I'd put this in Something you want to let out, but I'm afraid, it won't get noticed. I am absolutely fucked right now. 1.: My girlfriend broke up (Yeah...pain...everyone knows what it's like...not really the point of this post anyway.) 2.: I've been vomitting ever since tuesday but I don't know why...I'm not sick. That's all I know. Everytime I eat or drink something I feel so unbelievably disgusting and regurgitate everything almost straight away...I'm scared as fuck. 3.: I don't want to go to my doctor, because I'm afraid of the results. If my mom finds out that I've been vomitting lately, she'll go haywire. She's depressed lately and I think she's on the edge of wanting to commit suicide. I'm afraid she might totally lose it, if she finds out what's wrong with me. 4.: I've been drinking a lot lately, to kinda cover the whole vomitting / feeling hurt issue. I wake up everyday and have a few more scabs on my chest and stomache, but can't remember doing anything stupid, 'cause I wasn't THAT drunk. 5.: My dad and grandparents found out that I'm bisexual and...well...they kinda called since 1 whole year and made me feel like an outcast. I'm confused and hurting terribly. I just don't know where to go or what to do...or even where to start. P.S.: I'm terribly sorry, if anybody feels like I'm wanting attention and thinks this should be in Something you want to let out. I know it probably should be there, and totally accept it, if someone feels like moving it there. -Chris-
Answer: Listen to My Chemical Romance But seriously? Your emotional state combined with drinking a lot is likely causing you to throw up. Some people are more susceptible than others, but stress definitely causes physical responses, like a sick stomach. And drinking obviously doesn't help that. Just get out, see friends, cut down on the alcohol, and get things back in order. Meet new people, appreciate the old ones, get away from your bitch of a mother so she doesn't bring you down with her, and at worst just keep distracted on these things until you feel okay. As you recall, I had a rather bad break up last year in January and wanted to die...and you were telling me to snap out of it. Now, you haven't mentioned being suicidal, so make sure you don't consider that.
(Vomitting started way before the drinking...should've added that...sorry) I guess you're right...I was away the past few days...helped a bit...But it seems like it's getting worse, after being with other people that could distract me. I kinda have this nagging feeling, that it's just something I have to wait out...I hope not though
First of all dude I'd just calm down for a second. You need to be thinking rationally and drinking wont help this whatsoever. The vomitting could be down to the stress you're putting yourself under with this whole situation and drinking is the last thing you should be doing to cure sickness. Breaking up sucks but eventually you'll move on. The hurt is only for a while. Eventually you'll find someone, just keep on looking. I think it's wise for you to tell your mother because it's something that she should know whether she's depressed or not. You should both be there for each other to help each other through what you're both going through. It's always a hell of a lot more effective to be working through something with someone else than by yourself and by working together with your mother you're helping resolve two issues at once. By being bisexual and actually having the guts to admit that you are (as I'm certain that there are a far greater number of bisexual guys than people would like to admit) makes you more of a man than your father or grandparents. Screw them - it's your life and if they wanna treat you like an outcast then fine, just pity them for their ignorant stance. You need to tell them this is who you are and you deserve respect. Finally, everyone hurts some time Chris. It passes though. Just persevere and believe that things will get better and look ahead to a brighter tomorrow because if you let yourself get upset by the way things are now then you'll never move on. It's easier said than done, I know, but at the end of the day you need to just take it as a learning curve as you'll come out a better person as a result of this bad patch. Keep your chin up Chris.
Personally, with what you told me of your Mom, I would say don't tell her, it would just make things worse. But that is up to your judgment...just make the decision sober lol.
@ Luke: Thanks...I know I'm not dealing with this the way I should...guess I caved in. I'll try keeping away from the alcohol and I guess I can try staying positive. But I have to admit...telling my mom really wouldn't be the best idea...this is a sort of broken home atm. I'd tell my mom, if there hadn't been some of the recent events to keep me from doing so.
Also, watch some seinfeld. It is hilarious enough to distract you when your friends and such are busy
If you don't want to see a doctor and you can't talk to anyone you know in person about it, I guess you should probably just try doing what esaul suggested. In both of his posts, haha.
You need to go to the emergency room if you keep vomiting. You're going to end up dehydrated and then you'll really feel awful. Right now, that seems to be the most important thing you've got to take care of. The other things just seem to be things that you've just got to figure out how to accept or deal with. Everyone goes through similar things (maybe not so extreme, but everyone does) and most of them learn to deal with it. I'm sure if you just put your mind to it, everything will be okay. But make sure you go to the hospital if you keep vomiting.
I agree, though your heart feels like a shattered mess, health goes before everything. You can take care of the rest afterwards, but for now the actual physical problem goes first. I hope you'll be okay.
First you need to talk to your Mom and tell her you're worried about her. Talk to her and discuss with her about what you're both feeling, and maybe that will help her calm down a bit. Once you do that you NEED to tell her how you're feeling with the vomiting and what not. Even if your mother is depressed.. I'm sure she would be there when you're in need. At least I hope she would. And if you can't do that, tell another relative or at least a friend.. and just so you know, you're not alone in this world and if you just keep your head high and stay positive you should do fine. I know that may sound stupid to you, but showing how positive you are in front of your Mom even, it might help inspire her to stay positive as well. I hope you'll be okay, but health definitely comes first. I hope I helped. I'm never all that good with advice, but good luck. <3
If you havent already and the vomiting hasnt abated, go to the doctor, now. Vomiting multiple times can lead to worse things than just dehydration. Maybe the doc cant help you immediately but he can probably refer you to someone you can. You should take your health as first priority.
Do not gulf down food, have alittle bit. Perhaps your body is in Aftershock after losing someone and being so emotionally affected, and hurt. Start with little things. Eat something, drink water, down some vitamins. Try to think clearly, Don't panic, and stop drinking. Good luck on recovery.
Don't forget something important: that YOU can change all those situations you describe depending on the way you handle them! I hope you are a strong-willed person..try to find logical solutions!! First of all, talk with your mother, give her a hug and let her now how important she is! Then discuss your health problem with her+consult a doctor! Don't panic-no reason to feel like that!! Now think about yourself+the things that make you happy!Enjoy your life and don't let other people to depress you with their criticism! Smile and you'll feel a looooooot better! ["Always look on the bright side of life!"-----trust Monty Python! ;-)]