Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Damnit man...

So I learned how to play With You by Chris Brown on guitar for my friend Stephen's Valentine's Day music video he made.

And now people are calling me wanting me to play this or that for their videos.

For one, DAMN, be original.

And two, DAMN, I can't learn that many songs in the period of a few hours before Valentine's!

 

My parents are arguing again, they do it every single day. My mom has a high temper. A very high temper as in she throws stuff around/cures/yells. I love my parents but I think they do need to go ahead with a divorce, the only reason not to is because of my 6 year old sister. They keep growing to hate each other more with every week. I mean, the reason they're arguing this time sis so stupid. Over who payed more for a Valentines day gift. I mean does it matter? Is it really about money. That's one of the reasons I hate this day so much, everyone thinks it's so materialistic. It's bullshit. The reason they argue is bullshit. I'm so fucking tired of it.

 

Parents will always find the stupidest crap to argue about if they're in the mood to.

If it's gotten to the point where things are being thrown, I think it would be better for your 6-year old sister if they got divorced rather than have her live in that kind of environment.

I wish the best for ya dude.
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Damnit.

As much as I tried, I can't get over the fact that it's Valentine's Day and I'm fucking single.

I tried. I tried. I tried. But then I realized I really like this girl and now it's gone to utter shit.

 

Thanks man I appreciate it.

 

I had the greatest Valentine's day ever. I am so lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend. We are really meant to be. We fit so well!

I've never had so much sex in my life! XD


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Well I think I was too hard on Jen. As horrible as it is that this happened, it's my brother's fault he's dead. Others may have played a part, but no one wanted this to happen.

And as much as I want everyone else I hurt as much as me that had a part to play in his death, I know now that Karma will get them back. I shouldn't fuck up my karma for assholes that have much worse coming for them.

I really appreciate all of your comments, everyone. It helps me get through far more than any counselor.

Just the fact that it happened is so hard.... sigh.

Maybe I'll try to increase my psychic ability and try to talk to him. lawl.

 

Well. It's nice to know that, once again, I'm not even worth the fucking level of respect and dignity it takes to finish a fucking date. Really, really nice to know where I stand in this fucking world.

Oh yeah, first time I've ever had a date for Valentine's day. I go pick her up. We go to dinner. She takes about ten bites of her meal, then says she has to go to the washroom... and leaves. I sit there with the food getting cold for half an hour, looking like a fucking moron, surrounded by happy couples as I cry my fucking eyes out... pay the fucking 80 bucks that just cost me (I'll never see THAT again), and leave...cry all the way home, and fucking cry myself to sleep. And this morning I feel even worse.

It's so fucking nice to know that being a nice guy, and never doing any of the terrible things that other guys do gets me SO FUCKING FAR in life. In fact, it got me a nice 15 minute conversation about how great her fucking ex is even though he cheated on her six times, and how they still have strong feelings for each other, and blah blah blah blah blah FUCKING KILL ME AND END THIS SHIT. I'VE HAD IT. ENOUGH.

I can't sleep. I can barely fucking BREATHE right now. And you know what? I'm not in the LEAST bit surprised that this happened. This is all I've ever known.

I'm not worth a fucking cent. Not a thing.

Fuck this.

 

Women aren't worth it, dude. As discouraged as you are right now, the right one will come along sooner or later. You've just got to relax and give it time. You're a young dude and you've got a lot ahead of you.

 

I am finally at peace. I am so happy.

 

Mate, I can't even imagine how depressing a slap in the face like that is. See, I've never managed to get a girl out with me in the first place, so I really don't know.
But what I do know, is that it's her that ain't worth a cent. Any girl thats selfish enough to walk out, without an explanation, or without expressing some kind of appreciation at you spending that money on her, well, she's the one that ain't worth a cent.

 

I lost my virginity on Valentine's Day to a guy I really like and been together with for a week.

I don't regret it, which is great.

 

Wow. That's harsh. I know it's a cliche but, trust me, I know exactly how you feel. You'll probably be down for a while longer but... just don't. Things will get better, if not permanently then for long enough to keep you going.

 

I do the same thing whenever I feel down or pissed. Just calm down, go to my bed and sleep it off for a couple hours. 99.5% of the time, I feel alot calmer when I wake up.

 

The other .5% needs a human sacrifice?

 

Good for you! <3

 

Yeah, mostly.

 

I feel really euphoric, for some reason. I have for the past couple of days now.

I need something to go wrong as soon as possible, preferably involving a girl. This feels too weird, seriously.

 

I want this exam period to end right now!!!....I feel soooo tired!

 

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