Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I can't wait to start work. It'll get me out of the house and I'll be earning money. It's not a million dollar an hour job but it's at least something, that's how I percieve it. I wish some other people would respect my job-type decision at times instead of bagging me out and calling me a McDonalds slut.

 

Is it weird, that no one seems to show interest in me, and I am okay with that?





No wait....{edits}


I want to be kissed.

 

Now now aisha.

I want to be kissed to. And that it just SEEMS that no one is interested in you




...hehe.

 

Whatever that means.


*admittedly a little confused*

 

I finally saw her this week, after 2 months since school started and 5 months overall.. monday i was sitting on the floor with 2 friends and talking to 2 proffesors (they were standing up) and in the middle of the conversation, she passes.. i was speechless sine this was the first time i saw her this semester and since may, well she had the cellphone and she always walks fast so i barely saw her but i'm pretty sure she saw me as well, it was very quick though. and OMG i forgot how freaking beatiful she really is. Then on wednesday i saw her, i was entering a building and she was leaving, i saw her alone for half a sec, when i realized it was her i was going to turn around and talk to her for once but in that same moment, i guy she knew said hi to her and then started talking. i think she saw me that time too, but again it was also very fast.

then on thursday i went to this building where she usually is, and at the same spot i found... not her but her friend, and we never talked before but we share a class together, i saw her there and told her that she didn't went to class the last time and that we had a homework ,i told her the homework and we talked for like 20 minutes and she also gave he her email, she is very nice.

Part of me wants to try my hardest, the other wants to forget she ever existed knowing that she's so out of my league.. god why is this so hard, idk what to do.

and OMFG i forgot how pretty she was, she gets better every single day.

 

It means that you just dont notice that people might be or are just eyeing you, ya' know?


And i also admitted that I miss kissing and stuff

 

Oh I see.




I haven't done any of it. Period.

 

Ever? :O



Well Hey Aisha, how's your day? I hear you enjoy smelling flowers?

 

Never.


I do like flowers, thanks.

 

I hope that cheer'd you up!

 

Well, this hurts.

 

Today was awesome.

 

That's positive to hear.

 

I hate myself sometimes.

 

I'm sorry

 

Its okay

 

So sorry. Love you.

 

I saw someone today that I haven't seen in a few years. He called my cell phone early this morning but I had it on silent so I didn't hear it. I went out shopping today and ran into him at the mall. Small world, I swear. I was so happy and shocked that I couldn't believe it was him. For today, and only today, the problems that I am facing diminished. If only I could turn back time and if only he was staying longer.

 

I'm really worried about him.. when I saw him last night he was a in a good mood, but when I left he was in a bad mood. Then I got a text saying he needed to talk to me when we were in private.

I hope he's okay.

I asked him if he was mad at me though for something and he said no.. then I asked him if it was something bad and he said no as well. *sigh* I'm frustrated..

I never saw him this down before.

 

Maybe it's something that you're not getting? maybe you have to look past the girl you've been chasing and realize what is in front of you? her friend seems to be the one who talks to you and is friendly and everything, try getting to know her better and see where things go?