Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I feel you...

 

Ive got that with my ex-girlfriend, but we had a clean breakup(that is, after one day of her freaking out at me).

 

I want to tell my mom I love her, but I don't know how.

 

I love her so much I'm getting flutterness in my chest.

 

i know it is hard to let go of a loved one and see the after affects. my aunt died of cancer a while back. she struggled for 5yrs with it. and it just pulled our family closer, but when she died, we all drifted away from each other. my mom was depressed all the time and so was I. the only thing i can say to you is that you will eventually accept that she is gone and learn how fucked up life is and everyone dies eventually. just think you will hopefully see her in the afterlife, just count on that. i don't have much advice for you except to keep doing what you are doing and don't give up. there isn't much you can say when someone dies, it is just something that heals over time. much love for you in these hard times.....

 

I need to get some better excuses.

 

I know you posted this a few days ago, but I was just reading back in posts and I saw yours and i just wanted to offer you a hug and my condolences. Fighting with parents/parents fighting is the worst and is so hard to deal with. And no, don't be ashamed for crying, it's normal and everyone does it...I mean that sounds kinda lame but it's true. I guess I want to say, good luck, I guess, and I don't know you, but don't be ashamed of who you are.

 

On my youtube, a guy that I know from school posted a comment on my profile that I cannot repeat, but it scares me. I just hope that somebody got his password, and that its not actually him posting that shit. His profile description scares me because its not just some random guy who got his password, its somebody who knows him. That is, if somebody even did steal his pass, if not, that means its actually him, and thats even scarier.

 

See here, I have some problems.

I broke up with my boyfriend some where in Feb and after that we became really close friends. But then we had a fight (of a sort) and then I tried for both of us to get on friendly terms again, and he did for a little while and now we completely ignore each other.
And I may still like him. While he sort of really hates me. Why wouldn’t he? I’m the girl who broke his heart.

Then one of my “best” friends got really close to him. And some of my friends don’t talk to him much after what happened between us two, but they both cling to each other. And, I am a bit jealous. I am so jealous that I left for my place when he tried her glasses on and had a good laugh with her. It just bugs me, but my friend Sila said “Aisha, he’s doesn’t care about you anymore and it’s high time you should too”.
But I can’t, not yet. And it’s unfair because back then when we were together he really really liked me, but I never gave him a chance. It’s too late now.

Secondly, I find myself completely over with religion. I don’t want to pray. I really don’t care. And maybe I’ll become religious sometime, just not now. I know religion is good and all. But, I’m a bit agnostic now. Maybe just a little bit.


And I don’t think I will get great marks in my papers I’ve just given. Everyone said “Wasn’t the paper just awesome? I had so much fun doing it!” and I just say “yeah… it was great”.
No, not really. Not really at all.


So my life kind of sucks.

 

Well here's what i think if you still like him then you should fight for him to the end, try to talk to him and see what happens maybe he's ignoring you because sometimes we do that to try and heal our hearts but that doesn't mean that he doesn't have any feelings for you. I guess maybe he's spending too much time with your friend just to stop thinking about you or something the thing is you will never know if you'll get another chance with him if you don't try.When your friend told you that he doesn't care maybe he lied to her about that or maybe it's the truth. maybe he doesn't care about you at all if thats the case then you should forget about him as well because there's no point of fighting for him if he doesn't want anything, good luck Aisha

 

it was my friend screwing around. lol i guess.

 

Just got back from a 'date' to see Knocked Up...

I'm feeling elated.

 

I don't like her. She's so manipulative.

 

....

Ah fuck it.

 

?

 

I hate him. Will I ever be his friend again? Uh. No.

 

the last time i had so much free time to actually be competative in RT was the last time my life went down the toilet and i think its happening again...its the same every holiday season....i must be the only person on here who hates holidays...

 

I don't like holidays either. I always want to be busy cause I'm impatient.
But why do you think your life is going down the toilet?


At this moment I'm a little afraid, and I miss my home in Holland so so much. I'm afraid that I'm gonna fail miserably with the language, work and the social stuff. People here are a bit selfish...when i ask them to talk a bit slower, they do talk slower...for 10 seconds and then it's jsfkdhkuiry, in my ears it sounds like a really long word. I'm ripped between my own country and my boyfriend. When I go back to Holland, it hurts because I can't see him everyday. If I stay here it hurts aswell. I hate trying to fit in, I hate it so much.

 

I get you, minus the boyfriend thing

 

you're sweet <3