Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

This is true. But up until 14 months ago, my mom seemed like one of the ones you could trust. If a woman who's willing to betray you can hide it for that long...how the hell are you supposed to know which ones can be trusted? Any woman that I wind up with is going to have to be able to handle some MAJOR trust issues, because there won't be a day that goes by that I won't be paranoid of her screwing me over.

Thanks mom, love you too.

 

I'm sorry to hear this Anthony.

 

There are literally no words to describe just how screwed up that whole situation is. I'm really sorry to hear it. It sounds lame and too little, but I wish you the best.

 

Anthony: Jeez, that's effing ridiculous. Your mom sounds like a bitch, ugh. When he's in court can you be called in as a witness and say what really happened? Talk about her violence with the hair dryer and all that other crap? I mean, honestly, after the first time he should have maybe tried to stay somewhere else, like with family, to avoid the temptation of giving her the hitting she deserved, but what's done is done y'know? It seems like there has to be something that you can do, because that situation is very unfair.

Harlz: Man, she seems confusing, haha. But that kind of "I love you" seems joking...I say that to my guy friends and stuff. I mean it's different when you're in a relationship but it still seems a bit joking...but hey, there's definitely something there though. Good luck with everything, hon.

 

Things like what happened last night are the reason I'm occasionally afraid for myself and/or my parents to go out at night.

 

I hope things turn out okay for you. What a chain of events!

 

What happened, if you don't mind me asking?

 

I'm wondering this too.

 

Yeah same.

 

Yeah I know it wasn't serious or anything, but still, just the fact that she said it at all...
All good though, no problems right now



Except my HSC trial exams for school... :S

 

Awesome. 13 weeks. No miscarriage and no deformities. My hair's growing like hell, which is good because I'm trying to outgrow my various hair colours and returning to natural brown.

 

That's great, Sarah. =].







What happened's this: I went to a festival with some friends on the 8th, and we left right after Amanda Palmer's set, before 21:00. After the fest [it ended around 22:00] there was a huge brawl between anti-fascists and nationalists, with knives, knuckledusters, sticks, and broken bottles. The nationalist movement in Russia kind of terrifies me, because for those of you who have seen my pics, I don't exactly look ethnic!Russian, and neither do my parents. It scares me that there are people in the world, in my country [and it's a huge problem here], who are so intolerant as to actually resort to violence against those who look different. And maybe it's silly of me to occasionally be scared about this, but sometimes I can't help myself.

 

I forgot I was scheduled today for my 2.5 hour shift and didn't show up. I don't even care.

 

Why do people feel like they're allowed to be cunts then randomly start talking to you when they've got no one else to talk to?

 

Finally I erased him in FB! What's the point we're not even talking. I mean he's juz ignoring me. I think I made a great decision.

 

Ugh.
I fear reading my old....Diary so to say.

I hate it. I fear remembering What Whom I miss.

I messed up big time.

 

I wouldn't call it silly--in all honesty, I'd probably get pretty scared too. As long as the fear isn't running your life, I don't think it's unhealthy.

Stay safe, in any case.

 

Thanks, sugar. And really, I call it 'silly', because I don't want it to run my life. It's why I keep going out at night and don't protest when my parents do the same, even though an irrational part of me is squealing, "But no!" I don't like this part of life, really. Intolerant people should all just hole themselves in a cave and... and... learn to exist on air alone. So they don't have to come out and buy products.

 

Awww Mali...here's a big bearhug!!


Oh my gosh, I love this can't-take-my-hands-of-off-you phase. I am finally feeling great, this is exactly what I needed, what I wanted. I feel like I should live my life everyday to the fullest, giving as much love as I have in me and having it returned back feels so great. I never felt this with Maxime, and yeah, perhaps it seems extremely fast after a relationship of 4 years, but Olivier, he makes me feel alive. He woke me up from the dull, routine life I was leading. Perhaps it will change, perhaps I'm naive but for now I'm really enjoying it, I'm enjoying him. But we're finding it really hard not to let anyone notice, after all, he's my teamleader and if my manager finds out....I don't know what she'll say about it, but it afraids me. My head's in the clouds.