Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

hell nah, we started talking only because i reminded her that we had a hw, she is friendly though.
she has a long time boyfriend and i dont like her at all, not a chance.

oh and trust me after seeing the girl i like again, her friend is like.... well idk what to even say. let's say the girl i like it's way better

 

I'm not trying to be an asshole, Johnny, but I'm just gonna call this as I see it.

If you keep chasing after one girl that hardly pays attention to you, you're not going to get anywhere at all with any woman for a very, very long time.

 

Sorry Johnny, but I've got to agree. How long has it been?

No offense intended dude.

 

There have been times in the past couple of days, where I've had major moodswings, with or without meds. Like for an example, I was about to get really violent with Daniel for constantly wanting to know what happened between me and Chris last night (barely anything) and times where I didn't want to be hugged and he kept pushing me. And another time I just broke down crying because I explained that I felt underappreciate for what I've been doing around the house. I think the meds aren't working now.

My best friend Heather came over today along with Wayne, another friend of mine from graphics, we sat there talking and laughing about various topics including anime, porn etc etc I was so happy that I got to catch up with Heather today.

I don't even think my psychologist is doing any good to be honest. I know it's part of my treatment, but in my own humble opinion, I don't see cause in that area. Trust me, I stopped taking my meds for two days once and I was a complete wreck, never want to go back there again.

I cooked dinner tonight....Enchildas. Really crappy ones outta the box cos I missed a step but I still got a 8/10 from Daniel for them.

 

, Mascara.

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Last weekend was one of the best I've had in a while, in far, far, far too long. HRC was hella fun, so was the assistant in the store there, it was a blast talking to him. Later on, when we went to Anya's we had fun, too. It was more the company that got us all happy and tipsy-like. I've not been out with friends, and just hung out, and had fun in so long. We even decided to start a band I don't know if that'll work out, but hey! We already have a name - Crazy Foreigners. That was a very, very amusing thought process. We decided that only crazy people and foreigners stroll along Arbat in the evening/at night, and since our little group was made up of two foreigners (Anya and I), and the rest of us were relatively crazy, that applied to us perfectly. xD.

On another note, duuude. He's a grade below. What am I thinking?

 

Fucking bull pussy. That's all everything is right now. I hate how I always feel obliged to pretend I'm happy when, in my own mind, I'm obviously not. Might as well accept that instead of trying to act noble about it. It'd be nice if I could feel good for more than about five consecutive days in one go, but everything just feels too fucking complicated to comprehend what to do next. I've just changed completely in that respect so far this year. It's affecting practically everything, and everything is affecting it. I'm pretty sure I've always tried to do my best whatever the circumstances, but yeah.

And, on a sidenote;

Fucking exactly. Unctuous twat.

 

So, the end of this month marks my 1-year anniversary with my boyfriend and he's coming down to see me on Halloween (distance sucks).

 

Distance does suck!

but

CONGRATZ!

 

Yeah, I didn't think we'd make it this far honestly. We've had some definite rough patches...
But here we are, and other than the distance, I'm happy.

 

awww. I hope for another wonderful year of being together.

 

I do, too.

 

Headache

 

Aww<3

 

I can't stand all of this waiting anymore. I feel like shit for just leeching off of my dad and not being able to do anything with my life. *sigh*

 

I feel the same but it's so hard for me to get a job right now...

 

I'd let you leech off me

 

I can't wait until I get a new cell phone number. I'm tired of random numbers calling me.

About a week ago some random number from Brooklyn called me and the other day some random number from Houston called me.

If I'd have answered the calls I'd have probably been billed a lot of money.

 

You guys get billed for answering calls?


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FUCK.

 

Poor poor people.


How they all turn face and little do they know, they know so little.

 

No, but with my luck, I would.