Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Good luck, Will

 

Best of luck to your father, Will.

 

Best of luck to your Pops, Will.

 

Good luck, Will.

 

Yeah, good luck to your dad, Will.

 

I'm going to Atlantic City tomorrow with my dad. My mom was hinting that she might want to come. I can't read minds and she wouldn't give me a definite answer. Since she doesn't like gambling and has a food allergy, I told her that maybe she should stay home because it would just be boring for her if she came. Of course she then twists that around and makes it seem like I don't want her to come. I do but she would have nothing to do. I was only looking out for her best interests that she would probably feel better by staying home. I hate this. I try to make things easy and it all just goes to shit. If I was in my mom's situation, I would stay home but nooooo...she has to make things difficult by acting stubborn. Whatever.

My grandfather recently passed away and that's been difficult in more ways than one. I've been away from the LPA for a week because of this. I'm the one who has been there for my mom when things get tough but I usually get in return is stubbornness and attitude. I can't take it anymore and I don't need this. I never win. Never.

and off topic, @Will: My sympathy for your father. I wish him well. <3

 

That's pretty tough Andrea. I know how you feel with your mom though. If I said that to my mom she would take it the wrong way as well. Hopefully everything looks up for you!

 

Best of wishes to you're dad, will.

 

Thanks, guys. He's okay for now.

 

Dad's gonna pick and up leave this joint for a week on Sunday and hasn't given me an explanation to why he's going and where's going...the last person who did that to me wound up in a car accident



Good luck as well, Will.

 

I'm sure he'll be okay and come back

 

My thoughts go out to all the people who lost their lives during the mutiny.

May they all rest in peace.

 

Good luck to your father will,
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So what is it about me that makes me unable to ignore. I hate it. Stupid me. Always the idiot.
also my dads headaches keep getting worse and the doctor keeps canceling the damn appointments.
it's so ridiculous.

 

On LPA? or...? Don't leave, if it's regarding LPA. We love you! <3

 

Im not sure about anything anymore, i feel like im in a tail spin. Nothing is making sense to me, i think i might have just reached my limit. I feel like leaving everything behind, just walking away from uni and my life here in Bristol. My so called friends, my name, my family everything. My uncle took the easy way out, i used to think that was the cowards way out, im not so sure anymore. I'm just very confused and i dont think i have anyone to turn to anymore, i feel completely cut off emotionally and physically from anyone. I just dont know anymore

 

Page 356 is officially the saddest page in the history of LPA.

Edit: I thought this was Random Thoughts. Damn.

 

I am so damn depressed lately.

 

Aww hunny everything will be ok. Everyone has an identity crisis at some point of their life. I've already have one that wsa triggered by my past with Daniel (my ex...not the LPA member, just to clarify it). You might not think that it's natural, but it is and you'll wake up some time in the future in forgot all about it.

Me? Well I'm okay I guess, Not brilliant and not utterly depressed. The doctors have taken me off my medication because it's causing other effects.