Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thank you.

 

Just say you don't actually want to talk to me instead of signing in to MSN and starting a conversation, then breaking me off every time I say something even slightly disagreeable. I wouldn't care, but this on the other hand is pretty annoying. You're the one who's saying they want us to carry on being friends, AGAIN, so you make the effort. I don't even know why I'm giving you that and not just telling you to piss off.

Yep, I'm done with her. I just don't get why I didn't come to this conclusion back in July. Oh well. I'm 100% free again, haha.

 

We broke up unexpectedly, a few hours ago...
Feel like shit...it's the worst day of my life [so far of course]
How the hell am I gonna concentrate on my tomorrow's examinations? My mind is falling apart, my hands are shaking, my stomach aches, I feel..numb.

 

I know what you mean.

 

^
thanks! I know that many of you guys had been through similar situations...I need time to get used to it. :-/

 

Awwwww, hunny i'm so sorry .. Could a hug make you feel any better?

I KNOW!

 

=( Whaat?! Why?! It might be a Terrible day of your life but certainly not the worst. I'm sorry to hear that it hurts!!

How the hell are you going to concentrate? Well, I can't say how because a break up that hurts doesn't stop hurting by tommorow. What I can say by advise is that you should know that it isn't end of the world and that Failing tomrrow's exam, would severly harm and troublesome your near-future more than this relationship which you can work out eventually. I don't intend to sound mean or emotionless but take a breath and look at it in a different view.

It'll take time to feel better, but it'll take forever to not feel bad. You wont feel bad forever and once you figure out why, perhaps it'll you'll be better

ohh. I hope everything will be alright, LPA is here to listen, and as well as I! Your welcome to message me or talk on msn when you can!

 

lots of hugs xx

 

I'm so sorry Vasia.
An 8es na milhseis se kapoion, steile mnm edw h sto myspace.

 

Aww Vasia <333


Some guests really make you want to kill yourself, or at least, them. Like yesterday night, 2 british women came (oh yes, somehow it's only british people who are like that), they had a group of handicapped children, they were checking out today but they wanted to keep a room for the rest of the day. It's normal that you pay again if you want to keep a room for a complete day, plus, we weren't even sure if we'd have 1 room left cause helloooo, it's Friday. But no, they honestly thought that because these kids are handicapped they should get it for free. Yeah, I get it, being handicapped is not nice but to use it as an excuse?! Handicapped people don't have anymore rights than others. They were being total drama whores about it cause where could they ''change their diapers?!!" How about you should've booked an extra day instead of blindly trusting on the hotel to give you a free room, just like that because oh, you have handicapped children. What a sad excuse.

Some guests...vdlghdlgkhdlv

 

Vasiab hunny

 

I. fucking. need. her.

This is eating me up so much... Two years is way too long...

 

Aw sweetie. She sounds like a confusing bitch, haha. I'm glad that you kinda came to a conclusion though, that makes things easier. I think that your decision is right- getting her out of your life sounds like a positive thing for you.

Vasiab: Ack, I'm so sorry to hear that. I have experience with that kind of stuff, so you can always PM me if you want. Hang in there, hon.

 

Whatsup?

 

I love how I am sitting here in tears because my mom thinks I'm going nowhere with my life. She doesn't even have faith in me anymore. Every day is getting more difficult to deal with this. I have no solution and no one to turn to.

 

Ditto. Seriously Andrea, your mother is completely wrong. All of us here have faith in you.

 

I have been skipping my meds for a month now, and some days I am ok, and others not so much.

The idea of being dependent on drugs for the rest of my life bothers me. I know it shouldn't, because the alternative is just as bothersome, but the idea that a few little pills is all that really keeps me functioning on a normal level, its hard to deal with.

Like yesterday, had a argument with a friend over the phone while I was out on a field trip with my daughter's class. I came home and promptly scratched my arm from just above my elbow almost all the way to my wrist with my fingernails. I didn't draw blood this time, but usually I do. Nice way I deal with things. It was either that or I was going to slam my head against the wall.

I just wish I knew someone here that was going through the same things. Being bipolar without a support system is not alright.

I feel crazy. I constantly feel like I am just itching to get out of my own skin, like I don't belong in this body.

 

I hate hanging out with girls who have boyfriends. Not because I feel anything for them, but because of the way they act around me.

EDIT

..aaaand OMG. Fucking Madden 09 pisses me off so much! I was playing the Rams in the 3rd season of my Franchise and even though I was playing well, I wasn't scoring and found myself down 20-7 in the 2nd quarter. I came back to tie it at 27, scoring 17 4th-quarter points in 3 minutes after getting an onside kick. I didn't even get a chance on offense in overtime and the Rams went right down the field to kick a field goal. I wish the NFL's overtime rules were like NCAA's, so much better.

Anyone who plays ANY Madden game (Will, I know you do) will understand my frustratrion. After going 13-3 with a Super Bowl appearence in my first season and going 14-2 and losing the NFC Championship game to, oh my, the Rams, I now sit 1-2 after losing two close games.

Grrr. (Yes, I just ranted about a videogame)