Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Shit " This is messed up, babe.

 

Mine hasn't talked to me since the 1st of July....

 

What's going on?

I'm just upset that he hasn't talked to me because we're having a really rough patch and that kinda makes it worse, ya know?

 

mhm i understand...but in moments like these i guess it's best to talk things out...which in your case is the main problem....maybe you should wait until he decides to call..men....they're really simple creatures on the outside but you can never guess what they're thinking...but one thing is for sure, they like their alone time...

my problem is really complicated and he's not to blame cause i'm so emotional and create different kind of messes.....i so wish i can talk with someone about it...with someone who has been through such a thing and can help me clear my mind...

 

Yeah, I'm waiting for him to call me back. I'm kinda freaking out.

And I know what you mean, I tend to be very emotional as well. I'm always around if you need someone to talk to.

 

thanks....i'll keep it in mind...but i guess i'm just really tired and i'm overreacting about all of this...it's been a really rough start of the month with all my college exams and all...
i just miss him you know....i just want to hear if he's ok....

 

Yeah I definitely hear ya. A lot of times I'm wondering if I'm overreacting, but it's hard to know for sure. Good luck. <3 You have no way of contacting him?

 

Haven't spoken to my mother in a few months now. She was meant to call me back the week after we last spoke and she didn't. I'm really suprised she hasn't tried to contact me this week seeing as it would be my brother's 15th Birthday tomorrow

Not really looking forward to tomorrow and Saturday. Tomorrow is his birthday, but my mate Jake has said he'll spend it with me and help me with my tradition of a cupcake with a candle and wish him happy birthday. On Saturday I will be visiting his grave for the first time in 12 or 13 years, it will be hard I know, but my mates have said that they will keep me in their thoughts.

I think I'll write a letter to vent out and do a drawing as I always do these days when I have things on my mind

 

We're here for you aswell deary.

@Mali- Yeah =|

 

I would like to thank the people, who said that they will be there to support me, no matter what choices I make. Thank you. Thank you so much for not being there. You have no idea what you've done to me. Thank you for crushing my hopes and dreams.

Fuck you. And I mean that.

 

What the hell? So I see these new love mails. I have had it.


I sent him a mail saying I dont want to be with him. That's it.

 

So, Josh's phone finally shit out on him. He can use it for alarms and time. It was slowly going...a few weeks ago it started acting up, he couldn't close it because it froze up on him, he had to take out the battery and put it back in. Now, it just completely froze up, and none of the buttons work. He emailed me, which was nice. And he seems thoroughly displeased and sorry that he can't talk to me.

And he can't afford a new phone right now.

 

EDIT- I was nice in this post, but fuck it, you're being a fucking prick, so I'm gonna be a cunt right back to you.

Fuck you if you're gonna think that shipping off to PA for fucking wrestling school is gonna be the answer to all of your dreams. You can't have both. You can't have your friends and family and your girlfriend here, and have your job and dream in PA. IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK.

So you have to decide. You can go to a school here and piss off Matt, or you can go to school in PA and piss off me, Matt, Sam, Andy and anyone else you talk to for that matter.

For fucks sake, what would Brittany say?

She'd be pissed at you for leaving.

And if I'm a "whore" for telling you that it might not fucking work, then fuck you. And if you don't need me that fucking much, take the fucking diamond back. I've supported you and helped you and told you to follow your dreams for about 3 FUCKING YEARS NOW, and this is the thanks I get? For disagreeing with you on one thing, and being called a whore and to fuck off?

Then fine. Go off to PA. Go find some ugly little bitch to fuck, and have fun wrestling. I'm going to college and I'm on the Dean's List, and goddamnit, I'm going to make something of myself that doesn't include being called that what I do is a joke. Imagine that. Your kids are gonna know that wrestling is fake, and that in turn, Daddy is a fake.

Is that really what you want? If so, later. I don't want any part of it.

 

I hate this.

I kick myself in the ass every single day. I had my opprotunity many times years ago and I passed them up and I wish I hadn't or I just might have her today.

Damnit.

 

I know how you feel, and maybe you are tired of the same crap that people say to you about that all the tine, but remember, you learned from your mistake and you're not gonna do it again. Take that as a lesson and you'll be fine.

 

She sent me a message asking if I genuinely loved her.

I said yes.

I don't think I do though. I've made a huge mistake.

 

Wow. Awkward. Shit, Dean.

 

Mike, sweetie, are you okay? I'm sorry that you're feeling this way.... Anything I can do, let me know. <3

Dean: Hmmm, indeed, awkward. I don't know what to tell you...tell her, maybe, that you aren't sure, that you're confused...but that sounds so lame. Well...I'm sure you'll do the right thing. But remember that you need to do it for you.

 

I didn't actually realise until now that I was practically quoting Gob from Arrested Development in my first post on the matter, ahaha. How fitting.

I don't have to see her today, so I have time to think, I guess. Thanks for everyone's concern.

*rides off on a segway*