Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

That. If anything, Will, you seem to have too much going for you.

 

I was almost going to say that, but decided against it. Oh well, you've done it for me lol.

 

Will: As Daniel and Dean said, you do have things going for you. I know that things in your life are moving slow with school, but that can all be worked out. You're a smart guy, and a real sweetheart.

And besides, you're coming to New York today, right? That'll give you something to....do....

 

Thanks.

 

I'm going to the beach with her on Saturday.

 

damn you Australians with your "perfect" weather

lol, just kiddin .. hope you have fun, man

 

It would be nice if all the aspects of my life would come together and I could be happy permanently but no, that cant happen.

 

Try to think positive...

 

Thanks

 

aww.

try, not to be happy, but content with what you have!

 

The beach part is pretty cool, but it's mostly the "her" I'm excited about.

Thanks though.

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Chris:

 

Thanks guys @Daniel:

 

I wish I had it in me to be an asshole to some people. It would make my life a whole lot more satisfying EDIT: I didn't realize I was the last one to post so excuse the double post

 

I've fallen hard and fast. And I think she has too.

 

I hit rock bottom tonight. I told Daniel how I really felt about him and that I'm still in love with him. I told him I stayed in Wagga because of him, I didn't know that until tonight. I cried myself senseless for about an hour telling myself that this couldn't be happening. He said he would love me if I started listening to him more. I've stopped taking my anti-depressants basically and I'm paying the emotional price for it. I can't sleep, which is a bummer because I have a job interview this afternoon. I just can't sleep. I laid next to him in his bed as he fell asleep hugging him, came out to the living room to sleep on the couch but my housemate and her bf took both couches tonight to sleep on. So I might have to go and sleep in her room. I said to him that there can't be anything that I can do or say to stop him going back to Brisbane. I just love him too much right now.

 

If I don't get this job I'm going to kill myself. Not really, but I will be extremely upset.

 

I really shouldn't let this bug me so much since I have no control over it anyway.

 

Is the girl who was also your friend for a while?

 

Oh my God I am so nervous. First job interview in like 8 months today. I swear I'm going to fuck it over and say something stupid. I am so tired as well didn't have a good night's sleep. Okay all I have to remember is that I've had sales experience (AIDA who contracted with Austar) and I've been in a take away job (I'm so thankful Wespoint Family Take Away shop is under new management I hated my old boss). Think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts. Ugh, and plus, it's on the other side of Wagga the interview and if I walk it's gonna be a good 45 minute walk. Listening to my happy band and their songs (Follow the Cops Back Home - Placebo). I sure fucking want that job to get me out of the house. I'm so fucking nervous and I don't know what to wear >.> I can't find my black and white business shirt so I'm most probs gonna go my Chinese Sunrise top with black pants and hopefully I can find my heels (once I get the job I'm gonna get those stelettos (sp?) I saw in the window the other day) >.> Ugh, my stuff is scattered across the house. Now the question is do I want my hair to be curly or straight? Fuck. I'm totally freaking out. I have regrowth amongst my dyed auburn hair should've done it yesterday. Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh. But should I wear my balck dress instead (as in I stole it off my sister because being the thinnest girl in the family does have its benefits) But who's funeral am I going to? Ugh again.



[End of rant]