2 years ago, when my dad committed suicide. My dad, he was my hero and the one I could always rely on. I was very depressed and I tried to kill myself several times. When that didn't work, I started to run away from home and leave my family for weeks. I found this poem yesterday somewhere, I wrote this when I ran away for 1 month. Dont'worry. I'm doing fine now ----------------------------------- Have you ever felt so lost? Lost inside your body, your mind Knowing your life will soon end And you don’t have the answers you need to find Feeling as if you’re on that cliff And you know you’re going to fall Starvation and depression killing you So weak that you must crawl I try to work out why it is like this Why tonight I am choosing suicide Sat on a beach- I do not know where Running so fast- I need to hide Nobody can save me My soul, it is just too black I promised I would try and I did I am sorry but I cannot go back My arm- bright red Stained skin from my blood I am swimming wish such currents And my soul is draining like I said it would Mum- I love you with all my heart But I wanted you there more I guess it is just too late now Maybe I should have mentioned something before To my brother and sister I love you so much too I wish I’d got to know you better And I wish we did not argue My friends and my dear boyfriend Thank you for sticking by me through thick and thin But this battle is just too strong And I know that I cannot win With my goodbyes gone and sorted My wrists will once again be covered by the darkest red I will take my tablets one by one And when the sea washes in, I will be dead
It truly is a sad poem it's good though.It's a good thing that you changed your mind about the situation.