Discussion in 'News' started by Joe, Jul 20, 2017.
I just got home from a long fuckng surreal day, had a breakdown, posted this on my instagram.
It's like losing a dear friend.
I'm so shocked, heartbroken and angry that this is how it ends for one of the greatest vocalists of our time.
I don't even know where to start.
For the past decade, Chester was my savior. Not only did I follow linkin park, I followed every direction he went in music. Dead by sunrise was a cool little side project, but most significantly (side project) was stone temple pilots. I was fortunate enough to see Chester with stone temple pilots live and it shocked me. His musical capabilities shocked everyone and continued to amaze millions.
I was fortunate enough to meet chester at a linkin park meet and greet and realized how passionate he was to music and his fans.
For years now I've scavenged these forums reading and analyzing every little detail of every song, and have seen countless rants about "which LP album sucked" etc... Now it's not a matter of which one sucked, it's the value of material we have now and will never get another album again blessed with his voice.
As for the future of the band in my personal opinion, I feel as the rest of them should retire linkin park. Although, I feel like mike can never stop writing, so I can see him doing a fort minor project or something. I just want the rest of Linkin park to know that they can head any direction they desire. If they retire, I hope they are able to live peaceful lives with their families.
As for LP association, I would like to thank all of you for being such an amazing community through all of everything. You guys are family to me. This is not a goodbye, I will always be around on these forums. If ANY of you need help, I am able to talk to any of you.
National Suicide Prevention Hotline:
I'm up after a restless night and still hope it's just a nightmare that will soon end. My mind keeps telling me it's true and replaying the last concert, M&G, wonders what was going on in Chester's head, imagines what the rest of the band might feel like, his family, how devastated they all are, it wonders why, tries to rationalize the fact that there'll never be another concert or album and deal with the fact that the person I looked up to died. Looking at the photos is devastating and I haven't tried watching the videos or listening to songs because I just can't, too much to handle as tears are in my eyes while I'm only writing.
LP was the first band that I started to be obsessed with, spent hours searching the net for the videos, lyrics and their meaning and felt like each verse was describing how I felt and that helped me to get through a major depression. It felt like Chester's screaming hit the spot and listening to song after song I felt like going through catharsis and it made me feel better at the end. Nobody knew what I was going through and when I started contemplating suicide their songs pulled me through that because lyrics were so powerful that I felt like screaming my angst out.
The day I met the band, my saviors and heroes is one the best days of my life and will always cherish that moment.
I've always seen Chester as a survivor, a person who will do anything to stay alive because he went through abuse, bullying, alcohol, drugs which is too much for one person to handle but he seemed to be able to cope well especially since Heavy came out. He is a person I look up to because he managed to overcome everything and start a family, have a successful band, pour his heart out on the stage and find time to interact with fans. He was a multitalented person and had sl much to offer to the world.
I must confess I'm a bit angry (I guess those are stages of grief) and I don't know if it is at God, world or even Chester (don't take me the wrong way, I understand suicide and know he felt like he had no way out) but this just isn't fair! I felt like I lost a friend and never thought I'd say this for a person I don't know. However, I feel like we all got to know him through lyrics and interviews and that's why it's so terrible.
Big hugs to all of you, I still can't really say anything, it feels like a good friend that always had my back just left and now I just feel sorrow and emptiness.
Heartbroken, speechless I couldn't believe it when I heard it. This is the most painful post I never thought I would read in this site... just have to say thank you Chester, your music will live forever.
I work as an entertainer in a holiday camp, where the job mostly consists of being dynamic and happy all the time. I'm starting my shift in 1 hour, and I'm still absolutely screwed up about Chester's death. This is gonna be hard.
I would like to feel angry, because this is a terrible message to send to his 6 kids and to million of fans, but no. Right now, it's just damn sadness.
It was always my dream to goto one of their concerts. I can't imagine not getting another LP album again.
I keep hoping this turns out to be a hoax but the void his death has left can't be filled. I can't imagine how his family, band might be feeling now.
Linkin Park helped me through my life and I just hope Chester rests in peace.
Thank you Linkin Park.
I'll miss you.
Lots of heavy hearts in the world today.
I'm just some guy...but I feel like I've lost a brother today. It hurts.
I can't imagine how devastated those close to Chester are feeling.
Look after each other out there.
Going to get some sleep now to hopefully wake up later and find out it was all a bad dream.
