N's w/ "Y?" I remember when I was ten I sat alone in school Bullies picked on me because they thought that they were cool When I went to Jr. high, I'd soak up their ways And ingrate them into my lonely life But now I feel so ashamed I'd take back each word I said that caused any pain I've became everything that I'd despise And got lost behind each and every one of my lies So I sobered up my sickening ways And became a caring child throughout those days I remember my first girl friend, and the love she proclaimed to me I said the same thing then, until I fell in love with my best friend I told her I didn't know what to say, she just said fine to go my way Before I'm finally buried in the dirt beneath my grave I'll remember those things that in life that they gave And when the moon shines a crimson black That cast a glow of light about my face I'll forget all of the regrets I've ever had And encase them in stone set to decay And the questions I ask when I die Will begin with "how?' and end with "why" Not too long ago I had no where that I could go Almost lived on the streets and sold my soul Then a friend offered me into his house I can still remember the things we talked about Asked me if I believed in god I said I did But that was before my life turned to shit But now I don't feel ashamed I know the words I said they caused some pain Before I'm finally buried in the dirt beneath my grave I'll remember those things that in life that they gave And when the moon shines a crimson black That cast a glow of light about my face I'll forget all of the regrets I've ever had And encase them in stone set to decay Yet the questions I'll ask when I die Will begin with "How? and end with "Why?' Do we have to die like a rose that withers away Do our tears pile up until we're blinded by their waves The only answers that I'll receive Will come from my past that's part of me The only question I'll ask when I die Will begin with "How?' and end with "Why?" And in that final moment at the end of life When my breath escapes and color fades from out my eyes In the conclusion of my time I'll only have one thing left to say It's the only question I'll ask when I die Will begin with "How?' and end with "Why?"