Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Holy shit... We hooked up last night.

I am so nervous/excited.
Need to see her, now...

 

Wow, he sounds like a flamer. Anyway, it seems that the most of what she said was that he was "gorgeous." But he seems to be pushing it, not her, from what he said, about how he's lonely online and whatnot.

 

Arlene...

I feel like I should contribute something... I agree with Arlene. As of yet, you only know for sure that she complimented his looks. It's probably not worth getting worked up over for now. It'd be much easier if you could see what he was replying to, I guess.

 

I'd tell you to man up if you weren't female. ugh

 

my girlfriend told me she loves me today the thing is i dont feel that way yet, i mean its only been a month, what do i do now?

 

What is it with this constant feeling of doom lodged in the pit of my stomach?

It's starting to get on my nerves.

 

Thanks Dean and Arlene.

I know it probably is just me being paranoid and such. We talked a lot yesterday, about her depression (clinically diagnosed) and other stuff, and while I didn't bring that up, I feel things are alright. I think the guy is just a bit overly friendly, she's certainly not given any other signs she's returning it.

Thanks guys.

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Harlz: Awesome, congrats dude!

to Iain. And Dean.

Evan, that's a bit of a sticky situation unfortunately.

 

That's probably the best attitude to take to it man, no point proclaiming the end of the world yet aye.


Remember how Cale used to carry on about that other girl? Yeah it was her. Going round to her place this arvo too.... Work out what the hell is going on between us

 

Playa.

 

I wonder if Cale lurks here at all.

 

I miss Cale. Whatever happened to him?

 

Banned. He had created another account earlier.

 

He did for a long while. Not so sure now.

 

's to all who need them.

Evan: Well, you might just have to say that, kindly. Tell her it's too soon for you, that you really care about her, but it feels too soon to proclaim that you love her. I think she would rather that you tell her the truth, than just saying "I love you" back if you don't love her quite yet, y'know? Hang in there, hon

 

And now we're dating.

As she put it... "Couldn't be luckier... dating my best friend"

 

So I have joy and confusion to let out!
I finally have confirmation that I will be going back to my old High School. Thank God!
I moved away during my freshman year near the end, finished it in a really small hick town that neither me, nor my mom could stand (we moved here because it was the first house she could find to rent.) The staff at the school are complete assholes and the kids are complete morons, minus a VERY select few (like 5 kids, 4 of which are girls and I had one guy friend who was immature but tolerable)

I recently spent a weekend at one of my friend's house for his birthday along with 3 other guys and I haven't been so happy in a long time, I was homesick and hadn't seen any of them in so long. One of them wasn't even a best friend but he was more mature than one of my so called "best friends" in the new town.

Well I'll still live close enough to see Lexi, but I feel like we just aren't on the same page sometimes, we try to talk about anything but sometimes we just can't because she (me being her first boyfriend) is still not very good with relationships I don't think.
But I LOVE the acoustic music we come up with, we're just now starting to make it sound good on recordings and everything, part of me wants to break up and stay friends for the music, but I can't see that happening, another part doesn't want to breakup but I don't know what will happen when I go back to Coldwater and I become more involved with different friends and just exit the world of friends I'm currently in, I mean sure I won't "stop" being friends with them, but I won't see them like I will my old friends whom I've missed.

Blah, rant. Gah!

 

I am a fucking idiot.

 

What happened?

 

thanks arlene, sounds like the right thing to do but i'm also raelly worried on how she might react to it

 

I no longer have a car.

I was stopped waiting to make a left hand turn, and someone rear ended me and I was pushed into the other lane and the front of my car is destroyed. My son was in his car seat in the back of my car. Thankfully he is ok. I got smacked by my airbag in the face, I am only 5 feet tall and have to sit really close to the steering wheel. so it hit me full force.

I spent almost an hour in the hospital.

My back and neck are sore like nothing I have ever experienced.