Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

*rimshot*

 

I really should just go to the doctor.

 

2 days left

*faints*

 

3 for me

and I'm not fainting because I have someone special to see

I'm fainting from no sleep and lack of ready-ness.

 

My sleep schedule is so unbelievably ruined.

 

Summer: Wake 11pm, sleep 4-5 am.
School: Wake 6am, sleep 11am.

It's tough on my too

 

Summer: Wake 11pm, sleep 4-5 am.
School: Wake 6am, sleep 11am.

It's tough on me too

 

You know, If there's one thing that could induce the feeling of...warm, fuzzy, and loved. It'd be helping my friends through the tough times of their life.

 

I'm seeing Josh tomorrow! SQUEEEE!


Rachel: I talked to him about the piercing more yesterday. He did get it on top, but slightly off to the left. He wanted to see his pain tolerance, because his plan is to get one slightly off to the right, and I think he said two on top. He's insane. But yeah. I'm actually pretty afraid it's going to hurt me, or get caught or something. That would hurt like a bitch. Hmm. Guess I'll find that out eventually.

But again, I'm seeing Josh tomorrow!!!

 

I can't wait to get back on my dad's insurance.

The first thing I'm going to do is get my eyes checked. I've had these glasses since tenth grade (that's almost seven years now) and my eyes are worse off for it.

The next thing I'll do is have my wisdom teeth taken out. They're growing in the most horrible directions and are generally just ruining my mouth. And they hurt all the time.

And the last thing I'll do—possibly—is have my chest surgery again. We'll have to see.

 

So if anyone remembers, I think Arlene does, yesterday I was with that girl again whom I slept with (just sleeping and kissing). And nothing happened, but thats because she was sleeping with a girlfriend in her bed and not me, but even when we went out we didnt make out or something.

And I really like her, she's really cute and all that and I really hope that I could come over sometime just to be with her or something. I just came back, I saw her 1 hour ago. What should I do, should I text her that I want to see her again, or should I wait a couple days/weeks?

 

Don't wait for weeks.

Just text her, tell her you had a nice time and that you'd like to do it again! If you wait for days or weeks she might think you didn't enjoy it as much as that you actually did.

 

Thats true, but I went with one of my friends and she told him that I wasnt really her type but that she likes me as a friend. I should at least try it.

I know that a relationship cant work, and maybe I just want to be with her just to get that feeling of having a girlfriend when she isnt my girlfriend you know?

 

Yeah, just let her know you liked it. It's always nice to make new friends.

 

Well, I know for quite some time actually I know her from Spain last year, and then I slept with her which was really nice. I think she kinda knows that i like her because we had some moments when we just looked at eachother and just smiled for a long while.

But you're right, I'll text her that I liked it and maybe something good will come out of that

 

okay so there is this guy whom i like alot n i know that he likes me back .. but the thing is, he's too freakin shy to admit it n it's drivin me fuckin nuts ..!!!

*sigh*

 

I have the "you've successfully caught a Pokémon" tune stuck in my head for absolutely no reason at all.

 

so way to turn into your mom, you douchetruck.

september 16th is off.

there is no way in hell i can even get handfast to you again.

you're going to get fucking pissed because i need you to drive me to target to get something that my mom and i forgot to get after spending $250 on college shit?

and wow, my mom and stepdad are gone for the fucking weekend, and she asked me to get milk because i've been drinking it for my meds, you're going to throw a bitch fit because OMG MILK?!

it's called stop at fucking 7-11 when you drop me off and let me get some fucking milk.

but no, that's making too much sense. and god forbid you take me to see batman, which you've been promising me to see since we saw the commercials for it. but of course, now you don't wanna go take me because you saw it with sam and andy the week i was away WHEN YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULDN'T.

and i sit here and just keep making excuses for why you break plans with me, or why we get into fights over stupid shit.

but don't worry, i won't force you to drive me home on weekends. i'm getting a t pass so i don't have to make you drive. i won't make you help me move all of my shit up from the basement when i'm lightheaded from my medications. i'll move all my shit into my dorm by myself, even though we don't have the car space for it.

i'm sorry that you can't go to wrestling school and that you miss brittany, but for fucks sake don't fucking take it out on me like you have been for the past fucking 2 years.

so go off and mope and bitch and whine like you do whenever we get into a fight. i've got too much going on to handle this bullshit.

i am legit 3 seconds from taking the diamond you gave me and tossing it down a drain pipe.

 

Michael Phelps is my new hero.

Like, I'm being completely serious, too. He's incredible.

Once this new sports facility gets built across the street, I'm going to spend all my free time over there working out and getting into shape.

He's inspired me...