Speechless. Hurt. Lost. Gutted. I just couldn't imagine what Chester was going through. Rest in piece Chester. An awesome talent to most, a saviour to many. You will never be forgotten. One more light goes out. My condolences go out to his wife, kids and band mates. Stick together. I'm not a religious man by any means, but I really hope there's a place for you to rock on in piece. I have so much more to say, but I can't find the words. You will be missed mate.
None of us would know each other if it wasn't for Linkin Park. As of right now, lets be here for each other. Let's be here for the band. May your love never end and if you need a friend, there's a seat here alongside me.
I hope that everyone who has had the privilege of seeing Chester perform live truly appreciates it. There are so many of us who truly, truly longed for that moment, to be in the crowd. To maybe catch eyesight with him during a song or touch his hand in the crowd. What a monumental force for rock music that he was.
I cannot express myself at the present time, I can only say that reading every single comment in this LPA thread has been the only thing close enough that could be called "comfort" A literal part of me has died, and will never be exactly the same ever again.
The pain is indescribable. I wish I could write a big text but I just keep listening to the songs, crying and reading the amazing life stories here and in LPL. Of course I have one too but I'm just so fucking hurt by this I can't write much. It really helps to read the posts, they make me feel I'm not alone, thank you all for the amazing community. My heart is aching so much I didn't sleep a single minute.
I've gotten to shake his hand and meet him at meet and greets. I also got to hold his hand and hug him while he was on stage. While those memorable moments were fleeting, they are something I will never forget.
Hey Derek, It's good to hear from you. A couple of us here were pretty worried. Thanks for your advice as well. I'm pretty broken this has happened, I lost my dad, my dog and my best friend in a span of 6 months this year and now we've lost Chester. I will forever regret never seeing/meeting CB in person and there goes my dream of LP ever coming to India. I hope the rest of the bandmates endure. Whatever decision they take I will respect and support it. This community has been a support system of sorts these past few years, I've rarely posted since I joined, but I've been reading these forums for years. I will forever love this community built by the band and fans and I hope we can endure as well.
That's beautiful. Despite how their music is, Chester was such a soft and gentle man and it's one of my favorite things about our fandom that we can all appreciate that about him. I know so close to his passing how hard it is to not feel sad and weep for him, that's all I have been doing all night, but it's uplifting to see all of these memories that we can share of the good times with Chester. Please, anyone who has met Chester and had him as a part of your life, keep talking about the beautiful moments with him. We all need this right now.
I can't even listen to any of the music. If I hear even an intro of something I have to turn it off because it's not going to help me. I'm sort of like the opposite to what most of you are writing here. You're finding comfort in listening to his music and I couldn't think of anything worse right now . I actually sung One More Light after he died, but the instrumental. I don't want to listen to his voice. I just dread what I will go through when I hear it. I've had a couple of random moments of me just crying for minutes straight. I'm so sad and surreal. I just feel so sorry for him and his innocence. I don't even know what I'm writing anymore but I don't know what to do for him other than write about it. Hope everyone is okay considering.
I was supposed to see them on the 28th...third attempt at trying to see them. First time I couldn't back in like 2007 because of financial reasons, 2nd time was THP tour he broke his ankle a week before my show.....and 3rd............ I am the same as you.
I was 16 when my best friend visited me and we watched MTV and then the OSC Video came and he was like "check that out, they're awesome". No, this was not the beginning of a big love. I didn't like it at all haha. Don't know why. Months later Crawling was on MTV and I watched it because I was a little in love with Katelyn. I watched it over and over and then finally bought the album, whose cover later became my first LP Tattoo. I was immediatly in love and from then on listened to no other band for many years! ITE Video came out, I recorded it and watched it over 50 times the same day. My mother said if I keep on watching it it will become boring to me. I KNEW that will never happen. And it never did and never will be. LP and Chester shaped me, made me who I am today and I'm very thankful for that. I have to admit I was disappointed by the latest record, but now I see it in a new light. I always thought LP was immortal, they will always be there. They where my only constant for 16 years and now it's over. I don't think they will carry on with LP and it might be better this way. Chester is irreplaceable. I guess this chapter is closed. But they will always be my favorite band. Some things never change. My thoughts are with Talinda and their children. With the whole band and his friends. I can't imagine how they feel. To every Soldier here in the forum: you are not alone. We're in this together. We'll get through this together. Like others said before: IF SOMEONE FALLS DOWN, PICK THEM UP. This might be my next tattoo...
