Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Josh just told me that he hasn't really been feeling in the mood for sex recently. Is it me?!

 

Aww man, welcome to the limp shrimp club. You're not the only one. o.o

 

I just came to the realization that I'm about a month away from having no health insurance whatsoever. I don't know how the hell I'm going to pay for my medication after it runs out...

 

Like...when we have sex or whatever it doesn't take any time/much of anything for him to get excited, and he's still that way, even though he said he's not been in the mood. I'm just wondering if he's just been so tired that it doesn't sound appealing, or if he's getting bored. Probably the latter. I mean we've been together for almost 2 years and maybe he's just getting bored of our same old routine. I should think of a way to make it more exciting. But that's hard because he doesn't have his own place, so the only time that we get is late at night at my house, on the couch, when everyone is asleep, . Oh well. Hopefully it blows over. It just kinda sucks though because I'm already kinda insecure about myself and I've always been completely irresistible to him, and I don't want that to change. *sigh* Damn guys.

 

Arlene, one look at you and I get baffled how he could be bored.



Just give it some time, and try something new!

 

Arlene, it's probably just a phase. I, too, get like that. Sometimes she'll want to, and I'll just say no. Maybe he's got his mind pre-occupied with some stresses in life? I dunno, that's usually the case for me if I'm not in the mood. But, you could also try changing up the routine. Sometimes I wish the routine would get changed with me, so it could be either of those two things. Surely he isn't bored with you. If he is, then he must be gay (I kid! ).

 

Thanks guys. I mean, I DO try to change it up, but maybe he's looking for something "edgier", which I'm not into. I dunno. Hopefully he'll get over it, especially if we don't have sex for a while...maybe I'll make him beg for it...ha, no. I wouldn't. I don't have the self control for that,

 

Ori: Yeah, it's official now. In a way I feel kind of bad, I mean to an outsider it probably looks like I'm doing it out of spite for Darcy, which I'm not (as much of an absolute bitch she may have become). But I'm happy with Emmy so I really don't care to be honest. Thank you. <3

And thank you, Arlene. I certainly plan to. . As for what's happening with Josh, I'm sure he'll get over it. As everyone else has said, I'm sure it's just a phase. I give him a week at most before he's begging for it.

 

Once you both conceed from him begging, you should surprise him with something totally new!

 

Arlene, dress up like a 1940's nurse for him (or for me, it doesn't matter)

 

Hahaha, Mike. And thanks guys.

I asked him about it last night, and he said he means it as a good thing...that our relationship has kinda taken a step in that he doesn't NEED to have me the second he sees me (he still is physically attracted and still wants me but it isn't a necessity.) He said that it's so much more than physical attraction, that he's finding himself more attracted to my heart, rather than just always wanting me. Which is good I guess.

 

Me and my mom had an argument today on my way to school..she pisses me off

 

Fuck.
I've been taking the wrong tablets for the last month.
Dealing with these side effects for no reason. Fuck this.

 

Swine Flu freaks my mind these past days.

 

@Arlene:

! Well it's good you got to talk to him and figure out what was wrong. But yeah! make it interesting, I recommend Victoria's Secret! lmao
It's funny you mention the whole sex thing, because my boyfriend felt the same way when he wanted to have sex on thursday and I said no. Hmm, yeaaah, we are always doing it anyways and about the couch thing, YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE! , oh and I would loooove to see a picture with the nurse outfit haha <3

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Hugs to everyone else! <3

 

For the first time in my life, I contemplated suicide last night.

Then I cried until I fell asleep.

 

How do you feel now?

 

I feel fine now, it's just last night, I was really depressed... We've been having money issues, and everything I do seems to be totally in vain.

I just hope I don't feel that way again.

 

Yeah, you don't. The more problems you have with depression the darker it gets. I understand anyway so hopefully that can count for something if it continues.

 

I hate being sick.