i think i cut myself once, but then with my nails I was angry, so i scratched myself, just as long untill it started to bleed. Now, when im angry, i start screaming like im Chester or i'll smash my teddy-bear against the wall
I do both cut and burn, or well did... I did alot of crazy #### the first time I cut my self was in school with the metal part of a eraser... and then I moved to razors and ####. I did my arms, wrists, neck, ect. I burned my self with lighters and #### I even got into a game where you put your arm up with someone elses and drop a cigarette in the middle and see who can last longer, I never lost... I have so many scars from the #### I use to do, I hate that I did it, but you know it made the pain of my life go away...
dude... but you gave it up right? i mean emotionless... im not sure if im doing the quotes thing correctly... but anyway... you can get medicines for depression. i dunno why im saying it, since all of you people probably know. i just want to help. i hope it gets better for you. chris - cut with your NAILS? man talk about having nails... how can you go down so deep to make a cut with your nails? thats original. but its cool youre using a teddy now... hah...
noo! not like that not that i grab my finger and cut myself in the arm I scratch myself for 5minutes.
ive done it once well one time that its bled im usually scared of blood and now i think how can i do that but when i did it, it didnt bother me at all i dont want to do it again but who knows what the future holds..
so when they are horizontal u just do it for attention.... right i have cut myself. but i haven't cut in 2 and a half months now, and im getting help. i'm just stupid that it had to go like this. but for those who hurt themselves, i can not say you may not do it. but try and believe the people who say that 'someday things will be ok'. then you still have the scars to look at every day, and that is probably not that nice. im sorry if this sounds really dumb... im not good at this, i know it isn't easy to stop... i'm sorry
I don't mean to be offensive, mean or whatever here, but... ius there really anyone on LP who isn't suicidal, extra-depressed or cutting themselves? Just wondering. :wth:
Don't be sorry evil willow. I'm sure people would appreciate the thought you're trying to display in your post. It is hard, everyone who suffers knows that as a fact. And you're absolutely right, times do get better.
I used to struggle with a combination of brusing/cutting/burning It got so bad that one time i broke my arm intentionally
I'm not...but it seems like alot of people are. There are a million threads like this on the LPUMB, and LPMB. I thought I could escape them here but now they're popping up here too
i dont mean to sound rude now... but if it bothers you... just dont go on to these forums. not in a rude way im just giving solutions. we dont want to make other people whatsit... depressed. we're just discussing our problems. not in a bitchy way, guys. sorry.
I've been battling self-mutilation for the past 2 years of my life. When I was 13, I went out with a guy who I figured would stick with me through thick and thin. Being with this guy began to affect my grades and my social life. He was a huge influence on me, but I was too blind to see it. I figured it was normal. He finally dumped me over MSN in April (but not before telling everyone on-line what his intentions were first). We had been together for only 3 months and when he asked if we could just be friends, I came undone. I thought it was the end of me, so I turned to cutting. I had read an article about cutting and DSH (Deliberate Self Harm) and I figured I would give it a shot. I slashed the tips of my finger with a razor. That first time I nearly passed out. It had given me such a rush, a pain to focus rather than the agony my ex-boyfriend had confined me to. I told a couple girlfriends about this new habit of mine. They all freaked and one in particular told her mother in fear I could seriously hurt myself. The mom informed the principal and he kept a close eye on me. Checking up on me every couple of weeks. Unfortunately, since the principal had this information he knew it was best that my mom was notified. I never wanted my parents involved, when my mom heard the news, she cried. She was at a loss on how to handle the situation, as was I. In early June, I got back together with my ex-boyfriend. I thought we could really make it work this time. We failed to make things work again. The second time I was dating him I was stabbing and scratching myself with insulin needles. This lasted a month as my mom found a needle in my purse. I tried to commit suicide on an end of the year trip to Wonderland. I tried to overdose on medication. I got through that summer safely, as far as I can remember. I began my transition from elementary school to high school in September. I adapted well on the outside, but the inside was a little different. I cut during the first few months of high school but moved onto smoking as a replacement. It did the job, but I would still cut myself the odd time. I was determined when I started high school I would find