This is so odd. My friend knows all too well about me and Neil... I wanna tell Neil everything. There's been tension between us on the phone lately, he doesn't see it, but I feel it hard. I'm so sick of trying to stow all of these sh*t away from the one person that really matters... I wish I could tell him now... :'(
Maybe you can't help feeling a little attracted because Neil isn't there. As soon as he gets back for good, you will have him there again and you won't have anything to worry about. You might be feeling a little bit attracted to the guy because he is close and Neil is away and you just want someone close to care about you? I don't think that made much sense but I hope you get the idea of what I am going on about. Just keep thinking about all the good things about you and Neil and the good things you do together .
:hugz: Neil is a sweet sweet guy. Maybe you should talk to him on the phone about it.. I'm sure he'll understand. Tell him that you feel tension between you two on the phone latley and it's been hurting you.. Tell him about your friend and how you still love Neil but you don't understand what's going on with all these feelings and that it might be because Neil isn't there at the moment. I'm sure once Neil comes back you'll forget all about these feelings. Good luck Cassssiie.
i am not happy with myself at all...i lay in bed at night and cut myself with a blade from a pencil sharpner...my mom is being totally unfair to me in terms of how i want to dress and look and my dad snaps at everything i do...what the hell is the problem here?
cass cass: :hugz: aww my baby. i feel sorry for you. i think that you should tell neil. even though theres tension between you guys, just tell him. you'll feel better, and he'll know whats going on. *hugs* opening the wounds: well... i think that youre depressed. *pretends to be the expert* no, seriously. i think you should go and see a psychatrists. dont get therapy, but he can give you medicine. *hugs* ive been through this.
my parents are the same way to me, and i was the same way. but somewhere between getting drunk and suspended from school and getting put in a hospital because of my suicidal thoughts (and yes, they were thoughts, not actions) i realized that if my parents hate me that much, there is nothing i can do about it. there is no point trying. i am done with them, and as soon as i graduate (284 days!) i am leaving and i am never going to look back, and i will be the better person for it. i do not care enough about what they think of me anymore for it to make any difference to me now. it is too late. the damage is done and i have to find a way to survive.