Love you all guys! stay strong!
The problem is that suicide isn't a clear message. It's not simply quitting from life, there's always a lot behind and it's always different. We'll probably never know.
I'm not the hardcore gan or the good kind of fan. I love them, yet I can't enjoy their couple albums, it doesn't make sense, but I do love them.
I don't know if there's fan out there want to say fuck you to Chester, because he is inspiring, he encouraged people doing stuff and simply being alive.
And yet that's it, he kind of like Robin Williams, I don't know that man well, so I don't have that much to grieve. Chester is different for me, he said more than one time "life is great". Right now, I don't feel a thing. I once imagined they got old, then his tattoos creased and got fade. I don't know this full of energy, talented, being loved and beautiful being is suicidal. It's cliche to say like this way.
I was with my best friend Zak. We walked out the cinema after seeing War for the Planet of the Apes. We were feeling so good.
Zak shows me a text saying Chester committed suicide. I chuckled and rolled my eyes, going onto LPA on my phone. I couldn't log in. It kept loading.
I was still chuckling when I googled Chester. Then I saw it.
I kept on chuckling. I felt my eyes grow wider and the laughter die from my face into a silent scream.
When I was battling Aplastic Anemia and GVH Disease as a child, Chester was there to keep me strong. When I felt alone and shunned in high school, Chester was there to lift me up. And now, when I'm finally happy and whole in my life, Chester is no longer here.
Chester grew up with many demons in his life. He struggled with those demons and he fought them off. He triumphed, and came out the other end a better, brighter person. In the end, the demons came back and took him down.
Now it's up to us to fight his fight and to carry his torch. Make a promise to yourself on this day. Fight that one addiction that plagues you, fight it to win. Whether it's smoking, alcoholism, drug addiction, porn addiction, or just a bad habit. Let's break the habit. In his memory.
You lifted me up. Now I have to let you go.
Hey, short video about Chester Bennington, he will be remembered...
I am absolutely stuck for words...... after being a fan for around 14 years this is truly shocking, just dont know what to say, RIP
How come Kiiara hasn't said anything yet?
I'm gonna assume she is probably on her way there now.
Hello everyone, this is first post of me on this forum, been watching/following for a long time tho..
I really don't know how to put this all into words, first of all because english isn't my first language, but mainly because i don't fucking know what to do with myself...
Since i was about 16 years old i have been dealing with a serious depression, because of things like being hit, bullied, humiliated and much more from kinder garten till college. Many more things that play a part but this is the main reason.
While this was all happening linkin park helped me getting trough this shit, the voice of chester is the thing i wanted to hear when things went dark and ( don't know how to call it ) when i had an episode, and even when i attempted suicide his voice in iridescent were blasting on repeat on my speakers.
To believe that my idol who got me trough the darkest of days has committed suicide himself, i don't know, it's just to ironic if i look at it like that.
My depression was stable for the last 2-3 years but this year it is really hitting me hard because of many things happening, and now the death of the most angelic voice i ever heard isn't really helping at all...
I just don't know what to do now honestly, i feel so weird...
Chester was my reason to practise singing every day for over 10 years straight on, and even getting a band with the hope to only help people like Linkin Park did with theire music.but now i lost every will to ever make music again.
I just have a strange feeling that this is how you americans ( and english ) people call it is "Full Circle".
This year is hitting me hard, and now this...
I really don't know what i"m suposed to do now.
Chester you were my alltime best, my inner voice, my inspiration.
The reason i wanted to make music all along....
i'll never forgive myself for going on vaccation instead of going to the Ziggo Dome in Amsterdam to hear you sing...
Well, Linkin Park was pretty much a gateway to Western music to us kids in India (South Asia and other parts of the world as well I guess).
In high school, we would sneak our phones into school and play LP songs on the bus. Kids of different ages used to sing along to "Castle of Glass" and "Iridescent".
In an interview in 2001, Chester said that he didn't care if their music was called dumb or emo as long as their lyrics kept reaching people. It's true, "numb" might be stupid song technically but I know people who were saved by it.
"And if our doubts begin again,
The answers find us in the end,
In the meantime we'll pretend
And fake what we don't know,"
These "emo" lyrics saved me countless times. For me, Chester wasn't just a singer, he was a kind and honest man that I really looked up to.
Rest in peace, Chester. You will be sorely missed.
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