I've only written 2 "poems" or "songs" in my life. Well, one is actually a poem and the other is just one huge paragraph. (I split it as best as I could.) I di both of these roughly 3 years ago,a nd decided to post them out of fun. The first one, obviously, is made with a crap load of LP song titles, and the other is just..something #1 Watching the happy people go around and round the Carousel, over and over again. And something a Part Of Me breaks down, crumbles to the ground. And that Part Of Me never goes away until I'm Forgotten. Some people don't care about how insecure I am, so vulnerable, so emotional inside. Then I suddenly become so Numb, sitting alone in my room where I can't feel, hear, or see anything, where I am so focused on making the wounds as deep as the pain would let me. So I sit here to think about my problems, attempting at Breaking The Habit, taking another shot at the only option I ever had, never looking back until I relize that I'm One Step Closer to the edge, trying not to break. And just when I think I'm all finished, I Hit The Floor, Crawling everywhere, looking for a place to curl up into a ball in a corner. And then I come to think of my troubled past so I can find myself again so I can just take everything From The Inside, and everything that comes out is just as useless as me and I throw myself and all the feelings away, thinking it's Easier To Run, but then I Faint from the wounds I have sliced deep into my arms. I suddenly become light headed and fall into a dream, a cloud of smoke, and I know this place is Somewhere I Belong, and this is the epic place that I’ve dreampt of being in With You, but you wouldn't want to be here with me because all your doing is Pushing Me Away, and I don't realize why until I see that Nobody's Listening. And as I attempt to move my life Foreword and try to Step Up to my dreams and erase the memories and the feelings I ever had for you, I wasn't able to get rid of you because it wasn't easy, your like something beneath my skin, irritating me to the point where it's unbearable. I try to find a Cure For The Itch, but In The End, I find A Place For My Head, a place By Myself where I know nothing can harm me. Then I came up with this Technique all on my own, but it failed, and I wanted to Runaway from everything that was evolving around me. Then I say to myself that I'm going to give you all I have, and It's Goin' Down tonight, but in my mind I find myself at the beginning again, so I wonder what happened, but I realize I'm so Dedicated to try and make this work, and that I've been trying for so long but nothing works because you keep Reading My Eyes, you know my next move even before it comes to my mind. I can't stop the rush for you, can't stop the pain I give myself because of you, and I can't control my feelings, and I can't control myself. And now that you realize I'm gone, knowing my Fuse ran out on you, it's your loss, I’m not turning back for you now, not ever, and now, you have gone away. #2 "Yeah, Anyway" Well, here we are once again Starting over Just because the shit hit the fan My feelings for you Came down on me like a ton of bricks But the words that I said Didn't mean a damn thing to you While I lay here in bed I watch the blood drip to the floor As my image starts a blur I'm as soft as fur Taking the hit to the heart You didn't care And all you did was tear me apart I wanted to tell you what you meant to me And how special it would have came to be I've told you something like this before But this time my feelings were straight to the core I'm getting dizzy now Do you care? So then I think of how much more I can bare Do I continue with this game? Or do I lay low, fading away in shame I was always told to hold my head up high Thinking I would make it by I've been trying for years And all you have given me was tears I don't know what I'm doing wrong I don't want this thing to be gone I really think this could work out But I think your afraid that all we will do is scream and shout The blood is getting thicker now As my walls fade to black I still think of you in this shaded vision I have I hope this isn't the end