another guy to fawn over. Someone who could love me for me. I had a crush from English class in Gr. 9 and when I found out he liked 3 girls and I wasn't one of them I cut myself deeply, 3 times (one cut for each girl that wasn't me) I also began to carve drawings into my skin with safety pins. Cutting became a pattern and the whole idea felt sane to me. I began going out with Neil in June when I was 14. I quit smoking for him and I told him all about my cutting. He stood by me and told me he'd do anything to help me through it. He wasn't home in August for a month. I had given up cutting for a couple of months. In August I began carving drawings into my skin again. That habit has stayed with me through Gr. 10. I used to have the word, numb scratched into my forearm. I used to get alot of questions about that one. Why the word numb? Why would you do that to your body? How come you burned yourself? (I did not burn it, I mearly dug into my arm with a safety pin) My self-mutilation was getting out of hand. I couldn't stop for Neil, no matter how hard I wanted to. My mom believed my depression and cutting habits were a phase. A week before Christmas, I tried to commit suicide once again. I slashed my entire body with a razor and took 5 of my mom's sleeping pills. The cold I felt when I was lying ontop of the sheets of my bed was almost surreal. Neil was so upset. He knew if I had taken one more pill, I probably wouldn't have lived to tell about it. I had contacted a free counseling service in October with still no reply come January. I finally had a confrontation with my mom. I showed her my scars and my most recents cuts (an 'x' on my right hand and a gash on my right hip) She got the message and scheduled an appointment for me with a doctor. I visited that doctor about once every week. She listened and suggested options on how I could avoid harming myself. I knew she could only do so much. The rest I had to apply to myself to see it take an effect. Although I have seen a doctor, I continue to threaten suicide and cut. This past Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I cut myself. Wednesday I was having an anxiety attack on the bus ride home and I picked at my right wrist with a safety pin. That ride home was extremely overwhelming, in my head it felt as though everyone was counting on me to make the right decision. Thursday, in my Careers class I scraped the side of my right wrist with a bobby pin. And Friday I slashed my right wrist with a razor before I went to school. Probably the worst part of Friday was the fact I was in such a good mood before I cut myself. I only wanted to cut my wrist because I liked the idea of having the marks and the rush when I used the razor. Almost as though it was necessary of me, cutting's my routine. I've most likely cut, slash, scratch and torn every inch of my body (except for my neck) If anyone on this forums has thought of cutting their bodies as an option of a way out, don't act upon it. If you do it for long enough, it becomes something you cannot control on your own. Or even with the help of doctors and counselors. You have to find the motivation inside you to make ends meet. This Wednesday I'm meeting with my very own counselor. I guess I'll have to see how things work out. PS- If anyone feels like they need someone to talk to about self-mutilation, I'm here. Don't hesistate, you have nothing to lose.
I've never cut myself I don't even know why people do it. How is it gonna rid you from the pain? I've always think of suicide but not that I want to do it. I just think of what would happen if I do it. Oh and I have to be depressed like maybe once a week but I guess thats normal. I was really depressed last year just because of my parents divorce. But now i'm over it, I realized that all of this isn't worth my life. Theres things I wanna do before I die. I wanna get married, start a career in movies, Have children, and just enjoy life. and Cassie, I hope your ok.
I've never cut myself I don't even know why people do it. How is it gonna rid you from the pain? I've always think of suicide but not that I want to do it. I just think of what would happen if I do it. Oh and I have to be depressed like maybe once a week but I guess thats normal. I was really depressed last year just because of my parents divorce. But now i'm over it, I realized that all of this isn't worth my life. Theres things I wanna do before I die. I wanna get married, start a career in movies, Have children, and just enjoy life. and Cassie, I hope your ok. [/b][/quote] For the time being, yes I am ok Omar, thanks. I totally stand beside Will's comment on inflicting physical pain. It's painfully true (no pun intended ) Cutting was my escape from my emotional pain I was dwelling on. Unfortunately for me I don't need any pain from me or anyone else to harm myself.
i've cut myself for probably like a year and a half. i stopped cutting in december. but like 2 weeks after that, i probably did the stupidest thing i could do. i tried to overdose on medication. after that i got help. and since then i didn't 'really' cut. it were just scratches. i hope you can work things out Cassie!