Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I just wish it were that simple, Louis baby.

 

Technology shouldn't be allowed to exist when I'm drunk. I do really stupid shit.

 

I really mean this in the nicest way possible and also, if you don't mind me asking; why don't you stay away from alcohol? don't you have any willpower?

 

I could've worded what I said a lot better. I get overconfident when I'm drunk, so I tend to say and do things I normally wouldn't say or do otherwise.

Last night after I got home, I decided to tell some girl I wish she'd give me a chance to prove to her I'd be worth her time and all this other crap. I'd have never said that sober.

I choose to drink when I'm with my friends because it makes for a good time. I don't need to, and I only drink every so often, so it's not really a problem in that sense.

 

We can have alcohol without any fun! Oh...wait...it's the other way around, isn't it.

I know what you mean...sadly...had quite a few...'ugh' situations over the past few weeks

 

UGH. So after ALL of this, I still want to be with him?



AISHA ATAKA WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

 

I have GOT to get out of my parents house.

Srsly.

I need to find a semi-high paying job (riiight), beef up my driving skills, find a decent apartment (or something along those lines) and get the hell out of my parents house. I cannot stand it anymore. I am tired of my mom hounding me, nagging me and treating me like I have no common sense. I have a lot of knowledge and I don't like being treated like I don't have a mind of my own. It's insulting. I want to move out and live by my rules. Do things my way and not answer to anyone. I'm quite capable of surviving on my own. I just have to get some things straight (job, driving) and then...just...do it.

I love my mom but she drives me up a wall.

 

Ooh, like that. Yes, that must be awkward.

 

God, I miss her. And it looks like things are getting worse in the next couple of weeks too.

 

We're done, on account of an argument we had on Friday. I'm relieved. Kind of disapointed, but relieved. Shame it didn't happen more amicably but yeah.

edit: Just as I post that she comes online and asks me again. God hates me, haha.

This is fucking annoying. She never listens if I try to be reasonable to her. She just twists everything I say so that she can get all melodramatic over it. I'm fucking sick of her as of this conversation.

 

No one ever really leaves... I will name my band N.E.R.L.

 

It's his birthday today and i don't know what to buy for him...

 

what does he like?

 

Music... He's a musician...

 

music instruments, music books, music cd's etc etc

 

Louis, honey, I think for you to start feeling happier, you need to start thinking happier. It sounds stupid, but where your mind is set is very important. If you're thinking gloomy thoughts or that everything sucks, you're going to be stuck in those kinds of thoughts. I know things really suck for you right now, and that it's hard to think optimistically when things suck, but trying to think happier really does help.

With Rachel, I don't think it's a personal thing against you that she doesn't like public displays of affection. Just seems that she's worried about what people will think, that she's a hussy, or something like that. I think that you just need to try to work with that about her. You can't change people, I don't think. Just try to deal with what makes her comfortable. Just tell her that you love her, and give her her room. Let her initiate the hand-holding or the kissing. But also make sure that you don't close off on her. Don't make it seem like you don't want to touch her or whatever. A lot of times with my boyfriend, words or actions aren't necessary. It sounds lame, I know. But just looking at someone, eye contact, really says a lot. Or even just small actions. Like brushing her cheek with your hand, or tucking her hair behind her ear. Little things like that make me "floaty." I understand that you're somewhere or something so that you can't see her right now? That does suck...but it always makes meeting up so much better.

I feel that if you can deal with things with Rachel, that you'll feel better in general. I hope that maybe some of the things I told you can help you out. I know that's a big jumbled mess of stuff, but just try to work with how she is about public displays of affection.

Good luck sweetheart, I'm always around if you need someone to talk to. <3

Penny: I wouldn't worry too much about getting something extravagant. I know that Josh doesn't expect anything, but I always get something small. Just so they know that you're thinking about them. For his birthday, I didn't give him anything because my parents didn't know about him yet and I didn't see him all the time, but for Christmas I gave him a dogtag necklace that had the Japanese symbol for love on it (he's into that stuff) with an engraving on the back. Kinda too late for something like that, but they never really want something extravagant I find.