Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Oh, Marjhoney. Once again, I'll say that I understand you. I wish I'd had my own 'Maxime'. I hope your Maxime gives you all the love and warm feelings you need to get over this.

 

You're a darling.

 

I hate school and exams. What's the point of having an exam on stuff you learned all year that you have forgotten and they don't reteach it?!? Well I'm just glad it's over for a while.

 

I hate feeling like a victim all the time!

 

Yeah I fucking get it, I'm sixteen, but you know what, I have a good head on my shoulders and if I think something's not right, you know I'll call. It's not even the fact that its from 12-2 AM, it's the fact that you still won't let me do anything even though I'm going to fucking college. Sooner or later, I'm not going to be in Brockton anymore, I'm going to be in Salem, and you won't have that control over what time I'm hanging out. Cut the fucking umbilical cord already and let me live my fucking life. You've had such a stranglehold on me, you're even taking my one fucking day off of work, because I "can hang out on weekends." And then you bitch when no one hangs out. HERE'S A HINT, THEY'VE ALREADY MADE PLANS. That day off can be used for that and not doing your fucking housework every day.

LET ME LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE.

 

I just don't feel right today...

=(

 

I know this girl that really likes me. I don't really like her back though...and I feel REALLY bad. Idk if I led her on or something, I just can't be an asshole. I don't wanna tell her that I don't really like her. But I don't want to end up going out with her and then having to break up with her just like I did with my ex. I hated myself for that. UGH! Idk what to do!

 

I'm royally fucked for exams this year. I haven't started studying, and they start Wednesday, plus I've missed tones of classes. Shit.

 

If that teachers finds anything wrong with my assignment when I go into college today I will shove it where the sun doesn't shine -.-

 

today is a pretty odd day for me and my family.

5 years ago, my brother past away on his 13th birthday. today would have been his 18th. its going to be a tough one i guess..

 

Wow, so my life has basically gone down the shitter lately. Despite being almost 17, my parents still treat me like a fucking kid. Well, no, that's not completely true, they'll treat me like an adult when it suits them, citing my adult reponsibilities and such. But then when treating me like an adult would benefit me, such as going out, they do a complete 180 and treat me like a 2 year old. And then when they accuse me of doing something I didn't do, and I deny it, they take my fucking modem away. And on top of that, I'm completely in love with someone on another continent, who I can only speak to through the internet. Fuck. This.

 

I'm sowwy, Daniel. You can always talk to me for comfort!

 

I'm sorry hunnny.

 

I feel your wrath, cause the same happens to me. My mother is really overprotective with me. I am 14 and I feel like she thinks I'm 7 . And my school is also bulshit, cause almost every student from there drink, fuck, smoke, and even take drugs, and I feel like I don't belong there. I found a solution to end with my situation: leave my mother's house and move to my aunt's in another city. The problem is: even though I am beggining to hate my mother, I still worry for her unconciously, and if I move, I will surely hurt her. It is like the 3 Days Grace song "I hate (Everything About You)".

And also, I have 2 crushes with 2 girls I contact through internet. Fuuuck.:angry:

 

Oh shit I had no idea. Well I hope everything went okay today, I know how screwed up things like that can get. I hope everything goes okay.

@Daniel

Yeah I know exactly what you're on about. But it passes man, trust me when I say that. I'm 17 in 30 days and up until I actualy made a big decision in my life to quit sixth form, I'd been pushed around by my family constantly. But now my Mum has so much faith in my maturity that she's made me UK controls manager of her company. And about that other thing, I've got a girl living somewhere in Canada whom I havn't spoken to in almost a year whom I considered to be the love of my life. But these feelings pass over time.

Just hang in there man, things always get better.

 

Although this is not my business at all, but I think that if you leave your mother's house you will hurt her immensely. Maybe to you it seems like she's overprotective while she probably just wants the best for you, like you said, the students around you have a bad influence and maybe she knows that too.
I'm sure that in a few years you're gonna look back at this and think of her as a good and caring mom who only wanted to protect you because she loves you.
Seriously, try to be in her position and maybe you'll get another point of view.

 

My ex just got her forth boyfriend since me, and they are all my good friends. I'm not sure if she's trying to make me jealous or if it was a coincidence.

 

I just wanted to say thankyou so much to everyone for your support, it really means alot to me.

@Luke - well damn that's pretty freaking awesome, I sure wish my parents would do that . It's good to see I'm not the only one confused over someone in another continent. 13,000km difference makes long distance relationships a pain in the ass.

@Roubin - I can definitely feel where you're coming from, I turn 17 in just under two weeks, and they still treat me like an infant. What, do they think I'm going to go out and get myself pregnant? lol. Oh well, I get my full licence at the end of this month, at least I can have some fucking independence. And yeah, I've had similar feelings with that song too.

Eh, next year I'll be 18, at least then I can go to university and get the hell outta here. 'Til then I'll just have to deal with my house being a fascist state.

I wonder how much a phone call to her country costs...

 

@Daniel:



awww!, at least you'll turn 18 first than me, lol.
and trust me, you are not the only one with the whole continent thing.
Count me in...
I hope things get better with your parents tho'

... more hugs to Daniel !