Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Yesterday I wrote a poem. I think it may have been the greatest poem that I had ever written. But today, my mom let my little sister on my comp and she did something, something to do with my videocard drivers I think.. Anyway.. I think I'm going to have to format my PC.. And that is kind of depressing me.. I mean.. maybe it shouldn't but I just think the poem was good. Stupid thing to complain about buy yeah.. -sigh-

 

Dean, Facebook.

I just read your last post, Arlene. I'm terrible sorry. *hugs* My condolences to his family and loved ones.

And ...Dreams, you poor dear. That really is frustrating.

 

okaaaay, changed my mind .. wasn't kiddin !!

totally ..!

 

What is it, Louis, dear?

 

Why not? Go out and seek to see her

 

Something I can relate to. If you need to talk I'm on msn dude. Just holla.

 

http://www2.timesreview.com/NR/Stories/T081808_nasta_den

Doesn't do him much justice, but at least it's something.

And thank you, Mali.

 

Arlene, I just read about what happened and it's terrible Best wishes for all his family and friends.

 

So nothing good can come out of that text message I'm not her type she said and she explained why and it's all good right now I really liked her but ahwell, cant love everybody.

I'm really sorry to hear that Arlene. Best wishes

 

As safe and boring as my neighborhood is, some punk kids from the neighborhood over, whom a lot of people over here hate, threw 2 lighters at our computer room window last night. I heard something thrown but didn't know what it was because it was dark out. I went outside just now and found 2 lighters directly below the window. Oh boy. Not cool. If they were trying to set something on fire to damage our house, shit will fly and they better have a death wish.

I'm kinda scared now because what if I'm sleeping or away from the house and they actually do succeed in the act? I can't imagine losing our house, let alone it being set on fire, lol. This is absolutely crazy and very serious. What sucks even more is that we can't prove it's the kids from the next neighborhood. There's an inkling that's it's them. We have to catch them in the act. I believe my mom said she's going to wait until it's dark out, dress all in black and wait outside to see if they come back. If they do and they are caught, my mom will seriously own them. Assholes.

 

So.

It's... Over. At least.. at..least we're still close friends. And it's lonely, because there's space, and it's not a short amount.

A space between Me and My close friends. It feels cold too.

 

Thank you Jesse and Derek.

Apparently everyone I know from the Aerodrome has seen my post about Vinny, because if you google search his name, my post is the first hit. Everyone felt that what I wrote for him was 'beautiful' and really heartfelt. He was an amazing man.

 

So she randomly calls me at work last night, and I know why, too. It's pretty shady, but whatever, I'll be nice.

 

why am i not surprised? i didn't saw her and it left me with 3 options.

A) i didn't saw her because she wasn't in any of the places that i was today.
B) She was absent, a lot of people don't go on the first day.
C) She changed uni's

argh :angry:

 

I am making a promise to myself.

By my birthday (November 28th), I will be down to 150 pounds. I am currently at 162. This gives me from August 25th to November 28th to be in fit shape.

My goal is 125 by the end of the year.

I will be in enough shape to be a pin-up model and possibly pursue modeling with my friend Stacey, but not Suicide Girls.

I know I'm doing it for the wrong reasons, not for health, but for the vanity of glamour. But I've seen enough pictures of Dita Von Teese and Bettie Page to realize that they are my reason for losing weight.

Call me vain if you want, but it's my motivation.

 

she might well still be there, it was only the first day

But i worry a lot about the thought of her gone and not taking advantage when i had the chance, but i'm gonna hope she's still there.. she has to.