Yesterday I met a good friend of mine, in a restaurant, I haven't seen for a long time. I think I will never go there for a long time...the last time I went there were the horrible terrorist attack in Paris and yesterday we got the news of Chester. Another two friends of mine sent me a messsage and I just couldn't believe, so I decided to not to talk to my friend in the restaurant about it, because it wasn't confirmed yet and I hoped it were fake...We said goodbye and the first thing I heard in the radio was, that Mike confirmed it. I bursted into tears and for the way home I can't stop crying. I went home but my parents couldn't understand why I was crying. I was questioning myself: Do I overreact? Should I cry for someone who didn't know me? After seconds I was convinced and the answer was yes. Yes it is totally alright to cry. Yes it is totally alright to write with friends about what happend. Yes it was totally alright to think, that a big part of me died. I was shocked like everyone of you. I had the privilege to see Linkin Park 5 times (2008, 2010 (2 times), 2014 and 2015). Me and another good friend planned to go a concert as soon they will come to Germany again. We both thought of it during the evening yesterday. It helped me a lot to write about it with my friends and to write here. I read a lot of the comments and this helped me a lot too, because I know that I'm not alone. Thank you Linkin Park, thank you Chester, thank you my friends for every single moment with this indescribable music, songs and lyrics, that helped me through hard time in my youth. My condolence goes to his family, Linkin Park, their team and everyone who felt heartbroken. Thank you to share this with all of you.
Chester was the reason I fell in love with the band. His voice lent so much to the music. Old and new. He was unique. There will be no one else like him. R.I.P.
I'm still in denial and shock, I know it's not healthy not to be able to accept things but I just can't. Million thoughts and questions are in my head, mostly why, why, why. I can't believe he was so depressed, he seemed to be doing a lot better but that's the thing with depression: you put on a happy face and nobody can see how much you're suffering. I also feel guilty because I'm currnetly at my friend's house whose dad died a month ago and feel like I should be comforting her but just can't sit around and chit chat happily. I also haven't told her what's going on because it seems so selfish knowing what she went through. My thoughts are with the band and the family, what they must be going through and what it's like to prepare for your husbad/father/best friend's funeral. I want to cry and shout but my mind is blank again. It's so hard to deal with this and although I know I won't do anything to myself it's still so scary to think about everything. I also can't believe we have to say goodbye to Chester, like all of you I felt that day will come in 30 to 40 years, not so soon.
Could someone link me to the version of Crawling that's at the end of this video? It's very well done and one of my favorite performances of Chester's and I can't quite find it. Edit: Also, the TTM video is such a good showcasing of Chester's spirit, passion, and energy. Love it.
I lost my dad and my dog too within a year. Looks like we're brothers in loss. I'm here if you need to talk, and thanks for your worry. I'm okay, just hurting. I lost someone who felt like a brother to me.
I'm so sad since I've heard about it for the first time. It always felt like the band will last forever and I'll be able to watch Chester in 30+ years on concerts, promoting their 16th album. I still can't believe it but I know I'll have to. Linkin Park is a part of my life and a big piece of this part is missed now. It hurts so much. Stay strong, all. Rest in peace, Chaz.
All I can add here is that if you really are facing the depression you describe, don't think you have no one to turn to. Reach out and tell an actual friend or family member about it. Do something about it. If you don't face it head on, it will lay there dormant and attack you when you are least prepared. The fact that Chester and so many others can't deal with this means that the rest of us need serious help in defeating this very personal cancer.
Lordblood, I second this above post. Please seek help if you're depressed and contemplating suicide. It's never too late, and you're not alone.
"I'll be Sorry for Now, that i couldn't be around, there will be a day that you will understand" Imagine if he is singing this song on the other side.