Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Rather fight over him, imo, Ask Kayla which is more important, your life-long friendship vs this boyfriend that might not last and has cheated on her.

or did you already ask?

 

At Maverik: She's kinda confused. And a moron, imo.

Mike, I'm glad that you talked to him. I don't think that it's fair that you're giving up your friendship for that ass hole, but it definitely makes you the better man. Maybe he'll see that and give you some leeway and realize that he was being a prick. I don't know if that will happen, but it would be nice. I do think that talking to him was a good thing. Lemme know what he says back. *hug* You were in my dream the other night, btw.

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So, Josh has been in a lot of pain recently, and he didn't know why. He found out yesterday that he has kidney stones. He's on perkisets (wicked spelled wrong but I have no idea and I don't care to look it up) and he's feeling pretty shitty. Hopefully the pain pills will help him to pass the stones without TOO much pain. Poor baby.

 

OH SHI-!

And no, I haven't asked. I really didn't have to. It's kind of difficult. She pleaded with him and gave him reasons on why she should still talk to me, but he still has an issue with it. She still wants to talk to me, but she basically blamed everything on me, saying if I would have just said hi to him the one day everything would have been alright. But I feel I don't have to do that if I don't want to, and I'm sticking with it.

On another issue though, I'm planning on trying to get my mom and sister and my dad and his mom (my grandmother) to talk again. They really haven't in like 3 years. I'm tired of seeing everyone angry about this crap, and if someone dies one of these days and doesn't egt the chance to make things better, they will regret it. I think I'm gonna write a letter to my sister, and try to get us all go to breakfast one morning.

See what happens. I'm hungry, so that's more important at the moment.

 

Mike: Yeah, I feel that you don't HAVE to greet anyone who you don't feel like. That's almost...conceded or pompous for him to be mad that you didn't say hi.

As for the family issues, I think that's pretty noble of you. It's important for families to be strong. Good luck with getting everyone together.

 

Ugh, I hate crying.

 

What's the matter, Penny?

Well it's pretty much resolved now. I did my buisness then got pretty fucked up last night. Was a great time and I'm already starting to forget, yaknow? If that's the way they're going to be then I have better things to do.

As far as the family thing goes, it's just been going on for too long. Coincidentally, I found my sisters Facebook and just got finished sending her a message, so we'll see what happens. Otherwise, my 7 days off has started pretty damn good. Hopefully it stays that way.

 

I totally know what you mean, expect that it's my friends who keep asking me to go out with them to clubs. I seriously hate those places and everything about them so I have to say no each time.

It sucks, because I'd like to spend time with them, but maybe at a concert or something like that...

 

I honestly feel like I'm five years old right now, and my parents just divorced. I'm not even sure if I believe in love right now, because the two people I looked up to that pretty much symbolized love in every way are not together anymore and never will be ever again.

It just baffles me. I know I might sound stupid, but you don't understand. I was so unbelievably close with both Drew and Jessie. Me and Drew will always remain close, because were brother and sister.. but Jessie, I can't say the same. I want it to be the same and have us all be one big happy family but yeah, that will never happen. She was like a sister to me, and I'm deathly afraid of losing that. Literally, I've known her since I was eight years old. Drew and Jessie have been together for almost 9 years and could have been 10 once they got married but NO for some crazy reason they don't love each other anymore.. and yes, that makes love a questionable thing for me now. I could better believe and atom bomb hitting Bradenton, FL than the two most unlikely people to ever split up, actually split up!

I respect my brother's decision.. I love him to death, but I'm confused right now because I.. I don't want this at all. But it's not my decision because it's definitely not my relationship.

And it baffles with me even more that he was OKAY with it. I wanted to shout "HOW AND THE FUCK CAN YOU BE OKAY WITH THIS?! THAT'S JESSIE!" but I just walked away from the webcam that he told the crappy news on and just went and my room and cried a little. I told you I sounded like I'm five. Seriously though, if you knew the situation you would probably feel the same. I feel like I'm losing family and I feel like I don't know what to think anymore.

I'll get over it, I just need to time to sit and think.. and I needed to rant.

 

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It's funny, how he's hot in a creepy sort of way. He has a creepy smile, and he really shouldn't be staring at other chicks when he has a girlfriend. And what was the point of coming up to P and I when we were sitting and having a nice convo? Eww, stop looking me over with your pretty, pretty creepy mint-green eyes.

 

Yay! My sister's boyfriend asked her to marry him last night and according to her it was very romantic. Now I wanna get married too lol.

 

Congrats to her! And as for you and Maxime, all in good time, Marjoleintje, all in good time, cherie.

 

I hung out with her every single day this week. Today will probably end that. =/

So much money spent. But it was worth every dollar, for every second.

 

I would give every ounce of myself to be somewhere else right now.

 

i know whatcha' mean.

and marj! I'm so glad for your sister! !

 

I know....I know.

Thanks! You too Mavy <3

 

No problem Marj. If it isn't alot, ask her to post pictures!!



If not, it's cool. eee!!

 

Congrats to Marj's sister! I'm jealous, .
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Ughhh, I feel so bad for Josh! Kidney stones are killing him. He stayed the night and he was in so much pain. He had a few tears running down the side of his face, asking that I please stay with him until he fell asleep. My honey.

 

That's great Which sister?

Kidney stones are terrible. I hope he gets treated soon.

 

Gefeliciteerd!

 

The property Deed comes next year.

And My dad and I are going to sign it, only.

I'll break bones and serve jail-time before I fucking let my stepmom sign her name on it.

And if she does, I hope my dad would fucking love working until my half sister is fucking 18, because I don't even see why I have to support them for a house that I FUCKING WONT OWN. My dad will be 71 when she's 18. I've fucking had it with her. She's not my fucking mom, she's not fucking going to own this house.

Fuck. Her.