Morphine Come a little closer Come and dive right in I ain't gonna stop you I'm just gonna let my fears win... And nothings gonna stop it now I feel it coming back to me Pouring into my skull all my misery I can't escape it, I have to let it linger Put something inside me Make it my morphine Then make the pain go away Rip out another page of my life Now go back and rewrite it There's no need to bring me down My mind's already eroding Now my word's collapsing I feel it coming back to me Pouring into my skull all my misery I can't escape it, I have to let it linger Put something inside me Make it my morphine Then make the pain go away Nothing is what it really seems it just builds up inside me Everyone's my enemy since they just wanna fight me I'm all alone and have been for so long I'm stranded here with no one to save me I feel it coming back to me Pouring into my skull all my misery I can't escape it, I have to let it linger Put something inside me Make it my morphine Then make the pain go away I'm gonna walk away leave the past behind I'm gonna find a new life somwere I can stand my own ground I'm gonna say goodbye
this is very honest to what you feel, you communicate it with clarity and in a way that touches and if i speak for myself, i can relate to it, it comes from your heart and having felt the same most of my life its great to read it and feel touched. but believe me the journey out of what you describe is possible, painful, but there is power to be found out there. the morphine can actually just be feeling your pain and that is the way out, being able to feel it, makes it go away more then anything, but we always long for something to take it away from us for us and its understandable and going to the space you describe has been my trip for so long.