Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thanks sweetie, a hug from you means alot. <3

 

Hope you feel a lot better Marj
-----
I think he is that one that needs help. Not me.

 

I am not serving this detention!

 

Damn why am I so pissed at everything?

 

I really can't stand people, at all. I get along with hardly anyone, and it's a little disheartening, but I can't help being me. One little thing just sets me off.

I got in a fight with my best friend last week. I'm really not sure if I'm ever going to talk to him again. Hell, I'm not even sure if I want to. Ever since the summer I've been getting further and further from people. I've just been fighting and burning almost every bridge that I had. I came home Saturday morning from work and went to bed around 8 then got up around 3. I didn't eat any food, didn't say a word to anyone, didn't tell anyone where I was going, and I got in my car and left. I got gas and $100 and headed to my friends house.

I stayed there until 7 Sunday night and really only came home to watch the Cowboys/Giants game. Otherwise I would have stayed until they went to bed. All I did while I was there was hangout, watch old wrestling videos (so much fun), and then I stayed up all night and talked with his younger sister about all of my problems, and she shared hers as well. It was nice, and I think I found a new friend. I only got about an hour of sleep between that entire time. My mom called me, upset, but I only talked to her briefly because I just didn't want to talk to her. Nothing against her, I just didn't want to.

I watched the game and fell asleep soon after. I got up around 9 Monday morning and just spent most of the day in bed until my parents went to bed, then I spent the night on the computer listening to music. Now I'm sitting here waiting to go to my doctors appointment around 9:30 so he can tell me what we're going to do about my tendonitus. Then I'll come home, go to bed, wake up around 5 to go to work for two days, and then have off for two weeks for Christmas and New Year's.

I don't know what's wrong with me. My sister completely blew off the deal I was trying to put together for our family to resolve everything, so then I told her I wouldn't shed a tear if she died tomorrow, because I was doing this for mom, not me. I really don't like her, I was just trying to do the right thing, but forget it.

I really don't care what happens. I'm just going to try to earn as much money as I can and hope to God I don't get laid off in January. After that, I'm gonna try to start wrestling again, get in shape, and have fun with myself because wrestling is so fun, I don't know why I ever stopped, maybe it was to heal. We're going to purchase a ring for $2,000 and hold shows regularly, with people from Florida and New York joining in on the fun. I can't wait.

Otherwise, I don't need anyone.

 

Goddamn, I really am head over heels for her. I really should make a move, but it sucks she's a pretty close friend. Argh.

 

I hope my birthday party won't be spoiled by it.

 

Trip over after the show and make sure she falls on you?

[edit] Damn, I just fell off my chair, landing on my knees, and of course, since this is me, I just had to put the most pressure on my bad knee. It's already swollen up

 

I was gonna say "I'd expect that of you" as a reply to your comment before you edited it, but I didn't want to provoke anything. Seems like it didn't really help.

Poor, Mali.

 

i thought december was the time of good will and all that, ive just found out that my Aunite was run over at work yestarday, my friends mum has cancer and another friend of mine has SLE lupus. This month is crap

 

, Devilsnight. I hope that's all treatable. Best wishes.

--

Thanks, Yorick bahh. I think I pulled something. And I'd been on such a good streak! I hadn't ripped any ligaments in, in, in... a few months?

 

Aww, being careful just doesn't cut it, huh? At least, it's pretty endearing.

So that tactic you suggested to Daniel might actually be your lucky charm.

 

I really would like to know what it is I've done recently to constitute people stirring shit and causing drama with me all the time lately. It's like every couple of days someone I know wants to be awkward and argumentative, completely out of the blue.

 

Grah. Fuuuuck.


-sigh- Wish i had someone to cuddle in this cold weather.


Buurrr.

 

Hmm, that could work.

Ah, serious? I was going to say the same think as Yorick, but that wouldn't really help. Hope it gets better soon hon. UDH

 

Sincere hugs and/or beers to everyone. <3

 

so happy today i only got to take one test then go home