So I look at this paper for hours, trying to write Something that supposedly will make me feel alright Something that'll help me get through the night Something that will hopefully get me over this fight That's going on inside my mind, day in and day out Causing absolutely miserable never-ending doubt And it's one of the things that I just can't stand And it's one of things that I don't understand Simply impossible to comprehend As if there's no end to the bends and twists that come out and in I guess you can't really describe what I'm going through It's not something I could easily describe to you But if you'd ever like to know, I'll be glad to let you know And let show what I have to go through, but although It's so painful to vent, it's harder to keep it in And I'd rather let the whole world know how I pretend That I'm not in pain, and that things are okay And I get through without anger and hatred everyday And that nobody truly knows what I go through And everything I say or do is made up on cue And the only way to possibly feel much better Is to write things down or to break things altogether But it gets to the point where I just can't take it And it gets to the point where I just won't fake it And this is the last time that I'll explain this through So sit down and listen as I describe this to you Have you ever felt upset to the point where you just broke Like an overheated glass, or soda overflow And your anger spilled like the carbonation and spilled on those Who you loved and became the ones you hated, your foes Well, for me it happens all the time and it breaks me even more I've been broken so many times I can't take much more And I don't know what'll happen when I reach the limit And whether I'll be able to handle it or if I'll have to deal with it I guess it's just a matter of time Until I reach the last line, and finish my last pessimistic rhyme Maybe it's all in my head, but I really don't know It's hard to admit, but it's easier to say no I can't let go of everything I've done All the times I tried to hide away or run All the times I thought it'd go away That it wouldn't stay, if I didn't think about it everyday I was wrong, and all the pain stayed for so long Neglecting it was a mistake, thinking forgetting it would have it gone But it cost me much of my life and left me scars And I regret how I didn't put my mind to good use from the start But we all make mistakes, no matter how big or small No matter what we do we can't avoid making them at all Everyday gives us a lesson to learn Consequences we earn from things we make occur I think we all get to the point where things fall apart All the easy things we do become so hard And everything we found funny isn't anymore We don't care about things that we cared about before We're convinced that nobody really cares That we say false prayers and that life isn't fair But everybody we know gets a share of the pain And it's like we don't care, like we hurt them to gain A sense of confidence that we so desperately need In a time where all we can depend on is our greed But if you wonder why this is, I'll tell you why it's like this And as much as you may hate it, you may become like it So, when it gets to the point where your body becomes tense And everything just doesn't seem to make any sense Just get a grip of something, and hang on tight Because not everybody makes it through at the end of the night - - - This is just something I wrote during the summer. It took me a while to write, but I eventually got it done. I would have posted it up earlier, but I never got the chance to since I had to transfer my files from one computer to another just yesterday. The name is just random. I couldn't think of a title.