Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

When I first saw Melodi, the lovely girl I'm dating, and a few weeks after I met her, and we started going out. It was like heaven, to her, it was heaven.


Now, I dunno but I've messed up, the relationship has gone awry and..well, i know she isnt happy with me anymore. We got into an arguement and...well, we've gotten into 2, and now..As it nears our 5 month, she wont say "nights <3" or "ttyl <3" anymore, or it's just that she wont say, she just hasn't been for reasons unknown to I.


I miss her alot. I miss how we used to be. I miss just being with her, even if it is smiling and looking at her eyes or just adoring her. It's like imma zombie because she just gasps my eyes and heart away, my brain to water.

And it's like...painful not seeing her because she's busy, and ect. We have plans to hang out this week..but, it might get busier and we might not have a chance to see eachother until school starts, which sucks because we'll both be very busy.

I feel like I broke her heart pretty much. She used to come to be feeling bad, and I'd have it end up with her sleeping so much happier. One night, she came to be feeling bad, and went to bed feeling like shit. and.. what have I done? How could I? ><

 

I know exactly what you mean.

 

That's how things were the last four or five weeks of my last relationship. It absolutely is the worst feeling in the world.

All you can do is talk to her about it and see what happens.

@maverick68
I'll tell you the same thing. All you've got to do is talk to her about it and find out what's going on.

 

I've learned from lurking around this thread ( hehe...) that Talking about things and communicating, Works. So i've been. Today she called, well, tonight.

In a nutshell. Her family home is a wreck. She and her mom wants to fix things up. Right now, she's taking summer classes and her baby cousins are over. She's been busy because of those two things. After they leave, it'll be up to her and her family to fix things, and she needs to be with her family alot more too. I think so, the way things are. It'd be better to her to fix things, so she wont be upset at home.

Which in-turn, would and does take up TONS of time. She'll hardly have anytime to talk to me, aside once-in-awhile-email/phonecall/textmessage. It's been hurting for so long. And Not being able to talk to her so much and for maybe several months or a few years just hurts. Hurts to know that we'll wont be talking so much.

In all, I do, I do Love her. And i know what I posted earlier doesn't relate to this that much, but it changed when she called tonight.

I love you. Melodi, don't...forget that my bananapanda, or whatever the fruitypanda/animal pet names, I call you by~

Wow, I just noticed how drastic the change is. what I said yesterday feels like nothing compared to today.

 

Yes! Time to be a supermember!

You need to talk to her. Don't worry. Everything will be fine again.

 

I hope so, Thank you. =)

 

No need to thank me, hun! I'm sure everything's gonna be fine. Don't be sad.

 

I'll try not to be =D

 

Good! You're smiling!

 

Because I'm trying on my optimism in this depressing matter.


lulz ;_;

 

15 days!!!

 

I don't understand why he isn't contacting me.

Yes, his phone is dead, but he has email. I've emailed him, but he hasn't responded. I haven't talked to/seen him since last Saturday. Plus he said his hours were getting cut, so wouldn't he have more time? To try to come and see me? I know he's busy but come ON. This is ridiculous. He doesn't have 5 minutes in his day to check his email and get back to me? To let me know that everything is okay? I'm beyond frustrated and I don't know what's going on.

He pushed so hard to make me believe him that he's being honest with me about everything, and then he kind of disappears. If he needed space, then please, let me know, and I'll give it, don't force it and leave me hanging out wondering what the hell is going on. He seemed beyond happy when I saw him last time, so I don't think that he needs space, but if he does, just TELL me. Ugh.

 

My dad's been in the hospital since yesterday morning.

He's been complaining about pain in his abdomen for a while now but it got to the point yesterday where he couldn't take it anymore.

The doctors don't know what's wrong but they're not letting him eat or drink.

For Christ's sake.

 

They don't let him drink...?

Well, I really hope they're gonna find out what's wrong and that your dad will be better soon. Cheer up baby.

 

Hope your Dad's okay, Will.

 

Best of luck to your father, Will. <3

 

Hope your dad is ok Will...

 

I hate it that my mom is such a fucking cheap ass. My birthday is coming up right? And I want to keep it when I'm in Holland next week, and she's like: 'You're always buying your own ticket and it's not fair because we want to see you guys as well ofcourse, so why don't I pay it for you this time...as a gift for your birthday.' Fuck off. It shouldn't be a gift to see your own family, it's something you should both pay for. She's always trying to weasel out of everything, even when I was little and I'd ask for new shoes, she'd be like: 'Wait a few months, it'll be your birthday then.' Such a fucking mean thing to do. While last week she bought herself this service tray of €95 euros.

So selfish. How would she feel that everytime I'd come to Holland I'd be all like: 'Hey, I'm here! It's a gift for your birthday.' I hate it so much. I'm definitely gonna tell her next week.

 

That sucks...

 

Thanks

I phoned her, I just told everything and I think she got the message. Well, we made it up. Let's see how next week goes.