Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Killswitch Engage kicked my ass - literally. They were ridiculous. Holy shit I'm so sore. The Wall of Death was so awesome!

 

I feel horrible. I miss my ex, I don't wanna go to school anymore, I don't want to work when I'm done with my school. I want a job with no stress whatsoever.

 

Don't look back man, it'll only hurt you for missing your ex.

And a Job without much stress is one without much pay, remember that!

 

Did I just got hugged by a guy?

Thanks, but its really hard to. I saw my friends yesterday, hugging and kissing and I thought of my ex and how I missed her. I texted her right away saying that I miss her, and I knew at that moment that my message wouldn't make it any better. I just had to send it.

 

Yeah mang! Weird but sometimes it's good.

=\ Yikes, that sucks! Course, texting her, she'd probably say "aww" or "hah" or "what a loser"

So what if you saw them kissin'? Doesn't mean you have to wallow in "what was" or "that used to be" instead, you could be "That could be me with some other gal".

or you could try to win her back!

Worse comes to worse, buy yourself a nice cool drink, and maybe something to snack on and say" You know, fuck it, I'm single and I should be getting as much as I can without being an ass about it" Then go workout and score some hot chicks XD

 

My mom has been up my ass for many months about me not getting a job. I've been applying but the economy and the small city of which we live in are such set backs. I do what I can. I finally told my mom how she has been making me feel and she took such offense to it. The way I see it is if you can't admit to your own faults as a parent and communicate calmly with your child, then there is a serious problem there. I spoke calmly and rationally and she couldn't take it. Now I'm the one sitting here looking like the bad guy when I shouldn't be. I took the steps to lay my feelings out there in the open for her but yet she couldn't be mature and have an adult conversation with me. But she has the problem on not viewing me as an adult. I'm 21 years old but to her, I'm still just a child and anything that's true or right that I say doesn't matter because she's the parent and the parent must be always right, right? Pfft, not always. I did my best to open communication up to her. Any counselor...hell...even Dr. Phil or Oprah will tell you that you have to communicate effectively and openly to get somewhere and solve problems. I did that and my mom gets defensive and won't even look at me or even talk to me anymore. Now how am I supposed to work with that? Yeah. Damned if you do, damned if you don't.

Edit: Thanks Derek for the PM. <3

 

I love when girls get clingy and act as if I'm in a relationship with them when I'm not. I really do...

Just keep piling dirt on me from up high, why don't you.

 

Derek, the only thing I can tell you is that you're going to find someone when you least expect it and when you're not even trying. It seems we as people just walk into this sort of thing, and going out and looking, putting yourself out there, and actually giving effort never works. Well, not for me anyway. I understand what you're going through as I was in your position for a good 5 years.

You do have age on your side. You're what, 22 now? We're still youngbloods my man, someone will come around eventually.

Anyway, here's my rant.

Things have been kind of up and down with me and my girlfriend for about 3 weeks now, mainly because of her brother. Now, almost 2 months ago, I was really good friends with her brother. We've been friends since 10th grade in high school up until this point. Ever since I started dating his sister, he was different with me, and that's been since December.

Now he's been with this girl for over 2 years now and they're engaged. At first, I didn't like her and I almost lost him as a friend. He has this mentality that if his friends can't get alogn with his girlfirend, then he wants nothing to do with those people. So, for the last 2 years I've put up with her.

I have nothing against her, other than I think shes a not-so-good mommy. Leaving her kid behind (with family, of course) to go to new York and Florida just to watch her man BACKYARD wrestle on two seperate occasions. I'm sorry, I don't believe in that. My girlfriend has a daughter, and I wouldn't let her come out of town with me like that just to see a BACKYARD wrestlign show with a bunch of kids aged between 16 & 25.

Anyway, so I deleted her from my MySpace after that weekend in New York. I said nothing, and just went on. Well, he moved me away from his life. Told his sister that he hated me and all this junk. It's stupid.

In short (as if this already isn't long enough), it's just made my relationship with her more difficult than it should be. Sometimes we fight because I get angry over something they did or said and she doesn't like the things I have to say.

Grr...

 

Yeah that's pretty easy to say though, but when you see someone kissing you immediately think about your ex. Well, I did We broke up, but we said to eachother that we'll get back when the time is there. She's not ready for it, and I understand it but it's really hard to wait It's just that I saw my friends kissing and that made me a bit uncomfortable.

 

I won't say its not affecting me because it is, but i wont let them break me down ever. But a stab in the back is the last i would expect

 

Will it ever end?

 

Hah, I can't trust my boyfriend with his ex. I wonder why [/sarcasm]

 

I honestly hate my ex for telling his friends that I'm some fucking tease who was leading him on.

What the hell?

 

He's just hurt because you "hurt" his man pride and didn't get to go far away with you sexually. That's all, don't listen to him or his friends. They are just showing how little girls they are by gossiping around trash, and I miss you <3!

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So, my relationship is going downhill right now. Great. Wait to throw away 5 months of dating officially away. Besides the fact he's talking to his ex-girlfriend again and he decided to become "best friends" with her, today is our anniversary and not one single call from him. He knows is today, because I remember him saying something about it lastnight, but still. Today should be important, right? Apparently not, or at least not for him. Oh well.

 

Imo, it's either a sign of your boyfriend becoming comfortable to be friends with his ex in order to hold no more grudges or something like that[/quote]

Or a big big warning sign!

 

I know the reaction is to be upset and hurt, and think that he's just a cheating ass hole who doesn't care, but you need to trust him until there are more warning signs. I lost a lot of trust in Josh, and it really makes our relationship strained sometimes. If I hadn't kept assuming the worst every time he didn't call me or whatever, then we wouldn't have this little block. I'm trying really hard to trust him completely, but it does take time.
Try not to let your trust for him dwindle because it's a bitch to regain.

 

please keep my dad safe during his investigation


fucker you are such!

 

All I can do lately is think about death, and how I don't want to die before I can really live. At night, I stay awake because of it, and now I'm starting to feel more and more tired as the day goes on. I just wish I could shut off those thoughts, and accept that eventually, I will die, but right now, it doesn't concern me. But for some reason, I can't.

 

I'm seriously considering leaving the UK.