, just saying, I don't think it's up to your mom to decide if it's a smart move or not. That's between you, your boyfriend, and your child to find out.

 

Yeah true only time will tell.

 

I can't believe what I just did.

 

What'd you do love?

 

Made an appointment to tour a college.

 

I hate it when random people knock at your door at 7.30 in the morning and wake up half an hour before the alarm is meant to go off.

 

Never know man, maybe the campus is one that you'll like!

 

Mike: Haha, that's great. Are you feeling inspire to go back to school?

 

A little bit. I'm having the hardest time finding a job, and I'm tired of being a bum around the house. Chances are, I probably wont go to this particular school. It is an hour away, but it doesn't hurt to go tour the school, either. It might get me more comfortable to see what colleges are really like and may inspire me to check out what else is out there.

 

I want a job at Borders so bad.

 

@Dean: They have Borders at UK? wow, that's amazing. I thought they didn't

 

Mike: That's really great. Good for you, hon.

 

OH MY GOD.

I just got an interview with In-N-Out Burger on the 12 or 13th.

And, I've found something that I feel is worth fighting for, and I'm damn well gong to fight for it. Rather, against it, but still.

Seems like things are kind of looking up.

 

So pissed off and I don't know if I have the right to be.

Am in Sydney at the moment and just called Ben to see what he was doing, and he said he didn't have overtime today like he said he would have today, but doesn't know if he's going to get it tomorrow or not and there's no way he can contact me because he's ran out of phone credit to tell me if he's going to come to Sydney because my parents want to get to know him. My mum's gone to the length of cooking him a slow cooked dinner and both parents want words to him about me and bub. I don't know if I have the right to feel so pissed about being jerked around at the moment, but ugh, it's frustrating. I would be going back sooner to Bathurst if he was coming up but since he's not I'm going to be back sooner. Just the one time that I want him to meet my parents is the time I felt screwed around by him.

 

Yeah but they don't have any vacancies here.

 

I feel completely empty and devoid of all emotion at the moment.